m0ney*p0wer*re$pect
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I have this natally, and I want to kind of share y experience with it.
I know that this is the house of family and Neptune is mysteries, my childhood was full of those
I start of with my parental figures, as far as momma and poppa, they weren't there. I didn't meet my father until I was 17, and as a child my mother was home sparingly, devoting most of her time to her horrible relationships. My father, when I was young, was a drug addict and he was in and out of jail so because of that my mother kept him out of my life. My relationship with both of them is extremely strained b/c they are always emotionally distant. She was distant because her relationships seemed more important and he just never made himself to be emotionally available to me. Everytime my mother did come around when I was young, she always brought toys. I think this is why I'm not materlistic because even then I knew I wanted nurturing over toys
M father's identity was hidden from me until I was 17 but I figured it out when I was 12.
Alot of kids at young ages spent time out with other kids, not me not when I as young. I always ran home as it was the place I was the happiest. Even when we would go out of town for visits I would get homesick. When Dorothy says its no place like home, she wasn't lying b/c it's not. I also we that now I probably depend on my family way too much as they have gotten me out of situations numerous times. That's by I'm tryin to mature now because for one, it's time that I mature, and two thy are not always going to be there
It's alot of things I can relate to with this, I read somewhere about the guilt towards a parental figure. I feel alot of guilt for the bad arguments I had as a child with my maternal grandmother cuz she was always there for me and now she has Alzheimer's so no matter how many times I apologize and tell her I love her, it fades away cuz she doesn't remember but I tell her anyway hoping deep down she understands it. I spend a great deal of my time helping her. I've helped alot with this family sacrificing for those go are ungrateful anyway
I also have some Neptune anxieties that are deep and hard to grasp, but my awareness about them has heightened. Also home is where my imagination is the strongest, most likely cuz it's where I'm the unhappiest at the moment
I know that this is the house of family and Neptune is mysteries, my childhood was full of those
I start of with my parental figures, as far as momma and poppa, they weren't there. I didn't meet my father until I was 17, and as a child my mother was home sparingly, devoting most of her time to her horrible relationships. My father, when I was young, was a drug addict and he was in and out of jail so because of that my mother kept him out of my life. My relationship with both of them is extremely strained b/c they are always emotionally distant. She was distant because her relationships seemed more important and he just never made himself to be emotionally available to me. Everytime my mother did come around when I was young, she always brought toys. I think this is why I'm not materlistic because even then I knew I wanted nurturing over toys
M father's identity was hidden from me until I was 17 but I figured it out when I was 12.
Alot of kids at young ages spent time out with other kids, not me not when I as young. I always ran home as it was the place I was the happiest. Even when we would go out of town for visits I would get homesick. When Dorothy says its no place like home, she wasn't lying b/c it's not. I also we that now I probably depend on my family way too much as they have gotten me out of situations numerous times. That's by I'm tryin to mature now because for one, it's time that I mature, and two thy are not always going to be there
It's alot of things I can relate to with this, I read somewhere about the guilt towards a parental figure. I feel alot of guilt for the bad arguments I had as a child with my maternal grandmother cuz she was always there for me and now she has Alzheimer's so no matter how many times I apologize and tell her I love her, it fades away cuz she doesn't remember but I tell her anyway hoping deep down she understands it. I spend a great deal of my time helping her. I've helped alot with this family sacrificing for those go are ungrateful anyway
I also have some Neptune anxieties that are deep and hard to grasp, but my awareness about them has heightened. Also home is where my imagination is the strongest, most likely cuz it's where I'm the unhappiest at the moment