Can Relationships Kill Me At Some Point?


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Should I avoid serious relationships and rather stick to 1 night stand or more like friends with benefits or other healthy relations to energize myself with sexual energy?

I tend to become too emotional and loyal to the last breath and at some point I sometimes feel suicidal, love almost killed me, not even alcohol affects me so badly when things go wrong and I'm depressed, cause in my case I find love the worst drug and chemical reaction ever, nothing is so addictive and I used to often lose myself.

Sorry if I included too much data, I can edit it so it's more clear but If some detail could tell more I'd like to learn about asteroids as well. And I know this question is very specific.