I see great strength and capability in your chart with dignified Sat in Aq ruling every planet in your chart, and with your rising sign ruled by exalted Mars. So I think you can do whatever you set out to do. And I agree with AstroPunter that family life and family of origin influence is strongly emphasized in your life. But I do not see that focusing on and cultivating a career necessarily precludes marriage, family life and so on.
I believe it is up to you to decide the order in which you undertake career and family, and that you have the capability to achieve what you want in either case. I don't see your being overconfident based on the chart. I think you can do it..
Thank you Ilenek for your encouraging words and it means a lot. As I am undergoing saturn return right now, Saturn is teaching me his lessons of discipline, perseverance. The order I want to undertake in my life is first career and then family. At this point in life, I have not explored my potentials in life and I wish to do so. For first 28 years of my life, I have settled for mediocrity, have made many compromises for the sake of others and as a result didn't have any self-confidence, self-respect, self-care and courage. I was living a 'go with the flow' life, I was basically going wherever life was taking me. Since I have a 9th house south node life took me into academics and research. I was doing it without even thinking whether I want to.
When uranus squared my midheaven(2019) and pluto transiting my capricorn stellium everything collapsed. Suddenly i discovered that I am a very passionate person. Now I can only do things which I really care about and cannot afford to be mechanical anymore....
"And I agree with AstroPunter that family life and family of origin influence is strongly emphasized in your life. " - I understand that fourth house is naturally ruled by moon and signifies one of our parents, early childhood and our roots. But I am confused here a little....
I have a cancer south node in 9th house and 3 planets(Sun, saturn and mercury ) in fourth house in aquarius. I wonder why I have a stellium in fourth house with a cancer south node? How do I understand aquarius in fourth house.....once one of my astrofriends suggested it might mean somebody who loves their homeland....