I think that if abisert is from a devout family, which is how I read the OP,we need to be extra sensitive to his/her religious and family situation.
I hope abisert will come back, but I have seen another Christian on this forum, with whom I was in a lot of PM contact, leave when she ultimately decided her lot was with the teachings of her church, not with astrology. The fact that a couple of other forum members were very critical of her views didn't help matters.
Perhaps another issue to raise, though, indicated by graay ghost, is that some astrologers take a more "free will" approach to astrology, whereas others are more fatalistic and deterministic. A fatalistic view of astrology is more consistent with the thinking of the ancient pagan Greeks who founded our horoscopic astrology. Throughout the history of European astrology, back when most people who could even read were members of the clergy; they were mostly OK with "wiggle room" for moral choice within the broader confines of the horoscope.
This window of acceptance for astrology within the church began to close during the late Middle Ages, and was pretty much gone by the 1700s. William Lilly's book, Christian Astrology (1647,) could only occur in an England of greater tolerance for diverse secular and religious beliefs. After his day, astrology was eclipsed until its modern revival around 1900.
I'm still here, but will I still be able to study astrology?