Endymion09
Member
Hello everyone
I have a question regarding my position of Saturn and Uranus in the 1st House.
Uranus represents abrupt and sudden, even ephemeral metamorphosis.
Whilst Saturn on the other hand represents something slow and steady and unshakeable. Saturn is very close to my asc, wich is in scorpio (moon on the asc btw) and Uranus is also within close proximity.
All my life i have felt like i was without purpose and without worth.
I have purposely chosen to not experience things that could have been nurturing for me, because i feel like i need to punish myself. I punish myself by not meeting people or going out or doing things i desire to do, even by prefering to sit or lie in a way that hurts my body when i'm in a state of inexorable rest.
In simpler terms i have an inferiority complex the size of Jupiter!
And even though i sometimes try to do things differently, i always conclude that i shouldn't have tried, because i knew it would end the way it did and i knew that i was not fit to do this project.
I have not been intimate with anyone for 2 years now, and i miss it to death, but i suppress it because i feel that i am not worthy of anyones touch.
But then i have the eccentric celestial sphere called Uranus in my first house aswell, and when i read about it it contradicts saturn in many ways.
I feel that i am a combination of both, but i think that saturn is too vicious and too cruel and has even uranus' powers of transformation and change under chains, even though i have a history of suddenly finding myself in totally bizarre and alien situations that i purposely put myself in just to see how i would handle them, and i suppose i handle them exceedingly well, because i feel that i have the power to transform, but saturn always seems to destory the aspects of the experience that i could grow from and reduce it to nothing...i am at a loss for words and i am frustrated by this. is there hope foe a person with these two planets in first house?
Anyone else with these planets in 1st house?
I have a question regarding my position of Saturn and Uranus in the 1st House.
Uranus represents abrupt and sudden, even ephemeral metamorphosis.
Whilst Saturn on the other hand represents something slow and steady and unshakeable. Saturn is very close to my asc, wich is in scorpio (moon on the asc btw) and Uranus is also within close proximity.
All my life i have felt like i was without purpose and without worth.
I have purposely chosen to not experience things that could have been nurturing for me, because i feel like i need to punish myself. I punish myself by not meeting people or going out or doing things i desire to do, even by prefering to sit or lie in a way that hurts my body when i'm in a state of inexorable rest.
In simpler terms i have an inferiority complex the size of Jupiter!
And even though i sometimes try to do things differently, i always conclude that i shouldn't have tried, because i knew it would end the way it did and i knew that i was not fit to do this project.
I have not been intimate with anyone for 2 years now, and i miss it to death, but i suppress it because i feel that i am not worthy of anyones touch.
But then i have the eccentric celestial sphere called Uranus in my first house aswell, and when i read about it it contradicts saturn in many ways.
I feel that i am a combination of both, but i think that saturn is too vicious and too cruel and has even uranus' powers of transformation and change under chains, even though i have a history of suddenly finding myself in totally bizarre and alien situations that i purposely put myself in just to see how i would handle them, and i suppose i handle them exceedingly well, because i feel that i have the power to transform, but saturn always seems to destory the aspects of the experience that i could grow from and reduce it to nothing...i am at a loss for words and i am frustrated by this. is there hope foe a person with these two planets in first house?
Anyone else with these planets in 1st house?