Did he ever reciprocate my feelings?

[griffin]

Hello all,

I'm very new to horary and I am having trouble interpreting this chart. The question is "Did .... ever reciprocate my romantic feelings?" The matter regards a person I met long ago, in college, with whom I took several classes and even occupied the same dorm building, but who never really talked with me except on a couple of occasions. For some strange reason I developed a real fixation/obsession with this person unfortunately, and thought of him for many years. Strangely enough I did run into him years later in another state, and was shocked to say the least; what were the chances? Again, although I had an opportunity to speak to him, I couldn't do it, and the chance passed me by. I'm not interested in a current relationship with him and the only reason I am asking this question here is to obtain some closure on this matter. For years I was plagued with these feelings and also feelings of utter inferiority related to him, and compared myself with him often in a negative way. I often thought that he secretly reciprocated my feelings for him, but I could never be certain. I wondered if the obsession was mutual, and I hoped that by getting the definitive answer NO I could finally put this thing to rest and release this obsession. If there's absolutely no evidence he had any reciprocity, I believe that I can let this go.

Anyway, in looking at the chart, I see immediately that my significator Pluto, a malefic, is rising, which suggests that he is unlikely to have reciprocated my feelings. Pluto rising says NO. Pluto rising is also an indicator of my fixation and obsession over this matter. The moon is also my co-significator and is in the 9th house of higher learning/education, which fits as we did meet each other in college. The significators of the other party are Venus, the Sun and Jupiter, which is ruling the 5th house. Looking at the aspects between all of the significators, I see that Pluto and Jupiter are squaring off in the 2nd and 5th houses, respectively, indicating confusion and misunderstanding between us; Pluto wants something and is having a hard time getting it. Venus is also squaring the ascendant, indicating that he was probably not attracted to me physically. So in a nutshell this is my assessment, but I am a beginner and I may be reading this completely incorrectly.

What do you all think? I'd be grateful if anyone is willing to take a stab at this.

Here are the data for the chart: Monday, March 14, 2011 at 23:08 GMT-7 at 122w25 and 37n46.

Thank you!

[griffin]

Can anyone please help me with this? Thank you!

[rafaella]

if you put the chart up, I'm sure you will receive answers... or at least give a location for the question...

cheers...


EDIT: is it San Francisco, California?

[griffin]

Thanks, Rafaella. Chart is attached to this message.

[rafaella]

well as this is about the past rather than future, I'd say we have to look at the past aspects that his ruler and Moon made. I have been mostly reading future charts, future aspects, so this will be something new...

I see there is no aspect between your significator and his. He is Venus and you are Mars. There was also no separating aspect either in the past.
So just shows neither of you had enough drive to make anything happen. He is in his own term and not in any of yours. So I guess he may have not thought of you the way you have of him.


Moon has no aspect with Venus. His ruler Venus also rules your 12th house of hidden matters, the unknown, so it things that have to do with him may always be something that you will wonder about, or not be able to see clearly. Venus is just separating from Saturn in his 5th. 5th rules romance and playfulness. This could mean that he felt restricted or that this relationship has been restricted with afflicted Saturn and Venus aspect.

The future trine between Moon and Sun in the 5th could mean something may come in the future. Possibly not a relationship, but something fun and enjoyable -a friendship? Or the Sun may represent men in general and Moon trining Sun in 5th could mean your own enjoyment and playfulness comes out. The 5th is really packed and I think the chart shows you need to live more in the now and enjoy, bring your playfulness out. Your own ruler Mars is also moving into 5th and 5th ruler Jupiter there as well, it all says to me where the emphasis should be.

[griffin]

Rafaella,

Thank you for your reply and your interpretation of the chart.