. If it weren't for almost every astrologer, numerologist, clairvoyant, or any other form occult, including tarot on the web, has led me to believe that a Karmic Debt/dark shadow/neg energy/dark shroud/ is around me and may affect the good that is scheduled to finally come into my life. I believe this, as I am the only person I know who for years told others who found me jumpy, that I jump at my own shadow (which is true). They all also say .........................
Hi,
This reads as if you have always accepted what
other peple, living through a 'symbolic' means of interpretation of life, tell you as being the inherent truth you have chosen to believe, without ever thinking yourself about how YOU experience your life to have unfolded.
I am in complete agreement with
Ecliptique who has mentioned '
However you are very impressionable in your thoughts and that is what has an impact on you, which could be explained by only harsh aspects (challenges/conflicts) made to natal Mercury in the chart, the planet that explains how one thinks, takes in information, communicates and expresses it (or not!). Its harsh aspect to Neptune can explain a very gullible attitude within you towards those whom you believe to have, shall we say?, 'mystical powers into the unknown' regarding life. Yet, looked at from a logical perspective, what they all do is to give an explanation as to how THEY read the meaning in the signs, cards, numbers, visions, etc.etc. they see, yet which could be interpretted differently by someone else in the same field. Probably, what they do have in common is a 6th sense into your attitude when consulting them. Their interpretation would differ should you come across as an assertive, well expressed person, who faces conflicts head on, for instance.
Is it possible for someone with a very sensitive nature approaching 61 years of age, possibly brought up within the confinement of family traditions and feelings (harsh Moon-Saturn), to change the habits (Moon (and parental) influence) of a lifetime (Saturn)? Yes! Providing one is prepared to think for one's self about the past and why it occured as it did, make one's own decisions towards any personal issues involved, judge them and change their mind perspectives of them (Uranus) without merely accepting what one is told as the ultimate truth. That is NOT living for, and expressing one'self; the life motivation of a Sun in Leo. It's akin to the weak heart (Sun-Neptune, Sun ruler 6th house of SELF employment) allowing itself to be a puppet on a string pulled by another who has control over its direction.
This probably sounds harsh on the Mercury-ruled ears coming from an astrologer who 'reads and interprets a sign language' just as others do.
Yet it is NOW, this life, that is the only experience upon which anyone can make any concrete judgement. NO ONE knows for a fact if there is a before or after-life upon which one is judged. Can you imagine the results if there was???
The 'dark shadow' influences you mention are negative attributes assigned to Saturn, the planet that deals with the realities of, and within manifestation upon Earth. It is in its own sign and house, in a retrograde motion, in the chart shown. Conditions of life may well have been harsh, one may have lived with a sense of restriction, even guilt of some kind, through which it felt easier to escape the real world and its problems into 'the other worldly realms' to seek answers for WHY (Pluto)?
It is Pluto's planet's influence within one's self that is said to bring about 'transformation' in a person because one is finally able 'to burn bridges' and put the past (which can have been mentally, emotionally, or physically destructive) behind them, allowing it to die a natural death.
Using analogical terms, it enables one to come out of the confining chrysallis as a new person.
Can dealing with, and transforming the energy within one's self that affected one's thoughts, feelings, and life itself, be called negative of nature?
Maybe it's just the lens through which I look at the symbolic meaning in an astrological chart.