Burden, toxic life, deeply

[Miod]

Hello members, I'm going through a process, I also get psychological support, but I can't get out of it. Everything feels like a burden on me. I am so tired I do not have any energy even i do not want to go outside for a walk... It's like my mind has shut itself down. I don't have any old happiness. Just when I am happy, the opposite problems occur. I've been at home and working for 2.5 years and my relationship is over. For example, the latest event I experienced in this month; I have received my residence card, but the workplace where I work, the project is closing. I stand on my own two feet always, but there are always problems. When will I live a normal life now? Do I have to go back to my country after lots of effort 😔 i apply for jobs but without any good feedback.. could you analyse ? 🙏

 

[Osamenor]

You just went through your Saturn return. That was probably extra intense, because you have natal Saturn in exact opposition to Chiron and within close orb of opposition to your Sun, so when Saturn made its return, it also opposed your Sun and then your Chiron. That would feel very burdensome. Saturn to Chiron stirs up deep rooted wounds, whatever they are. Saturn to Sun challenges your sense of self, and challenges what brings you joy. That's an especially strong challenge for a Leo Sun, because Leo is all about sense of self and what brings you joy. Back to back with Saturn/Chiron and Saturn/Saturn, it's no surprise you've sunk into depression.

Now Saturn is moving on, but Uranus is squaring your Moon. Unexpected developments that affect your home and your sense of security fit a Uranus to Moon theme. Since Moon rules your midheaven, this also shows up in your career.

You also, at the moment, have Mars coming in to square your Mars. That's a shorter transit, but it's likely to give you some impetus to get something done, and make you feel extra impatient if you don't see results right away.

 

[curiousabout77]

Hello miod,
Your 6th house ruler of work is in the 4th house so it would make sense for you to feel more comfortable working at home and in your home country.
Your 6th house work ruler is being trined by transit uranus until next year for a good chance to find a good job for your self.

 

[Miod]

Hello miod,
Your 6th house ruler of work is in the 4th house so it would make sense for you to feel more comfortable working at home and in your home country.
Your 6th house work ruler is being trined by transit uranus until next year for a good chance to find a good job for your self.

Thank you for your comments. I would like to stay in Poland but however some points show me to return .. thank you so much

 

[Miod]

You just went through your Saturn return. That was probably extra intense, because you have natal Saturn in exact opposition to Chiron and within close orb of opposition to your Sun, so when Saturn made its return, it also opposed your Sun and then your Chiron. That would feel very burdensome. Saturn to Chiron stirs up deep rooted wounds, whatever they are. Saturn to Sun challenges your sense of self, and challenges what brings you joy. That's an especially strong challenge for a Leo Sun, because Leo is all about sense of self and what brings you joy. Back to back with Saturn/Chiron and Saturn/Saturn, it's no surprise you've sunk into depression.

Now Saturn is moving on, but Uranus is squaring your Moon. Unexpected developments that affect your home and your sense of security fit a Uranus to Moon theme. Since Moon rules your midheaven, this also shows up in your career.

You also, at the moment, have Mars coming in to square your Mars. That's a shorter transit, but it's likely to give you some impetus to get something done, and make you feel extra impatient if you don't see results right away.

Thank you so much for your comments. I will keep in mind and deal with issues in this time patiently..

 

[ScorpioMaria]

You have a strong, generous, warm, friendly, creative identity/personality and emotions (Leo Sun and Moon)
But your chart shows much unhappiness since your Sun and Moon are opposed by Saturn, representing hardship and responsibility.
You may have unhappiness/difficulty with your romantic life, fun/amusement, and friends.
This will be a problem throughout life, but hopefully less so as you become stronger, more experienced.

Also your Venus (personal values) is aligned with career ambition and social status,
yet this is opposed by your Neptune (dreams) and Uranus (change/innovation) in the area of home.
You may be driven to achieve career success, but your personal changes and dreams may thwart this goal.
You may have career difficulties, because your career goals do not align with your dreams of building a home/life for yourself.
Often this means that you are unhappy with your career path.

You currently have a difficult Saturn transit, but this will end this month.
You have a difficult Uranus transit, so you may feel unsettled/unstable in some way (financially?) on/off for the next 3 years.

Are you unhappy with your current career path?
Are you unhappy with living in a foreign country?
(there is nothing in your chart favouring foreign career, except maybe Mercury in Leo in the 10th house, but there is nothing opposed)
Are you unhappy with your romantic life?
Are you unhappy with your lack of fun/amusement/enjoyment?

The good news is that your daily personality/behaviour (Ascendant) is very pleasant and nice,
and fundamentally joyful, optimistic, and benevolent due to the exact conjunction with Jupiter.
This should be very favourable/lucky to you throughout life in general,
even if your career values (Venus) and dreams (Neptune) and personal changes (Uranus) are squared.
Your Mercury in Leo in the 10th house is also favourable for your career.

Ideally, you should have some type of career where you encounter many customers, where you can be your friendly and joyful self.
This may be a more modest career, with less creativity and advancement, but you will be happier; this may or may not be in a foreign country
If you are allowed to be your naturally pleasant and optimistic Jupiter Libra self with other people, you will be much happier

 

[Miod]

You have a strong, generous, warm, friendly, creative identity/personality and emotions (Leo Sun and Moon)
But your chart shows much unhappiness since your Sun and Moon are opposed by Saturn, representing hardship and responsibility.
You may have unhappiness/difficulty with your romantic life, fun/amusement, and friends.
This will be a problem throughout life, but hopefully less so as you become stronger, more experienced.

Also your Venus (personal values) is aligned with career ambition and social status,
yet this is opposed by your Neptune (dreams) and Uranus (change/innovation) in the area of home.
You may be driven to achieve career success, but your personal changes and dreams may thwart this goal.
You may have career difficulties, because your career goals do not align with your dreams of building a home/life for yourself.
Often this means that you are unhappy with your career path.

You currently have a difficult Saturn transit, but this will end this month.
You have a difficult Uranus transit, so you may feel unsettled/unstable in some way (financially?) on/off for the next 3 years.

Are you unhappy with your current career path?
Are you unhappy with living in a foreign country?
(there is nothing in your chart favouring foreign career, except maybe Mercury in Leo in the 10th house, but there is nothing opposed)
Are you unhappy with your romantic life?
Are you unhappy with your lack of fun/amusement/enjoyment?

The good news is that your daily personality/behaviour (Ascendant) is very pleasant and nice,
and fundamentally joyful, optimistic, and benevolent due to the exact conjunction with Jupiter.
This should be very favourable/lucky to you throughout life in general,
even if your career values (Venus) and dreams (Neptune) and personal changes (Uranus) are squared.
Your Mercury in Leo in the 10th house is also favourable for your career.

Ideally, you should have some type of career where you encounter many customers, where you can be your friendly and joyful self.
This may be a more modest career, with less creativity and advancement, but you will be happier; this may or may not be in a foreign country
If you are allowed to be your naturally pleasant and optimistic Jupiter Libra self with other people, you will be much happier

You wrote my all my experiences here in foreign country in this 2.5 years... I m reading your words comments again and again 😮😮 I was really happy because some reasons which I can not fix already happened and I have responsibility to myself and also for my future.. now looking for a new job and as soon as would like to hug my old times 🙏🙏

Your Mercury in Leo in the 10th house is also favourable for your career. I hope it will work even there is square..

For relationship, i finished with him and it was almost 2.5 years . I was really sad all the time and now still sad for eveything. I hope first will be good for my career then relationship..

Thank you for your commets and opinions 🙏🙏

 

[ScorpioMaria]

Thank you for your kind words

Your Libra Ascendant, and Jupiter conjunct the Ascendant, are especially beneficial for a woman

Your charm, kindness, optimism, and beauty will be very helpful to you wherever you are

 

[ScorpioMaria]

You are a Leo with Libra Ascendant

According to Parkers Astrology:

Characteristics: affectionate, generous, gregarious
Needs: emotional involvement in work, pleasant surroundings, glamor
Possible careers: advertising, beautician, dating agency, dress hire business, dressmaking

2nd opinion, Libra with Leo Ascendant

Possible careers: interior decorator, china/porcelain industry, banking, retail

 

[Miod]

Now lets look at the 2 places you requested. We are going to be looking at the 2ndary progressed return chart for your birthday of last August. But because this is a progression it is much longer lasting than a transit or a transit return chart. We are using the 2ndary progressed rather than natal because it shows challenges that are current, and we are not interested in your tendencies in dealing with challenges.

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You cannot compare the numbers between the charts but you can compare the placement of the house positions. You can see that Minsk’s 10th house has the second highest energy in the chart and that the friction is jsut dlightly above neutral. This means that working at obtsining success or a successful like position is somthing thst will be comparably easy to do, so it won’t make you really tired doing it(assuming you can find such a job. The chart doesn’t tell you about the easy of finding a job. Finding a job is the 6th house of work. And you can see that the 6th house doesn’t have a lot of energy, so you have to keep trying over and over again, and that it has the highest friction of this place, so doing it doesn’t move along without being really stressful.

Looking at the long term relationship side, you can see that it has little energy which means you have to work at it often which is tiring, but that the friction is low so it works if you can put aside the energy to do it.

If we compare Minsk to moving back to Turkey, we can see that being successful in a job doesn’t have a lot of energy in it. Campariatively you will have to work harder and be more tired in being successful, and you can see that the friction is much higher: you won’t seem to be doing anything right. When it comes to finding a job the energy you put into it will be about the same as Minsk, but the friction is more, so it will seem a bit harder to do, and people will be LESS interested in you.

In terms of long term relationships, the energy you have to put into finding a partner is the same, but it will be harder to find someone who relates to you well.

As you con see, finding job in Minsk is much harder, but once you find it there, it will contribute way more to your feelings of success than back in
Turkey. Relationships are a bit more complicated. They start with friendships, which are way easier to get in Izmir. Then it moves to romance. Romance is way way way way better and easier to arrange and keep in Minsk than in Izmir. And once the romance moves into a partnership, you are much better off in Minsk than in Izmir.

Want to try for Lisbon, Portugal?

Thank you for all information and your analysis. This help me to see and realize a lot. My career in Poland would go better than in Turkey was the answer to my questions. Your analyse is very accurate. I am glad to get answer by the consistency of this method. Thank you so much for your time and effort. I m really glad to know these 2 cities. 🙏🙏

In Mińsk as you said, except finding a job, you assumed this. The issue is I cannot find a job easily but I have tried it for 5 years almost at least I worked somewhere else and worked 1 .5 years at Polish company even all of them are qo hard. For relationship exactly romance is better off in Minsk rather than Izmir. I hope to find new job and stay here. It is my dream to live in foreign country. If not i must certainly return to Izmir..

I fall in love with Porto , Portugal when I visit there. I haven't seen Lisbon before. I will think about it. But for NON EU citizen is really hard to find a company which will be sponsor for residence card and work permit. I will search information about my master degree in EU. it may help me to stay in any other EU hopefully.. but i m not sure.

 

[Miod]

We are looking at your potential places using a technology called Astrodynes:

Astrodynes is unlike Pullen and nearly every other rating system and not an opinion.

It took 26 years from 1919 to 1945 to develop. At the time the Church of Light in Los Angeles, California, USA, had an acolyte program, and more than 1000 acolytes around the world. As a part of their requirements for the CofL, they were required to do charts and then go over the charts using a 79 page questionnaire with the client. They analyzed more than 30,000 charts over the 30 year period, using the 79 page questionnaire about each person's life. They changed the questionnaire 3 times and went back to the original clients for an update.

After doing all this they developed a numerical system of calculation to get the appropriate numbers in the final representations. The only problem with it was that it took about 12 hours of hand calculations to get the numbers in the end. As a result, only the most anal astrologers used it until 1999(54 years from its exposition to the world). In 1999, John Molfese(a church member and professional application developer) wrote a program authorized by the CofL to do the calculations, for use with John Haloran’s AstrolDeluxe. The translation of it into Cosmodynes was by Allen Edwall(thus his changing of the name), and it's not authorized, and produces scores that don’t completely match the authorized version. Additionally Edwall made adaptations that he simply made up.

I have been using the authorized version for more than 20 years. I use it for every chart that AstrolDeluxe can produce. But I don’t believe that it conflicts with tradition astrology’s concepts of dominance because it doesn’t mean that.

In My Opinion, it’s not a power/harmony thing like the words use. I suspect that at the time they were trying to figure out what it meant and they used words that existed at the time. It wasn’t until after 1945 in the explosion of the atomic bomb that the concepts of energy entered the domain of thinking.

And so this is what it means and how I use it:
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Astrodynes gives you priorities based on what I call energy and friction. CofL takes the other tack and calls friction as harmony, and power as energy. I think they used words that they had at the time of its inception 100 years ago. Friction is just easier to understand since human relationships don't ever come apart because of too much harmony, only because of too much friction.

The extremes of them are then the following:

1. high energy, high friction

2. low energy, high friction

3. high energy, low friction

4. low energy, low friction

Let's go with a kinesthetic point of view and assume that you have a 2 x 4 x 1 foot block of concrete to move. This is analogous to having to get something done in your environment.

If you have high energy, and high friction, you have the power to move the block but it messes everything up on the ground, and everything that gets in the way gets mowed over. You get what you want done, but people don't agree with you and don't like what you did or how you did it.

If you have low energy, but high friction. Its very hard to move the block at all, but when you do but it messes everything up on the ground, and everything that gets in the way gets mowed over. You get what you want done, but people don't agree with you and don't like what you did or how you did it. And add to the fact that you are exhausted in doing what you have to do because you have to put so much energy into it, and no one is happy with you.

If you have high energy and low friction, you can move the block easily, and since its floating on air, it damages nothing in its wake. In relationships, people actually like that you moved the block, and may even think it was their idea, as well as being out there helping you with it.

If you have low energy and low friction, it’s floating on air, it damages nothing in its wake. But it takes you forever to get it done, and you are exhausted afterwards. In relationships, people are happy that you are helping and working on it, but no one helps you, and they know its your idea, but when you get them together no one comes to help. It takes forever to move anything, even though it moves easily.

We will be looking at the house structures for the 7th house of long term partnerships, and the 10th house of career success(career skills and personal wealth increase is the 2nd house, and conditions of work is the 6th house), but in a private communication you let me know that it was success in career that was important to you.

Just wow... Astrodynes. All of these information.. i will keep it in my mind and took some notes. It also help to compare situations to do analyse surely.

 

[ElenaJ]

Your 9th of foreign matters is ruled by mercury, in Leo in the 10th and in exact sextile with Jupiter on your ascendent.
You really are drawn to being in a foreign country.
Moon was transiting your 9th when you asked the question, so this is really in your heart.
In addition to mercury, your midheaven ruler moon is also in Leo, conjunct sun also in leo.
Venus on the MH, ruler of your ascendent, is in an approaching opposition with Neptune and Uranus in the 4th.
Do you work in fashion, or anything to do with entertainment?
Transiting Jupiter on your descendent squaring your midheaven, Venus, and the Neptune/uranus conjunction in 4th, and opposing natal Jupiter, may help you find work, although it may not be exactly what you are looking for.
As Osamenor wrote, mars will square your natal mars, Jupiter and ascendent, so patience is called for.
Mars also rules your 2nd, so you may have to bear with some financial expenses, and maybe overspending. Be frugal!
Saturn, ruler of your 4th of homeland, opposes Chiron. You really don't feel very free in your native land.
Do you have children?

 

[Miod]

I really like to live in a foreign country. Of course I like my hometown but I do not know sth is different I feel in Poland. I studied economics and doing master in economics. However I work as a customer service agent. Looking for another jobs. Because the project is going to close soon. They fired.. I hope I will find a job 😓 for financial problems, I must be frugal exactly in these months.

I do not have children. Does the chart show it ?

 

[ElenaJ]

I do not have children

Your 4th ruler Saturn also rules the 5th and is in the 5th, which is why I asked.
The 5th is also creativity. It could be various things.

 

[ElenaJ]

studied economics and doing master in economics

Venus on your midheaven is also money and finances. It rules not only your ascendent of personal expression, but your 8th, finances of other people.

 

[Miod]

Your 4th ruler Saturn also rules the 5th and is in the 5th, which is why I asked.
The 5th is also creativity. It could be various things.

In this 2.5 years it started with lots of effort in financial and relationship topics.. hope to get beautiful life with children

 

[ElenaJ]

In this 2.5 years it started with lots of effort in financial and relationship topics.. hope to get beautiful life with children

Wishing it to you. You have to wait a bit, though.