While trying to size up the Universe, I looked inside my own head and thought of a universe within it, with all the intensity, longing and complexity of thoughts that are forever burrowing away inside me. Then I tried to imagine how many people alive in this world having this exact same vastness within them, at the same time, all at varying stages of their live’s. Next I thought of the trillionth x’s trillionths of people ever born or this Earth, who had ever existed and lived this exact same complexity, and then the trillionth upon trillionth of animals and species that ever existed throughout all of time and imagining a complex universe of consciousness inside their own head too. How many sun’s and sunset’s, beginnings and end’s have each been felt for any of us us all, from the humans, to the animals and even to the deep ocean creatures and trillions of upon trillions of creatures, like the trillion type of small insects and bugs that have ever lived, experiencing a consciousness as vast as my own is, each having a universe inside their head. I cannot fully comprehend the universe in my own head at times, never mi d to now multiply it by all these variables of existence to get close to how expansive the universe is, yet the universe never stops expanding and more universes’ are beinhs with consciousness are newly born to begin. It’s impossible to grasp, yet here is the reality of a trillionth x’s a trillionth of exacts same thoughts coming from the smallest to the largest of creatures who each have a universe inside of them. It is impossible to fathom how big the universe when my mind cannot fathom my own . Tragedy and beauty, loss and life being experienced each trillionth of a second by a trillion x a trillion beings over a trillion x’s a trillion times.