I can't BELIEVE how much I have overlooked Chiron. Started my Astrology journey almost exactly two years ago, and I believe like maybe many other's you maybe start to focus on the planets first and overlook the importance of other things. Like Chiron, in my example. I just read extensively on Chiron, and I am STUNNED of how much that resonates with me there. I don't know else what to say, I had a really low self confidence about my physical appearance, because I grew up in a home where there wasn't enough physical, emotional, mental and spiritual space for me, which left my body and face skewed. I have seldom met anyone that has looked as out of balance like I do.
The more I think about why all these things relate to where the freckin planets were on the nightsky when I was born the moer I want to stop think about it, because it's just so... un-understandable. I assume all of us (or like 99%) have this same flabbergasted sense about the whole thing. But at least I can accept that it's out of my control. I guess that's why you discover astrology when you're ready to see it, and that I, at least, don't talk a bit about astrology with anyone I don't KNOW already is into it, or at least at the gates, since it is very, vety, very much to take in. It's basically like breaking through the matrix, in a sense. Now I'm just rambling, but I don't have anywhere else to ramble about these things on, so please excuse me.
MoonChild,
I liked hearing you 'ramble' about your Astrological journey towards self reflection and understanding. You are processing it really well.
As for overlooking Chiron, that is fine that you looked towards your planets first, to get that basic understanding. So NOW you can look to Chiron, which is more nuanced and complex, and takes your understanding to a higher level.
I am glad your research into Chiron deeply resonated with you as it holds a powerful position in your birth chart. It is front and center in the 1st house, of Self and Physical Appearance, and it shows where we harbour our deepest wounds and insecurities.
I am not sure exactly how to interpret your words:
"I grew up in a home where there wasn't enough physical, emotional, mental and spiritual space for me, which left my body and face skewed. I have seldom met anyone that has looked as out of balance like I do."
But it feels like you perhaps feel some kind of BDD==[body dysmorphic disorder]
--- a body-image disorder characterized by persistent and intrusive preoccupations with an imagined or slight defect in one's appearance.
In other words, you probably do not look out of balance or skewed, when others look at you. It is internalised and then imagined?
Chiron will help you find that balance as you learn to be a healer, in whatever capacity you are drawn too.
Anyhow, I really liked this statement of yours too:
" I guess that's why you discover astrology when you're ready to see it,..."
YES, that^^^ is a true statement. I am glad you realised and accepted that riddle.
Here is one more...You said:
" I assume all of us (or like 99%) have this same flabbergasted sense about the whole thing. But at least I can accept that it's out of my control."
Ok, here is a conceptual premise to chew on now, in terms of your statement ^^^ above.... What if it is true, that it is out of your control, at this point in time...but maybe, in terms of breaking through the matrix, there was a point in time, that 'you', the soul of you, the collective unconscious 'you', the cosmic you, the you that was about to be incarnated in this particular nativity, ACTUALLY CHOSE THIS BIRTHCHART YOURSELF?
