Also, 12th house is a mutabale house, it serves as a background for new beginnings, like the 1st house. Its the kaboose, the truth. Its about what you locked away until you were ready to confront it or died. More likely than not, those insecure about mars energy were rejected somewhere when we tried to use it. Maybe something went on outside while we were in the womb, out of our control. I read somewhere that the 12th house is what helped you succeed or fail the whole time. Thats why athletes nad surgeons etc. have this placement, they used it to its full potential. If not aware of our anger, drives and motivation then we suffer from the dark part of the house. Subconcsiously we want to be openly assertive, the first house is what we do and know we are doing it, 12th house is what we are doing and dont know we are. Yet, the 12th house is about karma, let mars serve you or suffer from it.
Its odd cuz the 12th house can decifer why you do things concsiouly in the first house, why you present yourself in such a manner. Like i have pluto in the first house, its intense and i presnet myself this way so others wont challenge me, im private cuz i hate my actions being critiqued. Yet on the flip side, when i know im angry, or when im energetic, and aware of it then that intensity is b/c im going all out and i present myself in that manner. I think if the 12th house is not recognised then the whole chart can fail. But once it is, this is your main strength, its what ppl saw and might have feared or been jealous of, your self expression. But when we relaize that we can do as we please then we turn the chart into something great. !2th house mars will never go away, the universe brings us into martian situations early so we can learn our lesson with it. Like the bullying thing, being challenged, the universe brought this into light so we can deal with it properly. Eventually we will become aware of it.
one thing i noticed i do is when i get angry i say that someone else is angry after an arguement, and that its not me. Yet i cant go around the person until i settle down b/c i think that that they are still mad. Yet when i look inside, im mad, disgusted, and on the verge of getting physical, its not them thats mad still, its me, and when i go around them i get tense until another argument ensues or the relationship destroys. I will argue about the past, not for relevancy, but for winning. Its complex, 12th house is more complex than any other house. We may get out someone's way, but in our head we our thinking, if they touch me and be rude i will be pissed, we deny all of our anger b/c of some past guilt, resentment or situation. I lost a fight and the whole school changed their view on me, so i thought ppl were against me, i was ashamed of taking riddling so i became paranoid and private.
Now, at 22, tho riddlin has stopped since i was 13, i think im coming back into myself and i know that i must stay ahead to get what i want, im aware of me. Ppl cant discourage or critize ppl with 12th house mars early on b/c we are tryna find ourself, but we use mars daily and dont know it, thats the ironic part
The reason i know we all use it, b/c mars is about self right? Its funny cuz all of us who have 12th house mars who have commented on here all used OUR own experience and say what we hate about it to describe it, like a sublime way of saying its this way cuz we experienced it this way.
Its just getting past the pity and guilt and anger from what astrology says about us, stay martian