hi bubuza, we don't know each other, I have just found youself by searching on google... I am 20 years old, italian, I was totally struck with your description of lilith and desc. conjunct mars... (sorry for my english)
I have the same problem with men! my lilith is on desc. conjunct uranus, square moon, opposite sun.... I disgust men without courage, and treat them very badly... I haven't an ideal man, because my father is very distant from me...
please.. could you give me an hand to understand my problems?