I have a problem with communicating with people

[Govind]

I have had a stutter for the last 10 years of my life and I don't see it getting any better. It is frustrating because it stops me from doing a lot of things I want to do and I feel like I'm not allowed to live a fulll life as a result. The most troubling thing about this is that I feel like I have a lot of potential and that I'm essentially an extrovert who has A LOT to say but I feel like for some reason I'm scared of people and they way that they percieve me at the same time. I don't really understand why or how I can change this though. As a result my life in public is absolute torture (I definitely have some sort of social anxiety) and i fear that there is not much hope for improvement.

So I would like to know when my speech will start improving for the better and what I can do to put myself on the road to recovery. I've tried almost everything out there but so far i've had no success but hopefully by looking at my chart somebody could give me some advice. I'm just hoping that this won't be a life long problem (I fear it will be...) and I will be able to move on and life my life with more freedom.

I am defintiely not an expert in interpreting natal charts but from what little I know I know that in my chart there is a square between Pluto and the Moon and my moon is in Aquarius which could explain a lot of internalising of negative feelings for no particular reason.

If anyone could help me out with this it would be much appreciated. Thanks.

[Anachiel]

I wish you the best and that things will improve in life for you. I wanted to post a reply, though I do not have a specific astrological answer for you regarding this issue.

May I suggest that you try something like EFT (emotional freedom technique) or tapping. Just google the terms and you will find plenty of info on them.

You have a very strong Mars in the fourth and Saturn near the Ascendant. You probably have a lot of repressed emotions that you need to find healthy expression for, and a need to find a fulfilling creative outlet. With Mercury, angular in the 10th and aspecting Saturn, you probably are a deep thinker rather than being comfortable with expressing yourself emotionally. You may be very good at writing, philosophy, ancient arts like ayurveda, etc. Anyway, that's my humble look at your chart. It appears you just need to allow yourself to love yourself and find expression that is pleasing to you. Focus on what you enjoy rather than what your limitations are.

Blessings,

Anachiel

[Govind]

Thanks Anachiel. I hope someone give me some insight on the future for me and how long I will have to struggle with the problem. i dont even really want my stuttering to go away per say, I just want to be free from the constant anxiety and obsession with my speech. Hopefully someone can tell me when (or if) I will ever reach this stage, and if so HOW. I'm really desperate for direction now because right now I'm lost.