I understand that matters are more complex than putting everything in a box and pretending like you understand but without these boxes and without the cause/effect mentality it is very hard to comprehend things in a rational way, more so if you don't have an intuitive understanding of how the energies of each planet and sign functions. We understand this world by generalization. Yet we find hope by individual examples of uniqueness. I think things are very dynamic and even chaotic as you've said but that's not a reason not to seek some kind of order and understanding, if this makes ourselves and lives easier to deal with.
Ours is an astrological learning forumOk, so: I have 6 planets in Capricorn... that should make me a workaholic right?! But somehow it doesn't... I'm sometimes kind of lazy, I don't really like work and I hate stressful environments.(but then again who doesn't) Recently I have been told that I am a slow worker, that I don't take initiative, that I'm not present enough, not paying attention etc. I also have a big problem with organizing myself and I have a Virgo Asc.( again what?)
I am trying to find out if this is who I am or I may not be the best me.
I posted my chart below... if you can give me some kind of insight about why I may behaving the way that I am and how can I change that I would gladly appreciate.
and it's not just a matter of will, or is it
Larxene has anwered your question wellThank you Larxene so very much(!)
for this in depth look at these character elements.
Alongside with what Cap added, I found myself very much in what you both said...
yet I cannot hide the sadness that it brought me...
What do you think would be a wise approach to the hindering effects of Saturn
and all that you've stated?
In the end it's a matter of will right?
What could be my weapons?
As you've very wisely stated, being a person that ponders much,
I've reached a point where everything is the same
and in the same time anything could happen
but it needs a beginning
(I'm also in an empty part of my life, just finished collage, trying to find my way)
Again, thank you very much.
It sounds like you're self centered in a healthy way. And the sixth house/Virgo idea of service can include "selfish" pursuits such as art done for the sheer joy of it. That's still a service to others because it creates something others can enjoy.As I've wrote to StillOne, art and creativity has been part of my life since childhood, and I'm currently trying to keep developing my skills and hopefully make a career in different fields of art. But I've never quite practice the service part, I've always been focused on my inner world and I think this is the reason of my unrest.(South Node Leo) But it's very true that I have to feel passionate about something in order to get myself involved in it, work and give my best. And I think focusing on self was the closest passion I could find, if I can say so ( we are our greatest fans aren't we, no matter how many mistakes we make) but it didn't get me nowhere.
One of my last project based jobs(intern) was helping for the development of a movie. But my job was far from having any link with creativity and
it wasn't a movie I was passionate about so my mind always wandered to projects of my own.(obviously it didn't work out)
As a conclusion, I think of focusing my art(music, painting, film, anything) more on the outside world, other people and in something that I believe in... maybe this will rekindle my spirit and hopefully make me work my butt off.
Sorry if I sound like a self-centered spoiled brat.
I'm sometimes kind of lazy, I don't really like work and I hate stressful environments.(but then again who doesn't) Recently I have been told that I am a slow worker, that I don't take initiative, that I'm not present enough, not paying attention etc. I also have a big problem with organizing myself
I'm not even down to earth, or practical though these are things that I know will do good to me
Taking all of these quotes together, you've spelled out something else: this is a perfect description of inwardly directed ADD. I have it too, and I'm feeling that shiver of recognition that comes when I meet one of my tribe! I have a very different birth chart from you, but I also have Venus and Jupiter retrograde, and lots of indicators of impulsivity that aren't fully expressed because something else checks them... so maybe there's some common birth chart indicators, too!perfectionists seem to fear mistakes to the point of never starting a job. (here I can find myself )
And Aquarius... I am not as rational as an air sign but I keep my feelings to myself even though I feel deeply ( this could also be because I have a Cancer moon - it's strongest, and that could also be the reason why I'm more intuitive than rational)