Posted once before but I think my question was too vague...or specific.

[imeururuemi]

So anyway, this is my chart.

a little about myself:

Well at the moment I am confused in the matters of love and career. In both areas it seems like I have multiple paths to take but I cant decide on one, or my situation prevents me from acting. I seem to be at a crossroads, but most of my paths are blocked...except for the ones I don't want to take.

I guess I would just like a little insight in my cloudy day.

Also, if anyone could give some insight into such a bundled chart with these aspects, that would be great.

Cheers!

[virgo18]

For career... you will do well in Criminology, detective, something that involves death, weapons, hospitals.

For love... perhaps is possible that your partner will be older, strong character, and has the same career as you.

[Vista]

Originally Posted by imeururuemi

So anyway, this is my chart.

a little about myself:

Well at the moment I am confused in the matters of love and career. In both areas it seems like I have multiple paths to take but I cant decide on one, or my situation prevents me from acting. I seem to be at a crossroads, but most of my paths are blocked...except for the ones I don't want to take.

I guess I would just like a little insight in my cloudy day.

Also, if anyone could give some insight into such a bundled chart with these aspects, that would be great.

Cheers!

I can definitely see the confusion going on with you. Right now, you have Transiting Saturn retrograde and moving back to Square your Mid-heaven for the second time. By nature, Saturn is cold and restrictive and the planet of hard knocks and lessons. You are having a bit of a crisis about your career direction. With Transiting Pluto moving through your 9th house, returning to school could be an option. Where are you in your education as Pluto does spend many years in one house so perhaps you have already graduated? In the fall, Saturn will make the final transit to your MC, although I think right now or very soon you will start making decisions with the final pass putting everything into action.

You have an interesting dynamic going on with your career/work, you have Mars/Saturn/Pluto in Scorpio in your 6th house of work and Sun/Moon in Aquarius in your 10th house of career. You really could be satisfied with very different types of work. Virgo18 gave you some good ideas, but what i would do is Google Aquarius/Scorpio careers and see if anything jumps out at you. Both are so different with Scorpio being behind the scenes, probing deeply into things and Aquarius being the champion of the underdog looking for the greater good for all. You may find(based on what I see transit wise many years from now) that you have two completely different careers. Start exploring.

As for love, depending on the house system and in this case, Placidus which is one of the most popular, you have Uranus in your 7th house. Uranus is the planet of rebellion and unpredictability. Not ideal for the house of marriage. You really have two sides to you, Pluto in Scorpio which rules your 7th house really wants that deep connection and life long commitment, whereas Uranus wants it's freedom and a non-traditional relationship. Somehow you really must try to find a way to combine both these needs or you will continue to attract men who are unavailable to you or you will project this onto them in that the men who want you, you don't want. And unavailable comes in many ways....they live far away, in anther relationship, uninterested, whatever. Does this resonate? Try and develop friendships first without intimacy. You have Saturn Square both your Sun and Moon. These natal aspects can really hurt your confidence and cause you a lot of depression. Have you dealt with your childhood issues with your mother? I think forgiving will be pivotal in your relationships with men.
Having a career that you are very passionate will be very important for you, more-so than a lot of people because it will give you confidence and the ability to lose yourself in something worth while.

[imeururuemi]

Virgo18, it's funny that you say I will prefer men of strong character and in the same career as myself, as I tend to end up dating my superiors at work.

I have also worked in medicine, most recently in a job where I preformed post mortum care on newly deceased people. The law and weapons are not really my style though...I could never work in such a flawed system which I couldn't change.

Vista, I am very confused about my career path at the moment, but recently I have chosen to let that confusion go and trust my decisions. Story time: I practice reiki, and do reiki shares once per week with my teachers and guru. The week before last I had a VERY powerful session with my guru, in which he said that my path is shady now, but soon I will be presented with a path which I wont even have to think twice about following. I mulled that over for the week and then last week we had another share, this time, my second reiki teacher was there and she said the exact same thing to me...almost verbatim. So, I am just going to go with my gut on this one.

I have done so many things...half way. I started with dental assisting then moved on to nurses assistant, after that I had a stint in restaurant work and bar tending, then I decided to go to school (hello pluto) for graphic design, but that was nothing but a huge waste of money that I cant pay off. After that I spent a year with an old Italian coffee roaster learning the art and science of espresso, and after that I spent a year as a glass blowers apprentice. Glass blowing is really my passion, but it costs a lot of money that I don't have. I have been compensating by learning the art of hoop spinning (the spinning keeps me from getting rusty in glass blowing) and that became another passion of mine. I've dabbled in visual art, fashion modeling, and now I am just scraping by by doing book editing and managing the publishing and distribution for my land lady in order to pay rent. In the future, I would like to implement an invention of mine in a "coffee shop" that specializes in medicated edibles and THC infused espresso (the invention)...but the law is stopping me from doing that...oy.

As for love....heh.

Well I am 28 and have probably had just as many boyfriends and girlfriends. No one has ever asked me to marry them...and not because I am a bad girlfriend, or have any major flaws...just...no one has asked me. I used to let that get me down until I started dating my current boyfriend, he actually wants the whole marriage and kids thing, and I believe he is planning on asking me to marry and spend my life with him. I love him so much, and he would provide a good life for me...but...I want to provide my own good life, I don't really want kids, I don't really want marriage!!! and I am just realizing this. I don't know how to let him go, I love him a lot...but as someone who has dated many people and learned a lot about love, I know that my love for him extends past the need to be in a romantic relationship with him. However, he has a very strong attachment to me and it would crush him if I ended it. Also, he has a lot of jealousy towards the man I call guru, and I admit, I do have a "crush" on him a little, but it's more just a really pure form of admiration. I just want to be friends with him without knowing in the back of my mind that my boyfriend is freaking out a little inside every time I spend time with him.

My mother really was my rock, it's my dad who I resent more than anything else in this world...I had a baby when I was 15 and he pretty much disowned us both and forced me to either abort or give him up for adoption, with lots of very very angry, violent, disgusting and insulting words and actions thrown in the mix...It's really really hard to forgive that, but I recognize is as a very negative attachment that needs to be done away with.


Thank you for the reading, it really did give me a lot of insight into my life, sorry for the late reply.

Gina