Always in confused state of mind

[Rampat]

Hi,

Please find attached my horo chart.

My problem is that I am always confused and in some sort of dreamy state of mind. For me everything happening in the world feels like I am playing a game. Nothing seems so serious to me and nothing seems permanent too. I don't make friends because I either I find them too boring to talk to them or I find them too intelligent and that makes me feel sick of myself. I am too empathetic and can spend everything on others' and at the same time I am too materialist to fret later on what I did. I am too idealistic but sometimes end up doing the meanest thing. I am an extremely confused being, so desperately need to understand how to deal with this confusion...please help...

Many thanks for reading through my thread.

[astrologer50]

Originally Posted by Rampat

Hi,

Please find attached my horo chart.

My problem is that I am always confused and in some sort of dreamy state of mind. For me everything happening in the world feels like I am playing a game. Nothing seems so serious to me and nothing seems permanent too. I don't make friends because I either I find them too boring to talk to them or I find them too intelligent and that makes me feel sick of myself. I am too empathetic and can spend everything on others' and at the same time I am too materialist to fret later on what I did. I am too idealistic but sometimes end up doing the meanest thing. I am an extremely confused being, so desperately need to understand how to deal with this confusion...please help...

Many thanks for reading through my thread.

A good starting point is on astro.com 'personal portrait' where you simply put the mouse over a planet and it brings up a box interpreting what it means to have that planets in that house and any aspects is has to the other 9planets and Angles ie: Asc//Mc

Now basically your sun sign is your 'core beliefs, values, ego' and Asc is your physical body, mode of expression and mask and persona that we all wear and hide behind, but definitely not what's going on underneath. What's going on underneath is your Sun sign. Moon sign, house placements and aspects describe your emotional and intuitive responses, also describes your view of your mother, as saturn describes your father by sign and house position.

So, think of a glass milk bottle the bottle is your Asc and your sun the milk, but the milk still has to 'come out' through the glass neck of the milk bottle....

Now aspects within a natal chart represent 'facets' of our personality, because we are all multifaceted beings. What these do is 'break down and compartmentalise' these facets into smaller bite size chunks. This does take quite a lot of self analysis and objectivity to 'see yourself' and why you do certain things and behave in certain ways. Actually it can be quite good therapy...

Remember back to your school days an opposition is 180', square 90', trine 120', and sextile 60' Now challenged aspects are conj (depending on the planets, cos some like each other and some really don't) squares and oppositions. Easy aspects are conj (if the planets get along) eg: Jupiter conj Moon, sextile and trine. Quincunx is inbetween (depending on the planets) causes health strains and unresolved or hard to balance planets/energies.

chiron well aspected in first is the mark of a healer, but do you take your own advices, probably not?

You also have a few retrograde planets, (going backwards) that warrants further research..


Retrograde planets
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showthread.php?t=22923
http://astrology.findyourfate.com/astrology-retrograde.htm
http://www.north-node.com/astrology-tutorials/retrogrades
http://www.skyviewzone.com/astrology/retrogradeplanets.htm
http://www.north-node.com/astrology-tutorials/retrogrades
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showpost.php?p=5796&postcount=8
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showpost.php?p=5861&postcount=10
Pluto retrograde in scorpio above
http://karma.astrology.com/pastlife.html

Your chart also lacks air planets and only two planets in air houses, where not enough thought is put behind speech patterns. mercury retro opp jupiter retro can overtalk and/or undertalk on occasions, but merc gets a boost being conj MC being an outlet

Neptune does a bit of a number on your chart posing a few challenges and this is where the confusion, illusions and emotional disappointments come into play.

Natal chart aspects
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Planets_in_astrology
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/learn-astrology/astrology-glyphs.php
http://www.skyscript.co.uk/sunaspects.html
http://www.skyscript.co.uk/aspects2.html
http://www.cafeastrology.comarm/natal/planetsaspectsastrology.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Astrological_aspect
http://www.astro.com/astrology/in_aspect_e.htm
http://www.skyviewzone.com/astrology/aspectsreference.htm
http://www.skyviewzone.com/astrology/aspectssun.htm
http://astrologynotes.org/wiki/Sun_aspects
http://www.astrologyindepth.com/Special:Prefixindex/category:
http://www.bobmarksastrologer.com/TOClessons.htm
http://www.theastrologicalaspects.com/
http://www.strangehouse.com/natal-aspects/index.php

planets in houses
http://www.horoscopeswithin.com/planetsinhouses.php
Houses/signs are like the backdrop of a stage/theatre, planets in houses behave like actors on a stage, the *aspects* show how these planets/actor behave in a house

you also have a mystic rectangle and small minor talent triangle.

[Rampat]

Thanks for your insight.

I am browsing through astro.com to understand more. One important thing I would like to add here is that, in the midst of all this confusion and a inflated & deflated self ego I have been postponing to becoming a mother. The thought itself petrifies me that if in the state of confusion if I give birth to another life, my child may also inherit or be influenced by my state of being. Is this fear true to any extent? will I ever be able to come out of this and become a mother? As you may see that I am already 34 and my biological clock is also ticking!

[astrologer50]

Originally Posted by Rampat

Thanks for your insight.

I am browsing through astro.com to understand more. One important thing I would like to add here is that, in the midst of all this confusion and a inflated & deflated self ego I have been postponing to becoming a mother. The thought itself petrifies me that if in the state of confusion if I give birth to another life, my child may also inherit or be influenced by my state of being. Is this fear true to any extent? will I ever be able to come out of this and become a mother? As you may see that I am already 34 and my biological clock is also ticking!

Astrology can explain lots of things, especially regarding your personality, traits etc but it's entirely upto YOU to make changes in your life, you are the captin of your ship no-one else. Knowing astrology is not going to change you or do this for you! We all have to go through rough transits, to learn and to grow as a person, so in that regard you are no different...

No one can make such a serious decision for you. If you need further input, talk to family your GP

[hknt99]

hi i dont know much about astrology but i will try to give u an explanation..

the first thing i noticed is that you have moon in pisces in 12th house which means that your moon placement definitely affect those states of mind..

i have a feeling that you, just like me, have pisces ascedent.. are you sure that this is the exact time of your birth? if i am right, neptune ( planet of illusion and dreams ) transits your 12th house ( house of illusion and dreams ) you can read about it here http://cafeastrology.com/neptune_transits_houses.html

i am going through the same and i feel the same way exacly as you described... i hope that helps you, you are not alone (i am sagittarius too lol)

OH and also i just noticed that pluto is in conjunction transit with your mercury, you can read about it here: http://cafeastrology.com/plutotransits.html

[astrologer50]

Originally Posted by hknt99

hi i dont know much about astrology but i will try to give u an explanation..

the first thing i noticed is that you have moon in pisces in 12th house which means that your moon placement definitely affect those states of mind..

i have a feeling that you, just like me, have pisces ascedent.. are you sure that this is the exact time of your birth? if i am right, neptune ( planet of illusion and dreams ) transits your 12th house ( house of illusion and dreams ) you can read about it here http://cafeastrology.com/neptune_transits_houses.html

i am going through the same and i feel the same way exacly as you described... i hope that helps you, you are not alone (i am sagittarius too lol)

OH and also i just noticed that pluto is in conjunction transit with your mercury, you can read about it here: http://cafeastrology.com/plutotransits.html

Pisces moon
“However, your Moon is in Pisces, which is a highly sensitive and deeply emotional Moon placement. It would certainly feel like a Chiron-Moon contact, even if technically it is not. Those with Moon in Pisces experienced an emotional disconnection from mother whilst growing up. The mother was most likely either emotionally shut down, addicted, or very distracted by her own life. This leaves a deep wound to do with feeling left out or disconnected - emotionally - from the rest of the world.”
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showpost.php?p=300612&postcount=5
Comments by R4ven senior member - “Sun conjunct Chiron in 9th” thread

since your Moon is in Pisces, your mother was most likely not available to you when you most needed her to be


Pisces Asc thread.
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showthread.php?t=40284
Pisces Asc (along with gemini) is probably one of the most difficult in childhood. With pisces they are sooo impressionable, easily manipulated and make lots of sacrifices trying to please family to much

[Rampat]

Thanks for your comments.

Yes, I am a Pisces Ascendant, however not sure why the same birth details that show a pisces asc in other systems show Aries asc in astro.com. Even I was confused about it. Thanks for pointing out.

Also, it gives me some relief to know that I am not as unique as I thought :-)

Could you please suggest some remedies to overcome this phase.

Thanks again

[astrologer50]

astro is very accurate, and TOB is essential. If you used other software did you add Daylight Saving time? or did the software do it automatically like astro's?

[hknt99]

i think that some physical exercise will work good for you
i can stay all day in home fantasizing about.. things
after a hour walk in the park i feel a little bit more in the reality
i dont know the life you lead and have you ever done sports
but since pluto is conjuncting your mercury right now
you have the opportunity to completely change your mind
my next feeling is that you will like sports and this will be part from your pluto transformation
i hope that helps

[Rampat]

Astrologer 50 : Yes, I add day light savings in other software whereever required...but astro.com didnt need it.

HKNT99 : I have never been into sports nor do I excercise. I have opted for work from home. I have become hopelessly laid back. No friends at all. I only move from one room to another, do some cooking and again back to bed with my laptop. Waiting for some change to happen in my life!!! Do you see any turning point for me in the near future??

[hknt99]

are you married ? do you have children? do you think you have physical appearence problem? do you feel anxiety when going out?

[astrologer50]

Originally Posted by Rampat

Astrologer 50 : Yes, I add day light savings in other software whereever required...but astro.com didnt need it.

HKNT99 : I have never been into sports nor do I excercise. I have opted for work from home. I have become hopelessly laid back. No friends at all. I only move from one room to another, do some cooking and again back to bed with my laptop. Waiting for some change to happen in my life!!! Do you see any turning point for me in the near future??

When T Pluto get to your mercury retro next year and your MC you will have choice but to change. this is a major major transit and your life WILL change over the next two years or so...

[Rampat]

I am married but dont have children even after 5 years. It was a strange kind of marriage. My husband was already married when I met him. But our attraction was so strong that chose to get out of his first marriage (not legally) and we married. He has a daughter from his earlier marriage. Although we share an intensely strong bond between us even today, we have bitter fights day in and day out. We consciously try to avoid fights but seems like external force is acting which is indispensable. Intermittently when the external force is not casting its effect, we lead an extremely happy life emotionally. For me this emotion is almost divine. Thats the only thing which still keeps me going. One strange thing is that I love my husband like my own child. May be thats the reason I never felt the urge to have a child. Although my husband loves me almost as much as I do I still find him lacking in reciprocating to my love and trust. That frustrates me quite often.

[Rampat]

@ Astrologer 50 : I have heard from other astrologers too that there will be some change in my life in the next two years. Could you please throw some light as to what these changes could possibly be.....will the change be in my relationships or career?

[Rampat]

Well, I think missed your question regarding my physical appearance and anxiety.

Overall I look ok, but definitely my physical appearance is not like normal ladies. am only 5 feet 1 inch and look almost 10 years younger to my age. Young girls wont include me in their group because I am much older and older ladies too wouldnt because I look too young to be a part of their team :-)....but it is all ok with me because I dont go anywhere, dont meet any body and dont talk to anyone at all....

Regarding anxiety, I am always anxious. There is a kind of terrible fear deep inside me. I am too vigilant all the time and always keep expecting something very bad to happen. So when I hear any unexpected sound my heart starts beating faster. The first thing in the morning when I open my eyes I find my heart beating too fast. Then I try to remember what happened the previous day. Then I say to myself that everything is fine...only then I become normal....isnt it strange :-) ????

[hknt99]

thats great thing to hear..!!
since those planet transits are in process your life will definitely change..
in the next months and years pluto will also sextile your moon which will bring new emotions and bonds and probably something new might will come out
as long as your mental confusion, sugar can make you dizzy. do you like to eat alot of chocolate? because i do and when i eat a little bit more my mind is not very clear...
simple walk outside not necessary in a park but a simple shopping will make your mind clear dont stay too much in home
friendship problems are common and i think that sagittarius sun and venus with pisces moon and ascedant you can be very communicative and friendly no matter what you think you will find some friends real soon im sure

i hope this helps

[hknt99]

i took a little time to write my previous post and i didnt saw your last, me and you have alot in common, we both will go through a pluto moon transit. My moon is at 11 degree in capricorn and right now we feel very strong emotions and fears and everything is on the surface, sometimes i get panic attacks at night and whenever i go out im feeling anxious too i hope that pluto moon transit will eliminate those fears in both of us

[Rampat]

knowing about all the transits etc sounds good...but is there a remedy to my problems that we are discussing...how can we benefit from this astrology and predictions?

[Rampat]

Well, I think my anxiety goes back to my early childhood times. I didnt have quite a normal childhood in the sense that I was extremely scared of my father. He used to be scream and yell at everyone for almost everything. I am still carrying that sense of fear in me.

[hknt99]

time will pass things will change
walking and simple physical exercise will make you feel stronger mentally and physically,
i think everything happens for a reason and we just like the planets are moving through the zodiac and different phases, days and nights, at the end we notice only the nights and the bad things
these are advices from 17 years old guy and i think soon everything will be good for you
i want you really to think about healthier life style just walking a hour a day outside and some simple home exercises twice a week, this will make you feel completely different

[Rampat]

oh you are just 17? You sound like a mature 40-45 years old :-).....I was such a naive and immature at your age and still am.....that's is one more thing which makes look and sound much younger than what I am... under-confidence...I guess I should have a clear understanding of things at this age and in a position to advise younger people...instead I am myself not clear on many things and keep seeking advise :-(...Well, appreciate your advise...Thanks

[astrologer50]

Originally Posted by hknt99

i took a little time to write my previous post and i didnt saw your last, me and you have alot in common, we both will go through a pluto moon transit. My moon is at 11 degree in capricorn and right now we feel very strong emotions and fears and everything is on the surface, sometimes i get panic attacks at night and whenever i go out im feeling anxious too i hope that pluto moon transit will eliminate those fears in both of us

It will be years before Pluto gets to 11' cappi

http://cafeastrology.com/plutotransits.html

[Rampat]

you mean no relief until then?

[astrologer50]

Originally Posted by Rampat

you mean no relief until then?

I was referring to Hknt99 - no you hon..

[Rampat]

Originally Posted by astrologer50

When T Pluto get to your mercury retro next year and your MC you will have choice but to change. this is a major major transit and your life WILL change over the next two years or so...

Could you please elaborate a bit on the kind of changes I can see in the next couple of years...I am having a real hard time with both personal and professional life...thanks