C0rnholio
Well-known member
I have discovered something important today...
I found a way to deal with the planets in my chart. Scroll to the bottom if you want the cliff notes version. Or keep reading. (Pardon my language, I promise it will become better later in the post)
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I @#$%ing hate meeting groups of new people. I worry too much, most of these new people usually suck, I forget most of the names and faces within minutes of meeting them, sometimes I embarrass myself, I rarely want to meet them again, and at the end the only memory left of the event is lots of worrying and perspiring. I @#$%ing hate it.
My g/f and I are invited to a wedding tomorrow and Saturday. The newlyweds are 21-22 y.o. kids of her rich client. Most would be happy to attend and enjoy the party, even try to crash it if uninvited, but not me. I have been dreading this event all week. I do not want to go.
Two years ago I dumped a perfectly good girlfriend because she kept dragging me to social gatherings. She is a social butterfly, had 600+ friends on Facebook and around town (that was 2 years ago, now she probably has 1000+ friends). My current g/f is social during the day but a homebody in the evening, which works great for me. She often throws parties for friends, which is also wonderful because her friends are her close friends, and I like them.
Today I texted the ex-g/f from 2 years ago and she immediately understood what was going on with me. She first made me promise that I wouldn't dump my current g/f over this, and then she tried to give me some useful tips on how to handle this.
She first suggested that I should just enjoy it and have fun.
I once tried to enjoy myself at a Business School Club networking meeting. I grabbed a plate of food and sat in the corner to enjoy it. I actually at one point stepped outside to enjoy it better, without having anyone around me making noise and bothering me.
The then suggested to get a few drinks to relax myself.
The amount of alcohol required to make me relaxed enough to start really enjoying myself is too great. I would be intoxicated beyond decent.
She suggested that I should take some happy pills. She used to have a prescription for some antidepressants that helped her deal with the job that she hated before she quit it, stopped taking pills, and started to live happily ever after.
I told her yeah, give me some of your happy pills please. Haha.
She suggested that I should talk to people at my table, and that there will be others there who don't really want to be there, and that I could talk to them about the things that are interesting to me.
I said that this won't work. One of these people that I will meet will be the Father of the Bride, the rich client himself, who likes cars and wants to meet me. I think weddings are stupid and plainly suck. I do not want to project my disappointment about the whole event to him. I haven't been sleeping well last few days. I have been drinking every night of the last week. I just want to fall sick and not have to go, LOL.
She reminded to me that the Father of the Bride is spending a lot of money on this wedding to make it perfect, and asked me not to ruin his day.
She said that she would love to go instead of me. I said I should just give some guy $100 to go instead of me.
I expressed my frustration about the whole preparation to this social outing. I already spent $170 on a tie, shirt and pants, and $130 on a gift. I hate ties, haven't worn one in 10 years. I hope this stuff is worth it to my new g/f. Like the Father of the Bride, this event did not come cheap to me. I also spent a whole evening finding their gift registry and choosing what to buy. And spent a day to shop for clothes to wear. Then a few evenings and nights of worrying and getting drunk. Crop like that has killed a whole week of my life.
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Then I thought about Astrology, and why I feel that way about meeting new people. Two things popped into my head (see my chart in the signature). The Ruler of the Chart - Venus in Virgo likes to stay alone in her 12th house. And the ruler of that Venus - Mercury in Cancer - only can feel fully comfortable in a familiar, family-like atmosphere. Large social gatherings of new and unfamiliar people deeply upset both of these planets.
If, on the other hand, the group is familiar (Mercury in Cancer is happy), I like that group (Venus is happy), then I can really enjoy the gatherings no matter what size they are. I can even be the center of attention for hours at a time and really enjoy the limelight. Think school reunions, hobby club gatherings, etc. I do not even shy away from "meeting the patents" of a girlfriend because the chances are that I will like them, and they are like family to me.
After realizing all this, I imagined the planets in my chart. My poor little Venus and Mercury are all upset. I imagine their little glyphs and I felt so sorry for them, they were sitting there so pretty, little and cute that I couldn't hold back a laughter. I talked to them in a baby voice and they stopped crying, looked up at me, and everything became better. I told them that what they will have to go through tomorrow isn't as bad as it seems, that they should cheer up a little, and that I will later find a way to make it up to them. Everyone felt happy after that.
After we started to feel better I realized that I have heard of this method before. Someone introduced a concept to internalize planets. The planets are not out there in the sky... They are inside us, and we have control over them. At least we are supposed to have control over them.
Parallel to that, I realized that I once had a similar concept of my own. We know that certain planets are responsible for certain areas of life. Like Venus - social behavior, Mercury - communication, etc. But we have the power to intervene in their affairs.
Sometimes you think and act with your Sun,
sometimes you think and act with your Moon,
sometimes you think and act with your Mercury,
sometimes you think and act with your Venus,
sometimes you think and act with your Mars, etc...
But no matter what the issue and what the area of life is, you can always think with your Sun (or whatever you prefer to think with) at least a little bit about any area of your life, even if that area is normally ruled by other planets.
So I decided that from now on I will be talking to some of my unruly planets, asking, and thinking what they are unhappy about, what they like, and what they want. I should be able to negotiate with them and keep them in check. Then also talk with the happy planets and do things to keep them happy. And if at times I feel like something is wrong, I should be able to always figure out which of the planets is stirring up the storm, and find a way to prevent it, or direct it into the direction that I want.
I am the Captain here.
I found a way to deal with the planets in my chart. Scroll to the bottom if you want the cliff notes version. Or keep reading. (Pardon my language, I promise it will become better later in the post)
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I @#$%ing hate meeting groups of new people. I worry too much, most of these new people usually suck, I forget most of the names and faces within minutes of meeting them, sometimes I embarrass myself, I rarely want to meet them again, and at the end the only memory left of the event is lots of worrying and perspiring. I @#$%ing hate it.
My g/f and I are invited to a wedding tomorrow and Saturday. The newlyweds are 21-22 y.o. kids of her rich client. Most would be happy to attend and enjoy the party, even try to crash it if uninvited, but not me. I have been dreading this event all week. I do not want to go.
Two years ago I dumped a perfectly good girlfriend because she kept dragging me to social gatherings. She is a social butterfly, had 600+ friends on Facebook and around town (that was 2 years ago, now she probably has 1000+ friends). My current g/f is social during the day but a homebody in the evening, which works great for me. She often throws parties for friends, which is also wonderful because her friends are her close friends, and I like them.
Today I texted the ex-g/f from 2 years ago and she immediately understood what was going on with me. She first made me promise that I wouldn't dump my current g/f over this, and then she tried to give me some useful tips on how to handle this.
She first suggested that I should just enjoy it and have fun.
I once tried to enjoy myself at a Business School Club networking meeting. I grabbed a plate of food and sat in the corner to enjoy it. I actually at one point stepped outside to enjoy it better, without having anyone around me making noise and bothering me.
The then suggested to get a few drinks to relax myself.
The amount of alcohol required to make me relaxed enough to start really enjoying myself is too great. I would be intoxicated beyond decent.
She suggested that I should take some happy pills. She used to have a prescription for some antidepressants that helped her deal with the job that she hated before she quit it, stopped taking pills, and started to live happily ever after.
I told her yeah, give me some of your happy pills please. Haha.
She suggested that I should talk to people at my table, and that there will be others there who don't really want to be there, and that I could talk to them about the things that are interesting to me.
I said that this won't work. One of these people that I will meet will be the Father of the Bride, the rich client himself, who likes cars and wants to meet me. I think weddings are stupid and plainly suck. I do not want to project my disappointment about the whole event to him. I haven't been sleeping well last few days. I have been drinking every night of the last week. I just want to fall sick and not have to go, LOL.
She reminded to me that the Father of the Bride is spending a lot of money on this wedding to make it perfect, and asked me not to ruin his day.
She said that she would love to go instead of me. I said I should just give some guy $100 to go instead of me.
I expressed my frustration about the whole preparation to this social outing. I already spent $170 on a tie, shirt and pants, and $130 on a gift. I hate ties, haven't worn one in 10 years. I hope this stuff is worth it to my new g/f. Like the Father of the Bride, this event did not come cheap to me. I also spent a whole evening finding their gift registry and choosing what to buy. And spent a day to shop for clothes to wear. Then a few evenings and nights of worrying and getting drunk. Crop like that has killed a whole week of my life.
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Then I thought about Astrology, and why I feel that way about meeting new people. Two things popped into my head (see my chart in the signature). The Ruler of the Chart - Venus in Virgo likes to stay alone in her 12th house. And the ruler of that Venus - Mercury in Cancer - only can feel fully comfortable in a familiar, family-like atmosphere. Large social gatherings of new and unfamiliar people deeply upset both of these planets.
If, on the other hand, the group is familiar (Mercury in Cancer is happy), I like that group (Venus is happy), then I can really enjoy the gatherings no matter what size they are. I can even be the center of attention for hours at a time and really enjoy the limelight. Think school reunions, hobby club gatherings, etc. I do not even shy away from "meeting the patents" of a girlfriend because the chances are that I will like them, and they are like family to me.
After realizing all this, I imagined the planets in my chart. My poor little Venus and Mercury are all upset. I imagine their little glyphs and I felt so sorry for them, they were sitting there so pretty, little and cute that I couldn't hold back a laughter. I talked to them in a baby voice and they stopped crying, looked up at me, and everything became better. I told them that what they will have to go through tomorrow isn't as bad as it seems, that they should cheer up a little, and that I will later find a way to make it up to them. Everyone felt happy after that.
After we started to feel better I realized that I have heard of this method before. Someone introduced a concept to internalize planets. The planets are not out there in the sky... They are inside us, and we have control over them. At least we are supposed to have control over them.
Parallel to that, I realized that I once had a similar concept of my own. We know that certain planets are responsible for certain areas of life. Like Venus - social behavior, Mercury - communication, etc. But we have the power to intervene in their affairs.
Sometimes you think and act with your Sun,
sometimes you think and act with your Moon,
sometimes you think and act with your Mercury,
sometimes you think and act with your Venus,
sometimes you think and act with your Mars, etc...
But no matter what the issue and what the area of life is, you can always think with your Sun (or whatever you prefer to think with) at least a little bit about any area of your life, even if that area is normally ruled by other planets.
So I decided that from now on I will be talking to some of my unruly planets, asking, and thinking what they are unhappy about, what they like, and what they want. I should be able to negotiate with them and keep them in check. Then also talk with the happy planets and do things to keep them happy. And if at times I feel like something is wrong, I should be able to always figure out which of the planets is stirring up the storm, and find a way to prevent it, or direct it into the direction that I want.
I am the Captain here.