thysolist
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Throughout my entire life, I've always struggled with friends, more specifically friend groups. I've never stayed in one very long, usually they last only around a year.
I have issues with loneliness and a fear of abandonment because of the times I've pleaded with friends to stay and having to constantly apologize to my friends, even if I did nothing wrong. Friends from my past have resurfaced before just to apologize for treating me the way they did, claiming they didn't know why they treated me like that and they're sorry, that they didn't know it had such an impact on me, etc.. It just feels like in friendships my feelings are constantly ignored, and when I try to confront my friends about it or bring it up in any way, it gets brushed off as nothing or... Guess what? Happens again. So great!
Nowadays, I have a friend group that, well, I'm still often left out of. I try to make great efforts just to get to know the people in the group better and such by going to events with them, hanging out with them, doing whatever I can, right? But it just doesn't feel like there's a connection with most of them. I'm left out of entire group activities and posts, nobody really notices or mentions when I'm gone, and I just don't understand why.
So, what about my chart indicates loneliness? I have a feeling it's my Saturn, but I'd like to just get an outside perspective on my chart. Thank you if you read my post and are interested in answering. If there's more information that is needed, I'm willing to provide more.
I have issues with loneliness and a fear of abandonment because of the times I've pleaded with friends to stay and having to constantly apologize to my friends, even if I did nothing wrong. Friends from my past have resurfaced before just to apologize for treating me the way they did, claiming they didn't know why they treated me like that and they're sorry, that they didn't know it had such an impact on me, etc.. It just feels like in friendships my feelings are constantly ignored, and when I try to confront my friends about it or bring it up in any way, it gets brushed off as nothing or... Guess what? Happens again. So great!
Nowadays, I have a friend group that, well, I'm still often left out of. I try to make great efforts just to get to know the people in the group better and such by going to events with them, hanging out with them, doing whatever I can, right? But it just doesn't feel like there's a connection with most of them. I'm left out of entire group activities and posts, nobody really notices or mentions when I'm gone, and I just don't understand why.
So, what about my chart indicates loneliness? I have a feeling it's my Saturn, but I'd like to just get an outside perspective on my chart. Thank you if you read my post and are interested in answering. If there's more information that is needed, I'm willing to provide more.