ok, i had a busy day but will look again this week. Your comments mentioned going to Uni, please tell me what you were studying and what is it that you really want to do? If you find that difficult to answer please tell me what areas interest you. How would you like to impact the world?
In Vedic Astrology you are Cancer Asc with Mars, Mercury and Venus ALL in 1st House
Using the Vedic sidereal system it makes you Cancer Asc, this makes you a very sensitive person and cause you to hold on to many painful memories. You will often regress back into the past and re live the traumas. Your Ascendant is at 29degrees Cancer so at the very end of the sign and getting ready to move into firey sign Leo, This transitionary zone can be challenging, and feel as if one has a loose footing, unsure of where they belong and what path they should take.
Mars is also in your ascendant in a difficult position in Cancer. Sometimes you will not feel any courage and may become a pleaser. May not speak up for oneself can lead to outburst at the most inappropriate moments, the main reason is the lack of courage in expressing ones unrest, needs in a constructve way and getting your voice heard.
Moon is in Scorpio which is ruled by Mars so because of this frustrated martian energy it is affecting your psyche. Mars is also aspecting Moon so it is doubly challenging.
HOW TO REMEDY MARS:
Donate blood (on Tuesdays if possible)
Do plenty of exercise, boxing, martial arts, run, aerobics. Helps let off steam
HOW TO STRENGTHEN MOON:
Moon is in Scorpio 5th house, you can do a ritual each day for Moon. Moon rules your Ascendant so it will strengthen your Asc too so it can be very powerful for you.
Chant Moon mantra Shram Shreem Shraum Sah Chandraya Namaha
If you are familiar you can also chant Shiva mantra, Om Namah Shivaya.
Even light a candle and offer to picture of Shiva everyday and chant for 10-20 minutes.
Do this for a month and you will benefit and continue wherever possible.
I have used mantras and rituals to remedy my Moon as it is conjunct Mars so I understand Mars-Moon issues.
You can also volunteer with women or at women centres or do some sort of social work
In Vedic astrology we divide the houses into portions called lunar mansions. The portion where your Mercury and Venus are can give rise to feelings of jealousy as it is playing out in your Asc these feelings are becoming quite harmful to yourself.
There is a lot of serpent energy in your chart, but it can act like a poison if not directed correctly. There is certainly potential to turn this power around. There is the ability to evolve spiritually and transform through Kundalini energy. However a proper teacher is necessary. Sometimes astral travel and Out of body experiences can also be had. These are clues to the special abilities that you may posess but take care not to turn this power back in on yourself with feelings of spite and jealousy.
The karaka of intelligence- Mercury and Venus - discernment in this portion also mean your insecurites and fears will effect your ability to make the right decisions. I have read your comments in the thread and can see you mentioned such occasions where you have not made good choices.
HOW TO REMEDY: Ask you guides and even your higher self to guide you into make the right decision for the highest good before you act or make decisions over major things. Practice this as a meditaion even when there aren't important choices to make. Make sure you are always only one station away from tuning into the right choice.
North Node in Leo the 2nd house of speech and early childhood will make you noticable and somewhat different especially in childhood and amongst close family. It is a lifetime where you are to experience being different from others in the way that you sound and look as 2nd house is that of speech and the face area. Two planets in Leo make you very creative and that is something you must explore. It is in a portion of Leo that represents our ancestors, so grandparents may've been very prominent in childhood or there may've been lots of old family heirlooms or belongings in the house??
Tune into your intuitive power as your chart shows you have a lot,
Cancer Asc and Moon in Scorpio. Also South Node is in 8th according to Lahiri Ayanamsa (the calculation I use) This also enhances your intuitive power. Past life using astrology is shown here,, You can follow astrology, the more you learn about yourself the more you will gain control of your path again. Also you can be good at psychology SN in 8th Moon in Scorpio for sure. Also I can see why you studied sociology with all the planets ruled by Moon. You show up as a healer too, maybe one day the wounds you experience for yourself can be used to assist others.
TALENTS
You mentioned psychology Moon in Scorpio will help with that, also South Node in 8th house gives ability to understand others psyches, also research abilities and astrology. South Node in 8th can indicate past life experience of occult sciences so you can enhance this skill in this life. South Node is also in Aquarius which means you past life you were part of a bigger grup, place in society, with North Node in 5th house it is now time to think about your own individuality and creative potential and bringing this to the forefront in this lifetime. North Node is in a portion of Leo which relates to the ancestors so there maybe some gift or skill you have inherited from ancestors. But defintley something from the past incarnation or connection can be used by yourself in the realms of creativity.
You mentioned wanted to be in management or leadership, I do see some struggles in career if you were to be a manager in a corporate and boring environment. You may be undermined or not listened to. But the Sun-NN conjunction in Leo with give you leadership skills but in a more creative field. So use you talents, charm and individuality to shine rather than just be someone that tells people what to do. Don't be afraid to explore doing something a little different and innovative. South Node in Aquarius means you have worked in large groups and communities before. But use NN in Leo placement to shine with your own ideas creatively this time. Even work for yourself one day.
I think your english is really, really good, the way you express sounds like you are english! So well done there and no doubt it would be a benefit for you to continue learning english as it seems you have picked it up very well so far.
The Vedic chart also shows you as being a healer. So bear this in mind for the future. People can benefit from having you around them. You could practice some hands on healing with your dog when he is near. Just meditate and welcome in love and healing and channel through your hands whilst resting on the dog.
Your Vedic chart also shows into your early 30's is when you will really start to bloom. Your Juipter and Moon will have experienced, grown and matured. You will be a great help to others and warm person to be with. With lots to give the world after the huddles you have overcome.
TRANSITS
I noticed in 2024 NN moves into Pisces and late 2024 to early 2025 North Node it will transit over natal Jupiter in 9th House, Jupiter does very well in Pisces so I see opportunities will open up linked to fulfilling your higher purpose , higher education, foreign travel, a spiritual path can open up. Luck may come abroad or overseas connections. This is a very good transit for you. Also Jupiter will be transiting in your 10th house of career and your role in the public domain, so will bring abundance and opportunity for you to create with your ideas
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