Anahath
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I mean,I'm only 24...and I guess it's not expected to have some good career or something.But I am not moving in any direction.I have had some jobs,but I was never considered the most reliable person,or the one that would one day receive a promotion.
I've never found any value in money,sure...they offered me some pleasure,but it didn't last long.Now,I've found value in my family wich,strangely enough,supported me through all my trials and failures.What a jerk I have been with my mother...there are just so many regrets and so much guilt.
And now,I find myself broke after another attempt at going in another direction,going for more money...I failed of course and I'm left with not many future prospects.I don't really like anything so that I could say I'm passionate and I want to do this or that,I don't really have a dream anymore.It's like,when I was too ambitious,I was going for the dreams of people around me,and they were not mine.I don't want to be rich,but I don't want to be poor.
I'm just afraid,one day,I might not have anything.Don't know what else to day,I'm feeling a bit lost,like I'm just floating around.I'm not really a part of this world,but I'm not out of it either.
Don't take this as a depressing post,I'm just doing a bit of soul searching.It's like,fine...now I found out what I truly value.What's next?What kind of person will I become?...except a tired,babbling person..
I've never found any value in money,sure...they offered me some pleasure,but it didn't last long.Now,I've found value in my family wich,strangely enough,supported me through all my trials and failures.What a jerk I have been with my mother...there are just so many regrets and so much guilt.
And now,I find myself broke after another attempt at going in another direction,going for more money...I failed of course and I'm left with not many future prospects.I don't really like anything so that I could say I'm passionate and I want to do this or that,I don't really have a dream anymore.It's like,when I was too ambitious,I was going for the dreams of people around me,and they were not mine.I don't want to be rich,but I don't want to be poor.
I'm just afraid,one day,I might not have anything.Don't know what else to day,I'm feeling a bit lost,like I'm just floating around.I'm not really a part of this world,but I'm not out of it either.
Don't take this as a depressing post,I'm just doing a bit of soul searching.It's like,fine...now I found out what I truly value.What's next?What kind of person will I become?...except a tired,babbling person..
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