Yes I had pretty rough childhood but I managed to survive trough imagination and some inner strenght, I always just have a vision that no matter what I will eventually have a really good life. And when those bad things were happening pretty much everyday I focused mainly on school and side activities, I was always great student and active in many many fields, leader and mature, my friends actually always tought i have a "perfect life" but no, I just never talked about bad stuff and pretended that they did not happen at all, I just hard hard work. And yes my kids are everything to me and changed me to better in so many ways. Ans yes I acctually wanna become an interior designer and just finishing my diploma, although i already have a master deegre in civil engineering, but I want to do something creative and express myself. Do you think interior design is better for me? I just have lack od self-worth due to traumas in childhood... So you think my kids will do fine?
I think your kids will be just fine. Your eldest has a very ‘serious sense of responsibility. Sun/Saturn conjunction in Cap in her 1st. Here father and authority figures will hold a lot of sway for her. Even though her father is away a lot for work, he needs to make time for her whenever possible and to express to her how much he loves her.
She has Moon in Cancer with nice trines to Mars/Chiron in Pisces. So that Capricorn stoic side will not fully take over. Jupiter conjunct her Sag ascendant and Venus trine her Neptune creates a very positive, optimistic, spiritual energy which will allow her to make the best of her circumstances and her many talents. She may have a very magnetic, creative energy which will grow as she overcomes her Saturn/Sun cautiousness.
Your younger daughter is also a Capricorn, but with a Sun/Mercury conjunction, not Sun/Saturn like her older sister. She has a Gemini Moon and Leo rising, which can create a very busy, lively free wheeling energy force. Her Moon/Venus opposition, squaring her Neptune may make it hard to focus her attention at times.
In her early years she may bounce around a lot concerning what she wants to do or study and it may worry you at times. She may appear indecisive. Eventually she will transform that scattered energy and rise above it all. Her Mars in Aries squaring Sat/Pluto can describe a quick temper. Help her manage that in her early years so she can use it in a productive way.
She may be fearless and courageous. Let her do exciting things like sports and daredevil hobbies as she matures so she has an outlet for that energy which will serve her well. She may be very competitive and don’t try and squelch that because it seems to be innate and it may be easier to allow her to capitalise on it rather than repressing it. If she wants to snowboard or skateboard or do advanced gymnastics, take her seriously because she might have the motivation to do something like that.
