midnight sun
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It seems like a tough winter is waiting for me My Saturn Return is coming, astro.com shows the conjunction starting at january but also the most tensioned aspect- Venus opposition seems to start earlier.
I would like to talk about Saturn's teachings, karmic effects of it and the delay it creates of course.
Most of the people don't like Saturn and always call it malefic. I'm examining it's transits and aspects in my birth chart in the last four years and I have some insights about it and think we can discuss them.
First of all Saturn, interestingly causes events which we hate the day they happened but after a while we feel grateful for living it. So its real effects can't be seen on the first sight. Also this kind of events can be karmic, too.
In 2009 I decided to drop out from master's program in the university, I went to the school (Saturn started to square my Sun in 9th house), I learned that I have to pay all the bill of that year. I went crazy because I hated that program but after paying I decided to try one more time and finished all my lessons, went to portugal for erasmus, won scholarship for thesis etc. So it was a kind of help to me for going on, a real force but also a teaching of being passionate for getting what you want. (I felt that energy like Mars)
I have a very hard triangle of Saturn-Venus-Jupiter with nodes so I'm thinking how can this work during the Return time.
Also there are lots of delays in my life- good and healthy relationships, career(still jobless), having my own house, earning my own money- they all seems to be connected with my Saturn aspects. I understand some of them;
Saturn-Venus opposition is about not loving myself and fearing of opening heart and trusting to others, I'm in a learning process since the last one year.
I have very core fears about staying alive and I don't know how to heal them because as the 2nd house shows they come from past life-family life and childhood. They will be triggered perhaps. (I'm having sexual abuse therapy)
But I still couldn't understand of money issues connected to this aspect, I mean Saturn staying in 2nd house and opposing 8th. I have luck of using other's money. I always have money from my family and won two scholarships for my education. But I never earned my own money. When I have a plenty of money in my hand, I usually collect it, and don't spend it for a long time.
So what are the lessons Saturn can teach me now? I learned to be passionate to reach my goals in its previous transit. Now it's coming for several issues, family, money, career, relationships. Emotionally I start to close my self slowly. Usually I feel in hard transits Saturn doesn't give much chance(like I lived before), it just forces you to accept the situation and go on. How should I behave now?
I would like to talk about Saturn's teachings, karmic effects of it and the delay it creates of course.
Most of the people don't like Saturn and always call it malefic. I'm examining it's transits and aspects in my birth chart in the last four years and I have some insights about it and think we can discuss them.
First of all Saturn, interestingly causes events which we hate the day they happened but after a while we feel grateful for living it. So its real effects can't be seen on the first sight. Also this kind of events can be karmic, too.
In 2009 I decided to drop out from master's program in the university, I went to the school (Saturn started to square my Sun in 9th house), I learned that I have to pay all the bill of that year. I went crazy because I hated that program but after paying I decided to try one more time and finished all my lessons, went to portugal for erasmus, won scholarship for thesis etc. So it was a kind of help to me for going on, a real force but also a teaching of being passionate for getting what you want. (I felt that energy like Mars)
I have a very hard triangle of Saturn-Venus-Jupiter with nodes so I'm thinking how can this work during the Return time.
Also there are lots of delays in my life- good and healthy relationships, career(still jobless), having my own house, earning my own money- they all seems to be connected with my Saturn aspects. I understand some of them;
Saturn-Venus opposition is about not loving myself and fearing of opening heart and trusting to others, I'm in a learning process since the last one year.
I have very core fears about staying alive and I don't know how to heal them because as the 2nd house shows they come from past life-family life and childhood. They will be triggered perhaps. (I'm having sexual abuse therapy)
But I still couldn't understand of money issues connected to this aspect, I mean Saturn staying in 2nd house and opposing 8th. I have luck of using other's money. I always have money from my family and won two scholarships for my education. But I never earned my own money. When I have a plenty of money in my hand, I usually collect it, and don't spend it for a long time.
So what are the lessons Saturn can teach me now? I learned to be passionate to reach my goals in its previous transit. Now it's coming for several issues, family, money, career, relationships. Emotionally I start to close my self slowly. Usually I feel in hard transits Saturn doesn't give much chance(like I lived before), it just forces you to accept the situation and go on. How should I behave now?