Vocation missing-MC and Mars conjunct Pluto in Scorpio
I fiind myself at an existential crossroad, I feel very puzzled and I judge myself oftenly for not beeing able to build in depth and in just one direction, as a career, so that I could mark some objectives, pursue some defined goals. So I PUT THE BLAME ON NOT having found my vocation yet, the one that I imagine to be all consuming and all meaningfull.I know the trick is to get to like what you do until you fiind what you like but the trouble in my sitiuation might be a lack of drive or of self-knowledge. Could be the moon in The VIth, the Mars-Pluto conjunction , and the MC in Scorpio,the true Node in Taurus or it could be the fact that I moved to US from Europe recently and that changed my ”luck”. I ask myself sometimes if I will ever be successfull, that seems to be very important.Something is hiding from my understanting…Here you have my chart attached, hope it helps!
The interests and practices so far are quite varied and I feel very passionate about working fields such as human consciousness research, neuorosciences, non-formal education, psychology, writing dancing, astrology, health and healing through nutrition, earstern pshilosophy, hand-painting, all enjoyed with some degree of professional and successull practice.
My inner question is which one would be most rewarding and suitable for me from all these I ve mentioned.. and even more.. would be the key- personal understanding for shifting and transformation.
I would very much appreciate any indepth insight one could bring in this.Thank you!!! Have a blessed day and life!