Chiron in Leo, 4th House

[jmax]

Hey everyone. I was wondering if you all could help me understand this position and the aspects it makes in my chart a little bit better.

My intuition (as well as deductions) tell me that this position is where I feel very troubled. I've read up a bit on what Chiron in Leo means, and I seem to match the description fairly well. I definitely have a problem expressing my personality, no matter how much I want to. Whenever I try to, it seems like I go into fight or flight mode and I can't seem to speak.

I want to get to the bottom of this, as it makes me a very anxious, depressed, and lonely person. Everything in my chart pulls me to want to be around and connect with people, but it seems like this aspect is an obstacle that I have not yet figured out how to pass through.

Thus, I want to get everyone's wisdom on it (the chiron placement) and on the aspects to chiron.

The aspects that seem to be the most relevant are these
-The square to Pluto in Scorpio
-The square to the Sun in Scorpio
-The square to the Ascendant in Taurus

And of course, the placement of Chiron in Leo being in the Fourth house. Chiron also makes a light trine to Venus (in Sagittarius), but I'm not sure what to make of that.

I feel as if the natally retrograde Mercury exacerbates the feelings of not being able to express oneself well (but that ought to be over this coming year in which it goes direct in my chart.)

And of course, there could be things in my chart that point towards wh at I mentioned earlier that I am totally missing. So if you see anything, please do not hesitate to mention it.

I apologize for not being very active on the forums. My life has been quite upside down lately and I have not had much time to dedicate to things like this until recently.

Thank you all so much for reading, I'm excited to hear from you.

-jmax

[Suzannah]

Hey there!

I know this reply is extremely late and I am not a 'seasoned' astrologer but...

I too have Chiron in Leo in fourth!!!

Mercury retrograde too!!!

I feel like I have no talent, no creativity, no good things to 'show off'

I definately do not feel like a Leo (leo sun here)

I move so much it's rediculous which could be a part of Chirons fun. I move approximately every three to six months (longest I've ever stayed is 2 years in a place)

So my home life (fourth) is a constant torture.. constantly trying to find 'home'.

I often wish I was older because I feel like my youth is too difficult. I know you cant be old and wise without youth, but I cannot wait to be settled, retired and happy.

All I want is to find home...