Hello well i dont know what to say but my life is getting more and more complicated and i feel like i have bad luck or something . i wanted to know if my chart so any things like that and how can i fix this ?
I Dont seem to be successfull professionnally even if i put tons of efforts and i want to succeed so bad ! i switched from business to study psychology but i feel like since then its a curse or something i dont know if its the right choice for me , i want to do something else but i cant figure at what i can be good at
love-wise its a mess i have been with a guy over 5 years it ended up badly back in 2009 then from this time nothing serious i seems to be staying single even if i crave to have a lover
money wise = problems to
i seems to have lesser friend or i became more kind of a loner
really its crazy i was so joyful .. i had luck and everything but now its the opposite ! and its became like this for a while now !!
anyways these late years i feel like attracting problems , will it get any better , what do you think of my chart?
heere is my chart :
please is there any hope stuff will get better ?
Hi Saggy- namaste.
This is the way I'm reading it. There are 4 themes which really stand out in your chart for me - your mars-pluto in 10th, your moon/jupiter/venusian/lunar stamp, your mars pluto conjunction in your tenth, the transit of pluto over your ascendant and planets therin, and lastly, your sun mercury conjunction which almost feels a bit 'lost' in the midst of it all, therefore also stands out...
I think as others have said the transit of pluto in Capricorn over your ascendant and all those natal 1st house planets will have deep and far reaching effects in your life. It's also an excellent opportunity to review and understand your own default/unconcious thought patterns and how these are drawing in these confused/drifting or unsettling circumstances/occurences, especially with regard to how you approach life and your self image, which will have a knock on effect on your relationships and life/career choices.
Uiversal law - energy follows thought, so what could you be automatically or unconciously sending out to the universe that is less than positive and exactly what you want? What could you have deceived (neptune rising) yourself about or tried to run away from, if anything? What collective thought patterns have you adopted that you never questioned before (uranus rising)?
When we think unconsciously, the universe gives us what we need to give us another clue to what we really want. When we consciously choose our thoughts the universe reflects back what we want. Some of the clues to your present 'bad luck' will be in those 1st house planets I feel, and those conjuncting your ascendant. You may need to review how it is that others see you and how you are presenting yourself. This could be a really creative, exciting time for you!
My opinion is that you should grasp this opportunity that transiting pluto offers to understand your own unconcious/deep motivations and thoughts, because the same problems or circumstances have a habit of repeating themselves years later. Here's a story to illustrate what I mean..
My friend (sun in scorpio conjunct neptune in libra in 12th, conjunct ascendant in scorpio and venus conjunct saturn in scorpio in his first house) had pluto transiting over his natal scorpio sun/neptune/ascendant and decided to leave his wife after years of abuse and near celibacy; however, he didn't sort out the practicalities associated with it (the marital home and divorce), which were also symbolic of something deeper, not just the 'practicalities', of course! Ten years later or so it really came back to bite him on the derriere!
When he was forced to deal with it all those years later, he went through hell, and all the old problems with his ex returned, because he had moved back into the marital home where his wife lived, as a lodger (even though he was joint owner) because his landlord evicted him and his job wasn't paying enough to support his rent as well. His ex continued to steal from him and overcharge him for bills and rent (unbelievably, but this is how browbeaten he was by years of mental abuse and falling into the same patterns) just as she had done when they were formally together all through the marriage, when she was a bully and a tyrant. She also had a gambing habit and hadn't been paying the mortgage even though he was giving her money for it. This was all psychologically traumatic; he had believed all this **** was behind him now, but of course it wasn't because it was unfinnished business - there was something he needed to learn! It affected his health, and he eventually lost his job through illness - his ex had financially, spiritually, mentally, and physically drained him. His wife not only stole from him, insulted him daily, borrowed thousands of pounds that she never gave back, but also tried to turn his remaining friends against him, cut him off from those that were trying to help him by physically unplugging the telephones and taking them with her when she went out - even though he was paying the phone bills! He also had the sun (scorpio) and like you, neptune (libra) conjunct his natal ascendant in scorpio, and he found that escaping his circumstances through meditation and 'sprituality' (neptune), as he had done all these years, was no longer an option, and he realised that all his life problems and 'bad luck' were to do with him not facing up to the fact that he had tried to avoid issues and give his power away. His pluto lesson was to stand up for himself (transiting first house) and take his personal power (sun in scorpio) back that he was giving away to his tryrant ex wife (venus saturn conjunction in scorpio in 1st) so that he could finally move on with his life, because since the time of his pluto ascendant transit up until now he had just drifted and nothing in his life went well - this was because his unconscious knew he had unfinnished business to take care of, and he couldn't move o properly until he had done so.
During the divorce his wife tried to sabotage it at every turn, because she just did not want him to be happy, and set free. After all these years she somehow still believed she had the right to tell him what to do and what not to do and conrol every aspect of his life. She was projecting all her deep unhapiness and self-loathing on to him (venus saturn conjunction in scorpio in 1st) and he was taking it, and in a sense, living for her, not living for himself, despite disliking her intensely. But this is the karma we incur when we don't take responsibility for our lives, and don't understand our own power.
There may be a similar theme of self-empowerment in your life now, but to do this you should take the opportunity it offers to clear all the debris. In Capricorn this will have more to do with your sense of individuality and persona, and how you use all the talents and skills you have at your disposal, especially with mars conjunct pluto in the 10th house. You are probably a very ambitious person, and you know the world is your oyster once you've made up your mind what it is you really want.
I also feel that the present and near future changes in society will effect you personally, because of all your transpersonal planets plus venus and saturn in capricorn and on your ascendant. The present financial collapse and subsequent change in the currency system that will occur probably by 2012 (the feds are just kicking the fiscal debt can further down the road until they can't do it anymore) is something you may also experience very personally and it may challenge your hopes and fears around your own financial survival, or around government/the military-industrail complex/security services and who really is in control of your life - them and the psychological childlike enslavement to authority they perpetuate, or yourself as a sovereign, powerful adult being in your own right and your innate sense of freedom and liberty (uranus and neptune on ascedant, sun in sagittarius in 11th. ) You may well find yourself caught up in libertarian, new age, or anarchic movements as a means to express your own power and idividuality.
Above all, relax and try to have fun. Always remember there is no such thing as 'luck'; you make your own good fortune, and you can do so any time you want, because you are in control with your own powerful mind, not fate.
For me, your moon is in your 9th house, which is very significant for you being a Sagittarian, which, together with your retrograde Jupiter in cancer, emphasises this venusian/lunar aspect to your consciousness, and perhaps to be too accomodating toward others at times instead of to yourself. You need to be able to express your emotions freely with others, but you need to feel safe, also, which is a bit of a conundrum at times, as expressing our emotions always comes with a risk, so trust is really important. I really feel you will benefit from a counselling course, because I feel you may have a real talent for it, for counselling others, as well as the self reflection and insight it affords you.
I feel your mars pluto conjunction is in the 10th house, and for me it shows that whatever it is you decide to do with your life, you will need to put 100% of your energy into it, whether it will be as a counselling psychologist or depth astrologer (or both). I feel you will also be attracted to crisis situations so perhaps a paramedic, physician or other kind of healer would also suit you. You will need to be closely dealing with people and emotionally engaged with them. Whatever you decide to focus on will have powerful repercussions, but I also feel that these next few years, that will be transformative for a lot of humanity and yourself, personally, may be something you have to ride out first before you can clearly decide where to specifically focus your energies.
My tip is to keep a dream diary, a journal of your thoughts and feelings, and possibly drawings if symbols and pictures speak to you, to help you review and understand your deepest motivations.
There is more that I can see, but that's probably enough for now! Namaste, sister.
