Hey, thanks for the long reply
First of all, I feel I need to correct you one thing, but that's only for the sake of not misinterpreting the chart. You see, that image I attached is quite confusing for some people, you're not the first person who've had trouble with it. Here's the deal: the outer chart is today's and the inner one is mine (though I'm sure you did know that), and so, I think it confused you a little because my Sun-Jupiter conjunction isn't in the 11th house, but the 12th. If you look again, look at the inner numbers, which are my houses.
To be honest, I hate correcting people's mistakes, not sure why, but this was necessary ^_^
That said, you'll agree with me that the image I gave you isn't very organised, perhaps (I feel the need to repeat it, sorry! :P)
Anyway, I'm in a phase of my life where I feel a deep
need to express myself, somehow. But I still haven't found what exactly makes me feel complete. Not sure if it's because of my Venus in Gemini (in the 11th), though I tend to say so, but (as someone puts it) I'm like a butterfly going here and there, wanting to try it all to see if I'm meant for it, but never quite finishing what I start.
It's a difficult thing, understanding ourselves, and I'm far from it, but I read what you wrote and some of your words didn't feel unfamiliar to me. I feel
(God, I use that word too much) I'm in the verge of something life-changing happening. I don't know exactly why I'm saying it but the feeling is there. And what I'm doing for a career doesn't need much display of creativity , so if I don't find a way to release my emotions soon, things will get ugly. I want to combine both of my worlds together, but it may prove a difficult task. And maybe I'm overthinking it, but I feel things are building up inside me in a way that in a distant future may not be healthy for me.
But I'm boring you. My Leo is making me talk too much about myself, gah.
You should do more art, indeed! Everyone should! :P
I'm a beginner here, but isn't Neptune related to the ways of, let's say, escaping from reality? The good AND not so good ways of doing it? Addictions and all the sorts? Oh, but maybe since it's in your 5th, it's more related to the healthy
ways of escapism...?