My inter
I am Mars,he is Venus. I know Mars is supposed to be the chaser,but right now I am running away from him. I am strong, however in my 5th house,about to move into the 6th ( my daiily activities,his 12th house of secrets-we go to the same gym,could this be related? ) so Im about to become ''hidden''. dont know wheter that means that I will remain his ''secret'' ,or that I will just be gone from his siight,since I left his house of friendship ( makes me sad a bit,but he is to blame ) . Mars is right there between Mercury and Jupiter,which all could point to someone else, namely Jupiter being another guy,whom started to show interest for me.
I am strong in my own sign but powerless,in the --bad--- house so I view this as '' it is out of your hands'''. I,exalted, am under the obligation of not hurting Venus because she is in my domain-which is true. The message I sent was angry,but it was controled anger. I basically told him that, I know he does not care but that he does not need to worry,that this is the last he will hear from me,told him about what I saw, telling him how he didnt have 3 seconds in his day to tell me we are over but has all the time for someone else,and that,true,we were together,but I was never his rag doll and said goodbye. so dont knw if its an --anrgy- message but I controlled it the best waz I could not to sound too emotional or pissed off. I dont wish to harm him. that is also true.
so,there I sit,strong,powerless,hidden along with Jupiter. I cant help but feel that the message was somehow wrong because I am opposing my own message, but then again I know opposition mean coming together and breaking at the same time,so maybe that is the break.
He,is in a bad place as Venus,Aries,not at all ''exalted'', rulling the 12th house of secrets as well. now, he is opposing the message as well,but I cnat help but feel he likes it deep underneath and knows what I am talking about/-because even though ''angry and open'' its in Libra,where Venus is strong. Moon is also in Aqua, under saturn,meaning there will be some sort of liking although,he may not respond to the message ( being weak in Aries )
him going from feeling fine to being where he is should suggest at least some thinking on his part about me-thinking which obviously he does not find pleasant. Mercury is right between our sigs so makes me think of another woman that fits the story.
He is the one that --hates- or does not like the fact the he still likes me or that I am on his mind, whilst I,being strong,am ok with that. I am starting to doubt my message to him, I wonder was it the right thing to do, but it was onky understandable that I sent him. I mean, I was basically thinking he wa sthis sweet,nice,good guy,and I even started to feel so bad in the past for ever doubting him, I was not anrgy at all, kept thinking how we will watch his favorite movie,or go and buy him the book taht he likes.. and when I saw what I saw I just felt like such a naive little fool,it wounded by pride- a pretty Marsian themed emotion. I am actually suprised I am this //tempered// because I cant relally control my temper when I fly off the handle ( as some of you have whitened ) and I tend to say nasty things-but out of emotion usually not meaning a single word.
Sun is in Taurus,a place where Mars is not ok,so I view him with suspicion,and dislike,even though,according to horrary,I still like him in a way,which I do. I thought he was a great man and an even better,honest friend.. but his obvious neglect of me,and what I saw produced me to run away from him.
Moon,the com. sig is sextiling me,so I dont know does that mean that,although he will be pushed back because of my message ( Saturn opp Venus ) he will understand where I am coming from and try to be civil. Moon is also conjunct Neptune which are illusions and deceit, but Aqua is a truthful sign. Moon also shows my feelings, and being in Aqua I think its a humane sign. any other girl I know would have lost it by now and sent him dozzens of messages. I only sent two. 3, counting this one, in 2 months span.
The part I find confusing is the ruler of the 10th,end of the amtter,being the angluar Sun, nearly in his first,so that means that this will end,with him. count be him taking the last word or just ending with him and his own needs ( apparently freedom and lack of decency ) and that whatever mz emotions are,they will just be left there as they are,and I will have to lick the wounds so to speak,by myself.
I am worried he will be angry at me ( I seriously dont know why on Earth would he,Ive done nothing wrong ) by being in Aries,cause Venus is naturally more gentle that Mars,but forced to behave Arian like,which is not in her nature.
conclusion/ I think he feels bad and still in a way cares for me,but plans to do nothing about it.
