Marinka, thank you for sparing me fifteen minutes for your time. You are the only one who at least gave a proper answer in this thread. If I had a penny for every minute you spent on reading everyone's charts here, you'd be a millionaire by now.

At least I got an answer in this thread so I think I'm closing it now.
You may not have answered the question directly but you have given me more or less an idea of what may be there to come. Coincidentally, I happen to have a bit of knowledge in numerology and it points out that 2022 is going to be a year to remember for the rest of my life (whether it's for the good or bad, I don't know), and it coincides with what you said about year 2023 and beyond.
...causes depression as the old must go and more importantly, a loss of control of the self
...it appears that your more challenging years in life might be the next 7 to 8 years
Pluto indicates that you are under the manipulation of others ... even though it may be a manipulation of love.
...behind Pluto, Saturn will eventually to this trail of planets and also causing restrictions and limitation to set in.
Oh boy I'm sooooo super tired of being depressed, lost, challenged, manipulated, restricted, and limited every single day of my life it's like a vicious, never-ending cycle.

Contrary to what everyone might think, I strongly believe in free will and all, but I guess this is more or less the story and overarching theme of my life, isn't it? All I was just hoping for at least a teeny weeny small spot of sunshine to come over the horizon for a change, keepin up hopes that this isn't too much to ask for but ALAS.
Oh well. As you have said, it's not like every day is going to be hard

. It cannot be much worse than it is aint it. Gotta just close my eyes and brace for impact LOL. Shrug it off, roll with the punches and deal with it, I guess.