Venus & Mercury 8th house

Hello all!!
I am not sure if I am putting this in the right place...but here I go...
I am very new to astrology, and have been studying with several books...I decided to look a solar return chart and see what it says.....
I looked into the chart and I am a bit confused about what venus and mercury means in my 8th house....and pluto in the first....
I read the meanings- abbreviated:
Pluto, moon and jupiter all in first house!!!
Pluto in first under sag-identity crisis, independance, strong willed, intense
Venus in 8th under cancer-promised a peaceful death, inheritance
Mercury in 8th under cancer-death of someone close, interest in occult
I know we should also look at the chart with the natal chart as well, but I am too new to interpret them together....
I also noted that my ascendant is close to pluto (am I wrong?)...does this mean anything?
Any help would be great thanks!

The basic story I gather from this chart is "freedom" "self-introspection"
I am totally going through a major crisis here....saturn return...I am looking/searching for some advice...
I am doing some things in my life right now that are not good, but this crazy desire of change and freedom is really pulling at me, but saturn in my ninth house is holding me back....back from really being myself...I am married and this is causing major problems in my marriage....

Oh I had to put the pic in again....how to do it w/o it expiring?
Thanks for you all in advance