Thank you for your help DiDi!

I forgot about the importance of the moon in horary astrology. The moon is void of course .
i found this information also on a void of course moon -
"In a horary chart, a void-of-course moon is one of those 'considerations before judgement' which precludes the reading of the chart in question. The Moon is related very much to the timing of the chart, showing past conditions (separating or departing aspects to other planets) and future conditions (applying aspects). The sign it is in signifies the current territory - once it gets to the boundary of that sign it 'moves into new territory' so to speak. The conditions will change. Therefore, it can be judged that following the current pathway will lead nowhere, something needs to change. "
http://astrologyschool.com/horarypt2.html
I guess sometimes when you cast a chart and try to interpret it yourself, you want to blind yourself to the negative realities. I think what you have said makes a lot of sense

maybe I just needed someone to confirm what my instincts were telling me all along.
In love, sometimes the person you care about just doesn't care back.

I blame astrology