Moon nodes and What is my lesson in life?

[theV]

I am 17 years old and the moon nodes manifest at the age of 19 or 18. I feel that nodes is point in my chart I looked over while they were the most important thing. Sometimes I feel I don't have personality or appreciate own self can't stand for my bielefe and says what other say and mimic other mannerism and trait and deep inside I feel I am lying to myself that is one of my biggest point of weakness and I think that has something to do with north node

Here is my chart

[kimbermoon]

June 10:
You may be deluding yourself or deceiving others due to subconscious factors that remain hidden in your psyche. [Neptune sq Mercury...this is often a combination that leads to confusion and muddled thinking]. If I might add the North Node relates more to the things that you are needing to develop in life, while the South Node is negatively inclined, showing the things that we are meant to release and move away from in life. The axis of the Nodes represents our path of destiny in life, and where we are meant to be going, for personal satisfaction and fulfillment.In your case, this is the axis of polarity between the Self and Others, denoting that you are apt to experience relationship difficulties...
Mars in Libra signifies that the energy to assert yourself can be utilized beneficially in terms of negotiating and co-operating with others: to be socially involved; to seek justice and equality and to work for the good of all, rather than just for the Self. What you need to be developing at this juncture is to overcome any tendencies towards aggression or trying to dominate others.


Your inherent difficulties involve the tension of your Sun squaring Moon and Jupiter: also Mars squaring the Uranus/Neptune conjunct. These represent areas where your energies may be blocked up and repressed by negative programming and conditioning from the past.

Saturn in the chart also reveals conditions relating to such internalized energies that tend to act below the level of consciousness; it's individual cycle in the chart shows the developmental stages in our lives, that are most necessary to learn from. Saturn reveals our weaknesses, insecurities, negative tendencies, obsessions and fears. It relates to our physical and material stability and our sense of personal accountability. At this time, Saturn is currently transiting your Libra Mars, and activating the tension of the Uranus/Neptune conjunction. The lessons you learn now will be very significant to your later life, as this transit occurs only every 28-30 years, with turning points every 7 years or so.

This influence shows Saturn trying to stabilize your self-expression and slow yourself down a bit to avoid dissipating your innate Life vitality from overwork or the demands of employment. In the Natal chart Saturn shows the need for eventual psychological work in terms of healing over the personal battle scars carried within.

The natal conjunction of Uranus [freedom or rebellion] and Neptune[secrecy and disillusionment] shows the potential for why you are apt to be experiencing confusion or deceptive tendencies.
Since I don't know the level of your astrological understanding I will offer a few notes that seem to stand out specifically in the chart:

Your personality index: Sun in Virgo / Moon in Sagittarius: the combination of these two factors represents the balancing between the yin and yang energies in your expression; in this case some imbalance and disturbance is denoted. Here we have the difference of the Sun in earth [practicality, down to earth], while the Moon in fire tends to promote inspiration and self-expression that can cause a lack of control. The Sun in Virgo is the archetype of refinement and service, while the Moon shows an inherent need or inner yearning for honesty, sincerity, truth and meaning in life; these two elemental qualities can cause disruptions in the psyche.

Did you experience discord, tension or disagreement in your parent's relationship, as a child?

The Ascendant shows how we attempt to disguise our inner weaknesses and insecurities from the past: it represents the persona we play in public, which is often quite different from the true inner self within.
You are apt to channel your inner discord through the mask of Leo, whose energy is outgoing, self-expressive, affectionate and sincere.
Are you playing the role of wanting to be pampered and held in high regard? Or do you yield too quickly to the demands and needs of others?
Relationship index: Mars/Libra/Moon/Sagittarius/Venus in Virgo. The combination of these three factors represent the components of our experiences in relationship. We have already discussed the 'needs and inner yearnings' of the Moon. The condition of Venus in the chart represents our ideals,values and expectations in life: Venus in Virgo shows that you would tend to honor selflessness, dignity and material security in a partner: what you think you desire in a partner would be someone who is sociable and balanced and who can provide the security you seek; very often however our expectations of others can be highly unrealistic, and rather than getting what you expect in life, you might just attract individuals overly concerned with their social status, strict adherence to the laws of man; of shady character who does not adhere to the sense of equality and co-operation with others: they could be more lazy than ambitious; or they could be on the bad side of the law.
I would be very interested in your feedback on this, if you care to communicate further...

[theV]

I don't have Mercury SQ Neptune it's Chiron Tr Neptune you got confused between the two.

I aleardy Posted read my chart thread and I almost know everything about my chart and issues affect me It's been more than 7 months and I am studying astrology and during those 7 month I made a lot progress changing my personality and gain wisdom and understating to people

Answering your question about sun-moon square Yes I have bad relationship with my parent They didn't instruct me or teach about life I didn't receive that much affection. So I repressed my feeling and deceived my self when I hear about daddy or mommy issues I says that stupid. During this 7 months I found that I was living in deception I was surprised how issues I had

I am pretty much insecure that affect my leo somewhat I like to be held in high regard and yield too quickly to the demands and needs of others

LOL relationship. buff love relationship. are not my stuff I have issues with that area

I am reading astrology just to find a strong aspects and discovering it in myself and tap it ( I had a lot Up and side down in my life despite I am young I feel like 50 years old) Sometimes I feel I want to quit to suicide but there is something inside me doesn't like that Defeatist attitude and I want to tap that part of me the survival and strong of me

[Judy_AzVirgo]

I've read some of your other posts, and I know you've had a tough life.... are STILL having a tough life. These troubles are no doubt reflected in your Aries South Node. In your 10th house, fights and other troubles with the father (and other authority figures) would be part of your early life. You probably feel besieged. But being at war all the time can be pretty exhausting! As your North Node kicks in, you'll realize that the war is over, and it's time for peaceful pursuits.

Your North Node in Libra is all about peace and harmony --- but there is your Mars, ruler of your South Node, conjunct it. So I think you'll still feel a need to fight for yourself, but you'll learn to do so in gentler ways -- by negotiating with others instead of getting angry, by learning tolerance and forgiveness. Maybe by forgiving and loving yourself, as well as those who have threatened and abused you.

Libra tends to need a calming environment, and your North Node in the 4th house indicates that your own home (eventually! you're just 17) will provide that sense of soothing relaxation you need. Comfy pillows and some artwork on the walls, good music playing. All that stuff.

Look to the arts as a personal outlet for your own talents, as well as just for enjoyment. Music or painting might be just the ticket for success. (Mercury sextile Moon-Jupiter might come into play here.)

Unlike Aries, Libra may be indecisive -- but maybe that's necessary in order to weigh the pros and cons of your actions before you jump into an argument.

With your Sun-Venus in Virgo, you may well pick up other people's mannerisms; Virgos are often excellent mimics. That's not necessarily a problem, unless you make it one. If you feel you have trouble expressing your true personality, I'd say wait a couple of years! You are just on the verge of adulthood now, and I think your confidence in yourself will increase a good deal as you make your own way in life. Until then, hang in there!

[theV]

Originally Posted by Judy_AzVirgo

I've read some of your other posts, and I know you've had a tough life.... are STILL having a tough life. These troubles are no doubt reflected in your Aries South Node. In your 10th house, fights and other troubles with the father (and other authority figures) would be part of your early life. You probably feel besieged. But being at war all the time can be pretty exhausting! As your North Node kicks in, you'll realize that the war is over, and it's time for peaceful pursuits.

Your North Node in Libra is all about peace and harmony --- but there is your Mars, ruler of your South Node, conjunct it. So I think you'll still feel a need to fight for yourself, but you'll learn to do so in gentler ways -- by negotiating with others instead of getting angry, by learning tolerance and forgiveness. Maybe by forgiving and loving yourself, as well as those who have threatened and abused you.

Libra tends to need a calming environment, and your North Node in the 4th house indicates that your own home (eventually! you're just 17) will provide that sense of soothing relaxation you need. Comfy pillows and some artwork on the walls, good music playing. All that stuff.

Look to the arts as a personal outlet for your own talents, as well as just for enjoyment. Music or painting might be just the ticket for success. (Mercury sextile Moon-Jupiter might come into play here.)

Unlike Aries, Libra may be indecisive -- but maybe that's necessary in order to weigh the pros and cons of your actions before you jump into an argument.

With your Sun-Venus in Virgo, you may well pick up other people's mannerisms; Virgos are often excellent mimics. That's not necessarily a problem, unless you make it one. If you feel you have trouble expressing your true personality, I'd say wait a couple of years! You are just on the verge of adulthood now, and I think your confidence in yourself will increase a good deal as you make your own way in life. Until then, hang in there!

Thank you very much You've been helpful to me. Finally I found a place to rest my heart from all the problem I needed to talk to someone about my problems If I did they say you look just fine So I keep my emotion secretive ( cancer in the 12H ) I really hope to keep in touch.

[theV]

Actually art is my personal outlet I draw comic book character and some random thing I also write poem Here is one of my peices ( I know it not that good It is pretty old one)

[Judy_AzVirgo]

I'm hopeful that you can someday take some classes in art and poetry to make the most of your talents, and maybe even create a career!

I think back to when I was your age -- many, many years ago -- and it is just the most exciting time, full of so much potential. Enjoy it.

[theV]

Originally Posted by Judy_AzVirgo

I'm hopeful that you can someday take some classes in art and poetry to make the most of your talents, and maybe even create a career!

I think back to when I was your age -- many, many years ago -- and it is just the most exciting time, full of so much potential. Enjoy it.

I also hope so. This is actually was my best year of my life I admit if wasn't astrology I don't think I will ever find a strength If it wasn't astrology I think i could've been in wrong direction

[theV]

what is Quintile ? I have sun saturn Q and Neptune-asc and Mercury-satrun Q

[theV]

Originally Posted by theV

I also hope so. This is actually was my best year of my life I admit if wasn't astrology I don't think I will ever find a strength If it wasn't astrology I think i could've been in wrong direction

Originally Posted by theV

what is Quintile ? I have sun saturn Q and Neptune-asc and Mercury-satrun Q

After excessive reading of my chart I found out that neptune is heavy in my chart I have neptune sun moon midpoint and neptune aspecting most of my planet ( mars,jupiter,sun;moon;asc,pluto,uranus)

[Judy_AzVirgo]

Originally Posted by theV

what is Quintile ? I have sun saturn Q and Neptune-asc and Mercury-satrun Q

Quintiles and biquintiles are supposed to indicate a talent, an ability to put two planet energies together in a creative way.

Sun q. Saturn might be the ability to see your limitations, and correct them, or an ability to achieve the goals you set for yourself. Something like that ... I'm not an expert on quintiles.

Neptune q. Ascendant is probably artistic in some way, and it may be the reason why you so easily pick up other people's mannerisms and incorporate them into your own expression.

Mercury q. Saturn might be an ability to discipline your mind, to think things through.

[theV]

Originally Posted by Judy_AzVirgo

Quintiles and biquintiles are supposed to indicate a talent, an ability to put two planet energies together in a creative way.

Sun q. Saturn might be the ability to see your limitations, and correct them, or an ability to achieve the goals you set for yourself. Something like that ... I'm not an expert on quintiles.

Neptune q. Ascendant is probably artistic in some way, and it may be the reason why you so easily pick up other people's mannerisms and incorporate them into your own expression.

Mercury q. Saturn might be an ability to discipline your mind, to think things through.

I meant quindecile sorry

[Judy_AzVirgo]

The quindecile is supposed to be about obsession or compulsion, a very focused energy. The description seems very Plutonian to me. Noel Tyl has written quite a lot about it. Check out his website and I'm sure you'll find some info there: www.noeltyl.com/

Since this is a minor aspect, it's probably a very subtle energy in a chart that contains plenty of major aspects. I have a couple of quindeciles in my chart, both tied to Pluto, so I can't really tell how the minor aspect operates.

[IleneK]

Originally Posted by theV

I meant quindecile sorry

Judy's referral to Noel Tyl's site will assist you.

I have a quindecile between Mercury in Gemini and Jupiter in Sagittarius, 10th to 4th, and I can tell you that learning, teaching, understanding is the primary focus of my life. Always has been.

[theV]

Do i really have mars semi sextile pluto like some site said and pluto trine Asc ? if that truth that could explain why attract people and they sees me as strong individual

And what about the minor I discovered

Sun- Neptune Sesquiquadrate and Mid heaven
Sun-Mars Semi square
Moon - Neptune semi square
Venus - Mars Semi square
Venus - Uranus Sesquiquadrate and Midheaven
Venus - North Node semisquare
Saturn - Asc Sesquiquadrate
Jupiter - Neptune Semisquare

I don't think I should look over these aspects too

[Judy_AzVirgo]

By all means, research these minor aspects. But keep in mind that "minor aspects" are called that for a reason. They don't have the strength of the major aspects. That's why many astrologers don't use them a lot when reading people's charts.

But for your own chart, yes, researching them could add to your self-knowledge.

[theV]

Originally Posted by Judy_AzVirgo

By all means, research these minor aspects. But keep in mind that "minor aspects" are called that for a reason. They don't have the strength of the major aspects. That's why many astrologers don't use them a lot when reading people's charts.

But for your own chart, yes, researching them could add to your self-knowledge.

Yeah you are right I'll concentrate on biggest part of my chart but the things that tick me off about minor aspects after reading their affect that they applies on me esp Moon-neptune it explain why I have high lows emotion

[seanboy]

Thought this nodes produce a strong personality