If you have to spend a lot of time by yourself this summer, my advice is to find something interesting to do. Summer vacations are a very good time to learn a new language, volunteering, doing sport, reading books of your interest and, in general, doing things you don't have time for during the academic course, since you are still a high school student.
It’s very important that you don’t indulge in negative thoughts and feelings. You have to learn to see depression as something external that will fade away as soon as you don’t pay attention to it.
You are very young and there is no reason to worry about it. Most people find out what they want to do with their lives much later. And I think that you still have one more year of high school before choosing a university degree.
Of course, as a Capricorn, your career is very important to you and it’s normal that you are worried. Astrology can help you to discover your skills and vocation, but after all, it’s up to you.
You are an intelligent young woman and have no real reason for feeling useless. I’m sure you will get high in life if you overcome all this negativity.
Take care,
M.
I do try to keep myself busy especially from thinking about the negative feelings,but I've lost much of my motivation when it comes to doing things.I can start them,but I have a hard time finishing them.
Your Part of Fortune is at 14º 30' Pisces. Ruler of Fortuna is Jupiter (I use traditional rulerships), which is in the 9th from Fortuna and conjunct the MC (using Placidus). I'm pretty sure this is considered a very promising configuration.
But to make sure my assumptions are right, I would like to know how did you get your birth time? It's not frequent that someone is born at 7'00 exactly. If the time is not exact your chart would need rectification.
M.
Well,I don't know if it was exactly 7:00 when I was born,but I am guessing it was the first few mins.I did ask an accurate time from my mother but that's all she gave me.Now whether it was like 7:01 or 7:02 or 7:03 I dunno...I don't believe it was around 7:05 cause she would have told me so.So it's between these times I was born probably.
Are you referring to Part of Fortune being in the 9th...?It is in the 2nd house actually.
As for the aspects...
Sextile Sun
Trine Moon
Sextile Venus
Sextile Mars
Trine Jupiter
Sextile Ascendant
hmm i think it's that pluto transitting your 12th house,so u may feel sorrow but u cant put your finger on the core reason behind it.
and wow,what an interesting chart! I believe you have a very powerful presence,no wonder you were asking about people's first impressions of you in an earlier thread.Very powerful indeed.
If Pluto is transitting my 12th and it's this way,how will it be when it transits my First house stellium?I don't even wanna think about it,XD.
Yes,I do ask opinions about what sign people speculate I am judging from appearance.I have heard that planets in the first or conjunct your ascendant usually influence they way you come off as and some even your appearance?And I'd really like some kind of analysis on that.
Hey Julia,
There are many similarities in our charts - I am now 34 and when I think back to the darkness I faced at your age and for many years after, I can really relate. If I could say anything to myself at your age, it would be - make friends with your 'negative' feelings' as you call them. Learn to accept both the dark and the light equally - With Chiron in the 8th house, there are going to be unexplained feelings of 'dread,' sadness and fear -especially around death, money or sex and these are not feelings you can run from - they need to be slowly faced over time. Some of these you will be able to relate back to traumas from your early life - for eg losing a loved one.. and it will be good for you in time to get in touch with those wounds. But some of those feelings you may not find an explanation for - especially since you are so young and are only just embarking on understanding yourself. The key here is to allow irrational dark feelings to be observed within you without judgment - for it is these same raw feelings of destruction (remember creation of life itself is an explosion!) that can later become a great source of power - you just need to give it time and have faith that everything will be ok. People will probably not understand what youre going through, and it may take some time to fully understand what your purpose is - but try not to judge yourself or feel be pressured by expectations. With Jupiter on your MC and Pluto in your 10th Id say theres a lot of success and powerful transformation to be had in your life and career but first you have to face certain primal feelings. It may be through difficult experiences that you will learn about using power responsibly and about the 'dark feelings' of the human psyche - so that you can later help others face this in themselves. Your north node is your eleventh house in Sag - this is a social humanitarian destiny. I hope some of this helps, its no wonder you're delving into astrology so early in your life, as your career sign (10th house) is in Scorpio and Pluto is right at home here. Researching and delving deeply into what it means to be human is what you're here for. All the best
Well,I have been running quite a lot from my feelings this year.I thought that if I don't bother with them,I wouldn't have any problem.But that doesn't seem to be the case...
Hm...I don't think I've lost someone to death,at least not from those close to me.
Haha,you say to allow these irrational feelings but when they go out of control they are overwhelming and the after-effect isn't and the safest most welcoming one.
I have lost a lot of my confidence so believing I'll do just fine is like asking for a miracle.I am trying to say it to myself that I shouldn't worry and everything will turn out good and while my mind does accept it,my feelings tell me otherwise.And no,my mind and feelings are tuned to each other,each functions seperately.
I know people most likely won't be able to understand and I don't blame them,but I find it harsh to have to go through this alone.It's not an easy road at all...once again you're asking for too much(i don't mean it in an offensive way),trying not too judge me?Oh wow,that's second nature to me,I am very hard on myself.But I am actually trying to go softer on me than treat me so strictly.And while others' expectations do affect me,I also have mine for myself and not fulfilling them can give birth to more negative feelings,but the thing is because of my emotional state now I have a hard time achieving certain things so that leaves me with feelings of uselessness.
I am expecting something good will come in my life with my N.Node heading towards that way,it's a ray of light in this otherwise gloomy chart.
Ps. Your north node is in Saggitarius, so in time you need to also develop positive sag traits - optimism, faith, enthusiasm, joy, connection to nature, exploration, philosophy. Its an interesting juxtaposition but there it is. Light and dark!
It'll take a while cause my environment at home doesn't help at all to develop these feelings.My family is all Earth signs so of course they'll belong more on the practical side,what is real,somewhat fearful of the world etc. and this is been passed on me.I find my home environment very depressing and not encouraging at all.I feel much much better among my friends who are far different than my family members.I feel more inspired by them and for me they are somewhat like relatives.Because unlike my real ones they encourage me to try things and are more open-minded and I can be more myself,while my family is more closed off and many times I have been "terrorized" in a way.I find them to be pretty paranoid,but I am too.Even when it comes to little things,like the world is only inhabited by bad people...
Saturnian, read and absorb what queeny said in the 2nd last post.... it is a very good post, and hones in on much of what you need to know.
Your life will not be like you may want or expect. With Cap rising - and currently transiting Pluto going through your 12th house, bringing you face-to-face with some very dark feelings and thoughts - you are bound to experience Life at a much deeper level than many others of your generation. You are no doubt more mature and more responsible than others your age. This is both a burden and a gift!! You will be able to handle and endure more than most other people.
What queeny said about Chiron in the 8th house is also relevant to how you are feeling currently. And just in case you've forgotton, take a walk again through this thread:
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showthread.php?t=26819&highlight=chiron+house
Parts of this page may be useful for you:
http://www.astro-vision.org/neptune_transits.htm
If you go back a little over a year - to around March-April 2010 - you had transiting Neptune and Chiron conjunct right on your natal Saturn. Thus, you had the two transiting planets which together were about breaking down the walls within us, and between all people and levels of reality, conjunct your chart ruler - Saturn - which itself is about creating and maintaining those very walls of `reality'. This has no doubt created some inner doubt, struggle, confusion and ultimately distress and depression, as you struggle to maintain a sense of who you are - or who you thought yourself to be.
This is a good thing, and must be allowed to happen. As Coyote mentioned, you have a need to embrace this occurrence. I would suggest - if you have the time and energy - that you either journal, or paint, or maybe write poetry - for yourself only, as this is not about showing others your art-work. This is about connecting with parts of yourself which you may not have given much value.
I would also suggest that you read as much as you can about having Capricorn rising. There's quite a lot on the net about rising signs, but most of it is very generalised. I find that Cap rising is usually not terribly well described, although this link is ok:
http://www.babybirthchart.com/zodiac-signs/rising/capricorn.php
I've already come to the realization that most of my plans never come out as planned.While it may work for others for me it simply doesn't.Even if I plan something quite carefully there will be good surprises or disappointments in the end,nothing like I predicted.
I do hope something good will happen through experiencing life in that kind of way,I really wish to come out as the winner of this battle and not simply surving it with many wounds and traumas.
I can relate to many of the things said in the Neptune transit.Many things have been lost,I feel like I am in my fantasy land and have a hard time staying in reality.I have retreating somewhat,especially since my self-esteem isn't the best.To be honest I feel stripped off of my protection and more prone to being bruised by people's words and actions than ever before.My sensitivity has really heightened as I've also became more passive and it's hard for me to react or protect myself properly.I am very confused about myself and have lost my sense of direction and motivation.
Somewhere in that link it refers to how these people have become a victim.I may not have been taken advantage,but I have been a victim this year.I have been fooled and made fun off,it might not have turned physical but it has left me quite a trauma,cause this occured while I was in my most sensitive emotional state.Even though I don't hang out these people anymore,I can still see them in my dreams from time to time,so it has affected me greatly and made me doubt myself even more.I also have never really been a victim and now being so,only made me realize that I cannot control everything.And hey...my chart simply craves control,so trying to grasp the idea of not being able to control things that occur makes it very hard for me to understand when I have played my part pretty well and the other side reacts in a rather unpredictable way.