Re: Confused with Life at moment!
So you're 31. You had your saturn return a couple years ago now. Looking at your chart you have transiting saturn conjunct your natal pluto. Transiting Pluto is currently conjunct your ascendant and will begin to bring transformation to your first house matters coming up. All good change but may be difficult to take in the short term. Hang in there.
Also, you may consider exploring different house systems as some of your houses are rather large. Some popular house systems people use here (but don't feel limited to these) are Whole Sign and Equal House which can both be designated at astro.com