hi there all : ) tks for reading this...i'm at a huge turning point after abt 8-9 years of rough living and a lot of growth, which of course i'm so grateful for. i am completely new here, so bear w/me : ) i have been aware of some of the more superficial or generally accepted libran qualities however i want to go deeper, it's time!
any help in a chart read would so
very much appreciated with thanks!!
a few pending life questions at the moment that are primary focus for me:
1. career - i am highly creative have thought photography was my thing but finding myself shying away from anything too technical ie all the software and associated knowledge, the depth of really getting into digital media ect. my intuition tells me i might enjoy emphasizing in studio arts, a simpler more hands on and holistic (balanced!) approach that grazes many areas. but sometimes i question this in myself - is it laziness that i find the technical daunting? is it a fear of failure and is studio my way 'out'? i think there's a strong teaching aspect to my sign - which i never considered until recently. i love giving to the community, helping others esp. children, have even considered being a foster parent. a foundation of money, mostly for travel and my daughter's education is important, but overall im not materially attached so income isn't my objective. autonomy v. imp. to me, want to eventually become self employed and have freedom to travel, ect. within the nxt few yrs.
2. love relationships - have been thru one each volatile taurus and sagittarius pairings. a gemini relationship was volatile too. my father is a pisces. mom taurus, ex husband taurus. common thread seems to me environmental (father narcissist, chauvinist and also these relationships). how much weight do i put to the zodiac and how can i work thru these issues based on my chart/environmental combination? im not desperate to be in a relationship by any means, but when it comes along nxt time id rather be a bit more self-aware, evolved, or at least on my way!
3. temperament - i seem to have a hard time asserting myself initially in relationships, while im weighing in who it is im dealing with. although i have improved a lot. but sometimes (very very rarely) over time it builds and builds and i lose all patience, understanding ect and boom i burst! i get the fight/flight thing and act impulsively say stupid things, lose focus ect. is this just me / being human? still improving meditation helps, this isn't a problem affecting home/life/work ect but im aware and it feels not nice. feedback here much appreciated. what lesson and work here for me?
4. ongoing custody / divorce issues - i have a hearing jan. 10th, i am pretty confident of not losing custody (i have been primary carer of my 8 year old for her whole life and im a supermom ; ) ) but my ex has gotten nasty and gotten my father involved and he's as i said a bit nutty - basically he just doens't know me and made some really negative assumptions re my parenting ect. and took part in one of my ex's affidavits. a lot of issues at play here obviously, abandonment, trust ect. is this ongoing stuff (its been 5 yrs since we separated and we've been in court about 6 times, he just keeps filing ridiculous stuff incl. lies) karma (i was young stupid and selfish abt how i ended our relationship) or can u see in my chart what i need to focus or any clues about when / how this will ever be finally resolved? i sort of feel like i've paid my dues here! ugh.
ok done writing war n peace - thank you for anything you can provide so very much!!!