'tis true that things come later down the road.
internal events precede external events.
the aquarius/leo eclipses a couple years back really showed it's face in my life, first conj/my 6' sun aquarius, then conj/opposed my 24' uranus leo ~ chart ruler. a very difficult year of short lived and generally bad couplings for the most part. it was assisted by a concurrent transit of uranus conj. natal venus. unforseen losses of "stuff" and short lived and overblown love affairs. complete disintegration of old self, relationship patterns and possessions.
i can honestly say that i'm not the same person i was 2 years ago, nor will i ever look at relationships in the same way.
this recent solar eclipse in sag. opposes my natal moon 3' gemini. the verdict is still out on this one, however with moon ruling my 12th house, i am already sensing the need to retreat on a grand scale. not feeling sociable and preferring silence over music, which is a connection to and reflection of, my emotions usually. so i wonder if i'm tuning out on an emotional level or just delving deeper with silence? chiron return at 0' pisces in 8th might be crystalize this orientation, as well, the solar eclipse formed t-square with natal pluto/nn conj. and natal moon-pluto square.
i've tried practicing meditation in past, with difficulty, but i'm likely to give it another go. seems like it would be a good time.