Where does my chart want me to go? afraid of being jack of all trades, master of none

[Oren]

I've always wondered if my chart is telling me if I should be going very strongly in a certain direction or path in my life with regards to my career/life goals/ambition...I invite any and all input from forum members about any observations they can make about my chart...is it screaming something at me that I need to be taking notice of? what is the path it MOST strongly wants me to take? will I acheive wealth/material success? I have so many interests and have tried so many things at this point with relative success...I'm a bit afraid at this point of being a "jack of all trades...master of none"...

[R4VEN]

Oren, if your chart is `screaming' at you, then it is unlikely that anyone other than you can `hear' it!!

There is nothing at all wrong with being a jack of all trades, and having a lot of varied life experiences. The paid work which we engage in is just a part of a life journey, and is about providing us with the means to live; it is only in recent decades that the concept of having a `career' has become an obsession for many. For myself, I think it is somewhat overrated . I've just re-read your posts on the Libra MC thread, and I found your self-assessment quite interesting.

Firstly, you have Sun and Mars in quite close opposition (i.e. the orb for the opposition is only 20'), so this opposition is quite a strong one for you. This is a strong-drive-to-succeed placement, and I noted that you have mentioned a couple of times the desire to be an entrepreneur. The thing about this opposition is that it drives you to not listen to that inner voice which needs to be listened to, and you also have quite a strong `inner voice', which can be described as your intuition - that's Neptune-Moon square. Neptune also trines Mercury and Venus, so you have quite an artistic soul - if you are ready for this part of yourself to emerge. Your soul has a wish for you to express yourself creatively, while your ego wants money, power, respect, `success'. The GFC (which is in no way over, BTW) has surely shown you that material success can dissolve in a nanosecond.

As far as timing goes, you are asking the right questions at the right time in your life -
You are currently having tr Pluto forming a conjunction with natal Neptune, so you are experiencing the resultant confusion which goes with this. tr Pluto has also been squaring your MC, and so this appears to be the current battleground in your life! I would suspect that there are massive internal changes occurring for you, and you are trying to resist them, because you have quite a lot invested in your original life goals. I congratulate you for even asking the questions you are asking, because the answers you are `hearing' from within yourself may not be the ones you would like to be hearing. You already know the answers to the questions you have posed.

What's it gonna be - the money, or your life??

[And the two - money, or your life - are probably not even mutually exclusive. I suspect that the money will come when you live your life from a truthful core.]

[dhundhun]

Originally Posted by Oren

I've always wondered if my chart is telling me if I should be going very strongly in a certain direction or path in my life with regards to my career/life goals/ambition...I invite any and all input from forum members about any observations they can make about my chart...is it screaming something at me that I need to be taking notice of? what is the path it MOST strongly wants me to take? will I acheive wealth/material success? I have so many interests and have tried so many things at this point with relative success...I'm a bit afraid at this point of being a "jack of all trades...master of none"...

To me this chart sort of entrepreneur's chart, with focus on small scale, technology oriented. In case of failures, it results in technicians work, in case of successes researchers.

[Oren]

Originally Posted by R4VEN

Oren, if your chart is `screaming' at you, then it is unlikely that anyone other than you can `hear' it!!

There is nothing at all wrong with being a jack of all trades, and having a lot of varied life experiences. The paid work which we engage in is just a part of a life journey, and is about providing us with the means to live; it is only in recent decades that the concept of having a `career' has become an obsession for many. For myself, I think it is somewhat overrated . I've just re-read your posts on the Libra MC thread, and I found your self-assessment quite interesting.

Firstly, you have Sun and Mars in quite close opposition (i.e. the orb for the opposition is only 20'), so this opposition is quite a strong one for you. This is a strong-drive-to-succeed placement, and I noted that you have mentioned a couple of times the desire to be an entrepreneur. The thing about this opposition is that it drives you to not listen to that inner voice which needs to be listened to, and you also have quite a strong `inner voice', which can be described as your intuition - that's Neptune-Moon square. Neptune also trines Mercury and Venus, so you have quite an artistic soul - if you are ready for this part of yourself to emerge. Your soul has a wish for you to express yourself creatively, while your ego wants money, power, respect, `success'. The GFC (which is in no way over, BTW) has surely shown you that material success can dissolve in a nanosecond.

As far as timing goes, you are asking the right questions at the right time in your life -
You are currently having tr Pluto forming a conjunction with natal Neptune, so you are experiencing the resultant confusion which goes with this. tr Pluto has also been squaring your MC, and so this appears to be the current battleground in your life! I would suspect that there are massive internal changes occurring for you, and you are trying to resist them, because you have quite a lot invested in your original life goals. I congratulate you for even asking the questions you are asking, because the answers you are `hearing' from within yourself may not be the ones you would like to be hearing. You already know the answers to the questions you have posed.

What's it gonna be - the money, or your life??

[And the two - money, or your life - are probably not even mutually exclusive. I suspect that the money will come when you live your life from a truthful core.]

Wow...this was really deep...I keep referring to another thread I started and am curious about your input about it, mainly the last question I had:
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum...859#post242859

Indeed, I'm still reeling from the GFC...a big reason I find myself in the state I'm in and doing so much soul-searching...

but I think I'm still having difficulty hearing the answers coming from within that you mention. Even if it's something I don't want to hear, I still really want to hear it, lol...if I indeed already know the answers, I guess I need to hear it a few times or maybe from other people still before it sinks in and I realize it is in fact the anwer

[Oren]

Originally Posted by dhundhun

To me this chart sort of entrepreneur's chart, with focus on small scale, technology oriented. In case of failures, it results in technicians work, in case of successes researchers.

That's comforting to know...I don't mind working small-scale, so long as its acheivable and I'm happy and gain material security and I could work on my own. I just wish my libra midheaven didn't imply that I'd need a partner in order to achieve things in my life. I'll probably still try things out on my own, but, man - I'm just frustrated by that, especially after trying to do things on my own for so long

[R4VEN]

Originally Posted by Oren

Wow...this was really deep...I keep referring to another thread I started and am curious about your input about it, mainly the last question I had:
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum...859#post242859

I checked that out, and perhaps trying out acting may be an option for you if you do it in an amateur capacity to see how you feel about it. Neptune is actually quite prominent in your chart, so expressing yourself through illusions would be something you could do.

The following link is from Yennefer's post to you on the Libra Midheaven thread:
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum...2&postcount=16

I thought that what she said was very comprehensive. I liked the way she mentioned that a Libra MC does not necessarily indicate a career in the arts so much as making an art of one's career. I can really relate to that, as it is what I had to do all the way through my working life in order to bring meaning to the work I did. Teaching mathematics to reluctant 14-yr-olds can be an endless struggle unless a way is found to bring life to the subject matter - thus the teaching of this became an art. It was either do this, or just go through the motions.

[Oren]

Originally Posted by R4VEN

I checked that out, and perhaps trying out acting may be an option for you if you do it in an amateur capacity to see how you feel about it. Neptune is actually quite prominent in your chart, so expressing yourself through illusions would be something you could do.

The following link is from Yennefer's post to you on the Libra Midheaven thread:
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum...2&postcount=16

I thought that what she said was very comprehensive. I liked the way she mentioned that a Libra MC does not necessarily indicate a career in the arts so much as making an art of one's career. I can really relate to that, as it is what I had to do all the way through my working life in order to bring meaning to the work I did. Teaching mathematics to reluctant 14-yr-olds can be an endless struggle unless a way is found to bring life to the subject matter - thus the teaching of this became an art. It was either do this, or just go through the motions.

You're absolutely right. I remember reading that when I first went through the libra mc thread...luckily you seem capable of bringing life and meaning to anything you do...I seem to die inside very quickly once I lose interest in something, lol - or at least when I become disillusioned and I suppose I'm just tired of feeling that way, lol, which is why I'm trying to pinpoint the things that might more appropriately fulfill me so that, if I do have to be relegated to a life of constantly changing careers, I can atleast rotate around the ones that don't suck the life out of me, lol

I also think I have a negative tendency to romanticize myself, which is why I'm so drawn to the acting thing. It's so glamorous and, romantic lol...
It's like I have an image in my head of who I can be and who I want to be and I'm trying to figure out how to reconcile the two.

[ElenaJ]

Your midheaven "career" and your 6th of "work" are both ruled by that lovely venus in taurus in the 5th of creativity. It has an easy trine from jupiter on the 2nd giving you confidence (and money?), and luckily an opposition from saturn to push you on (so the jupiter trine doesn't make you too too lazy!).
Do you sing?
The work horse moon in virgo will help you keep track of details (needed to execute your craft well), and probably by making you plod through things it will also ease the tension of the sun/mars opposition, with which it has a favorable aspect.
Transiting saturn is now in your 10th which is possibly why you are asking these questions and concentrating on it right now, so if you do your homework properly you will be in a great position when saturn passes on.
Moon near the 10th cusp does bring multiple jobs, but this is nothing to worry about, especially since you apparently have already fulfilled this. Venus in fixed taurus prefers something fixed and secure, and you will find it.
The Asc conjunct uranus must make you a fascinating unusual type, just right for an actor. But not only acting is indicated, what about modeling, especially in photography?
I agree you should just listen to your inner instincts because it's all right there just waiting for you to grab it!

[ElenaJ]

Surprised you mention teaching and writing. The natal mercury is not very active, I wouldn't have thought of these.
The sun/mars opposition and the uranus on the ascendent would seem to call for a more physical activity, wouldn't you think so?

[Oren]

Originally Posted by ElenaJ

Your midheaven "career" and your 6th of "work" are both ruled by that lovely venus in taurus in the 5th of creativity. It has an easy trine from jupiter on the 2nd giving you confidence (and money?), and luckily an opposition from saturn to push you on (so the jupiter trine doesn't make you too too lazy!).
Do you sing?
The work horse moon in virgo will help you keep track of details (needed to execute your craft well), and probably by making you plod through things it will also ease the tension of the sun/mars opposition, with which it has a favorable aspect.
Transiting saturn is now in your 10th which is possibly why you are asking these questions and concentrating on it right now, so if you do your homework properly you will be in a great position when saturn passes on.
Moon near the 10th cusp does bring multiple jobs, but this is nothing to worry about, especially since you apparently have already fulfilled this. Venus in fixed taurus prefers something fixed and secure, and you will find it.
The Asc conjunct uranus must make you a fascinating unusual type, just right for an actor. But not only acting is indicated, what about modeling, especially in photography?
I agree you should just listen to your inner instincts because it's all right there just waiting for you to grab it!

Regarding this sphere:
I do have some musical ability...and I've fantasized (keyword fantasized, lol) about being a model...only because, when I've thought about what I'd want to do in the performing arts sphere, its the only thing where I could be "performing" and still maintain some sort of anonymity - for instance, if I fail as a model, no big deal...people don't really know the identies of models...but with actors or musicians...despite "performing", you still have to expose much of your real self to the greater public. You can name an actor for instance, but you can't really name a random model. But does my chart really incline me more towards being infront of the camera? or behind? - for example - directing/producing?

Are there any indicators of encountering failure? I know this is a tough field and rejection/failure is inevitable, but I mean in terms of overall failure...for instance, I can deal with small failures along the route if success is the final destination...I guess I'd like to see the detours on the map first, lol

My biggest frustration is picking something...musician? model? actor? director? because I've fantasized about all of them, but I'm trying to figure out if my chart can direct me towards one over another...or, when I start to get that specific, does it come down to me needing to make that choice for myself? because that's what I'm having most difficulty with - picking one...if I were a libran scale, the difference is grams now instead of pounds, lol.

Each pursuit still requires a great deal of its own specific preparation and investment...which is why I'm trying to be as specific as possible - I want to know what my chart indicates I'd be more in-tune with doing - the one thing that puts up the least amount of resistance in trying to acheive it...even if I have to see-saw with doing other things and go through a great deal of struggle along the way...

This is all very encouraging and exciting, and equally terrifying for me, lol.

[Oren]

Originally Posted by Skillcoil

I think you should try a variety of jobs. The ones mentioned here, also maybe radio and teaching. Have you ever wrote articles/poems for magazines before?

I have! being a writer/author was another thing I fantasized about...christ, I fantasize way too much it seems, lol

[Oren]

Originally Posted by Skillcoil

Yeah, maybe teaching in a creative arts enivorment, after some time has passed and the OP might feel like settling down a bit. I'm looking at the 5th house, Sun trine Moon. I think the OP could have a career that involves physical activity, but after some time the OP might like to use the retrograde energy of Mars/Saturn in the 11th house to be involved in group creative pursuits with the Venus oppositions involved. Writing because Moon is in Virgo, and the North Node/Chiron is in Gemini, 6th house. Acting would be a good choice also, 1st house Neptune square 10th house Moon, the part of fortune is in Leo as well.

can you elaborate on "the part of fortune is in Leo as well"?

[ElenaJ]

Moon in virgo certainly is shy!
Are you looking for a guarantee about the future? You may be on the wrong planet for this, sorry.
In reality you are the best one to narrow down the fields.
For example, if I have to choose between music (I'm tone deaf) and mechanics (I fumble) and painting (good eye), I would choose the last.
You should be able to know this about yourself.
You have talents, you just have to leave the computer and go out the door of your house. How about speaking with someone who works in these fields, or a qualified teacher, who can help evaluate your strengths?
From my experience, when you start off on the path, nature will take you in hand and open the doors.
But, no guarantees!
Basically, it might sound banal, but don't worry be happy and just do it!
Just do it!

[Oren]

Originally Posted by ElenaJ

Moon in virgo certainly is shy!
Are you looking for a guarantee about the future? You may be on the wrong planet for this, sorry.
In reality you are the best one to narrow down the fields.
For example, if I have to choose between music (I'm tone deaf) and mechanics (I fumble) and painting (good eye), I would choose the last.
You should be able to know this about yourself.
You have talents, you just have to leave the computer and go out the door of your house. How about speaking with someone who works in these fields, or a qualified teacher, who can help evaluate your strengths?
From my experience, when you start off on the path, nature will take you in hand and open the doors.
But, no guarantees!
Basically, it might sound banal, but don't worry be happy and just do it!
Just do it!

lol, thanks - and sometimes I do think I am on the wrong planet

[dhundhun]

On a side note, do you want to be jack of Astrology as well!!! Or intend to chose a career.

As mentioned above, if chart goes negative, you may become a technician - broadly speaking get indulged in technical details (or details) without any benefits.

Basically on this front you to decide, whether going negatively indulging in it or do you have plans to take Astrology as career - potential is there - this'd require learning suggestion techniques through hypnosis.

Uranus at ascendant usually makes otherworldy in the sense that no one else will understand you (except that you are unique - but not what you are). You have to time and again prove yourself by showing your talent. Showing talent in multiple direction to the level that it gives worldy returns in not easy task.

[queenfluff]

Hi Oren,

You have Neptune in the First House. I have this too. This can indicate some indecisiveness and some identity problems. This could be one of the factors in why you are having trouble deciding what to do.

I have changed careers numerous times (and surprise I want to do it again). But is not because I was bored or didn't like my past careers but that I have so many things I am interested in. Sounds like you are like this too. I don't regret my past choices (and I did eenie meenie and had to make out a pros and cons to to decide at times! LOL) and I would go back to doing one of my old careers if I needed too or wanted too. It just seems like for certain people different things work out for them at certain times in the their lives than for others. Like being in one field might work out for you right now (or hold the most interest, make more practical sense) than somewhere else down the line.

There are as also other factors that can influence this. People who have alot of mutable (changable) signs in their charts may change careers more than once in their life. I have this with my Virgo in the 10th house (house of career) - which goes against the fixed Taurus in my 6th house of work/service. I like stable work to have steady paycheck etc. but my mutableness in my chart with the Virgo in 10th. Sagitarrius is also a mutable sign - I have Mars and Moon in Sag. My moods are very changable sometimes and I will often make decisions based on them (which I wish I wouldn't do sometimes!).

Someone on here told me once that "People who have Mutable Signs (Gemini, Sagittarius, Virgo or Pisces) or Bicorporeal Signs (Gemini, Sagittarius and Pisces) on the 2nd, 6th or 10th House often switch careers, sometimes more than once."

Me I have Virgo in the 10th and Sagittarius in the 2nd. Ugh.

[Nexus7]

There is an observation about Sagittarius I once encountered regarding choosing a career, and it is that this Sign, next to Libra may have a huge problem with deciding. It is like the undergraduate faced with the idea of knowing where to master - you can't study them, but then to specialise might mean being limited forever.

Or I have heard it suggested that another Sagittarian dilemma is to graduate with a degree that looks wonderful on paper, but which is pretty well useless in the 'real' world - that is from Judith Bennet, incidentally, in her one and only book on Astrology.

And Uranus there may well be full of tantalising ideas and visions - but can quickly get very dissatisfied with the actual results. Better to have everything remain a pure vision rather then become manifest in an imperfect setting. Better not to be tied down.

It's a bit Greenian I know, but I do wonder if this isn't about the dilemma of wanting to retain the purity of these original dreams and visions (and a wide Moon square Neptune probably wouldn't help much there), whilst your earthy Sun and Moon want to see something a little more solid emerge from all these visions?

If not indecision, then impatience may be another issue - Sun opposition Mars may get frustrated and feel thwarted quite quickly at obstacles not easily resolved, Mercury in Aries square Pluto may be apt to walk away without looking back, and Uranus can have a way of of hyping you up. So maybe there is a question of needing to stay put, and wait to see the fruits of your labour mature, rather than feeling compelled to just move on?

You noda axis may also indicate that there could be a need to articulate your ideas in a way that is more easily grasped.

Your Moon is close to your Midheaven in the 9th, which suggests an affinity for further-education research and study - and possibly, either writing, or teaching.

[Oren]

Originally Posted by dhundhun

On a side note, do you want to be jack of Astrology as well!!! Or intend to chose a career.

As mentioned above, if chart goes negative, you may become a technician - broadly speaking get indulged in technical details (or details) without any benefits.

Basically on this front you to decide, whether going negatively indulging in it or do you have plans to take Astrology as career - potential is there - this'd require learning suggestion techniques through hypnosis.

Uranus at ascendant usually makes otherworldy in the sense that no one else will understand you (except that you are unique - but not what you are). You have to time and again prove yourself by showing your talent. Showing talent in multiple direction to the level that it gives worldy returns in not easy task.

I'm a bit confused. Am I heading down a negative path indulging in astrology the way I currenly am? In the way I'm getting hung up on details so to speak? and therefore need to decide if by doing so, I might as well consider it as a career? Are you also implying that I have potential to be a professional astrologer?

The main reason I'm hung up on details though is because my resources are limited at the moment and I don't have as much room as before to experiment at this point of my life. As I'm learning that things will be constantly changing for me, it's helpful to know what to look out for since, if I can only afford to empower myself in one way now, but I can go any direction, then I can do that, and as I develop/gain more resources, move into the other avenues people have suggested to me thus far - thus making my long-term journey that much smoother...if that makes sense, lol - I blame my virgo moon for wanting to anticipate and plan and foresee as much as possible right now, lol

I didn't understand what you meant here though..."(except that you are unique - but not what you are)."

[Oren]

Originally Posted by queenfluff

Hi Oren,

You have Neptune in the First House. I have this too. This can indicate some indecisiveness and some identity problems. This could be one of the factors in why you are having trouble deciding what to do.

I have changed careers numerous times (and surprise I want to do it again). But is not because I was bored or didn't like my past careers but that I have so many things I am interested in. Sounds like you are like this too. I don't regret my past choices (and I did eenie meenie and had to make out a pros and cons to to decide at times! LOL) and I would go back to doing one of my old careers if I needed too or wanted too. It just seems like for certain people different things work out for them at certain times in the their lives than for others. Like being in one field might work out for you right now (or hold the most interest, make more practical sense) than somewhere else down the line.

There are as also other factors that can influence this. People who have alot of mutable (changable) signs in their charts may change careers more than once in their life. I have this with my Virgo in the 10th house (house of career) - which goes against the fixed Taurus in my 6th house of work/service. I like stable work to have steady paycheck etc. but my mutableness in my chart with the Virgo in 10th. Sagitarrius is also a mutable sign - I have Mars and Moon in Sag. My moods are very changable sometimes and I will often make decisions based on them (which I wish I wouldn't do sometimes!).

Someone on here told me once that "People who have Mutable Signs (Gemini, Sagittarius, Virgo or Pisces) or Bicorporeal Signs (Gemini, Sagittarius and Pisces) on the 2nd, 6th or 10th House often switch careers, sometimes more than once."

Me I have Virgo in the 10th and Sagittarius in the 2nd. Ugh.

Yes! That Neptune in the first is killing me, lol. I'm slowly learning to accept it, but my Taurus doesn't like it I don't think...

It also seems we have the same dilemma with having so many interests because that is exactly my sentiment, lol.
You're absolutely right about the timing though...I'm hoping as I learn more, I can gain more insight into improving my timing because I think I have a bad habit of missing the boat on things.

I'll need to re-examine my mutable signs then...because similarly, I think I've made some major decisions just based on mood/emotion - to my detriment.

[Oren]

Originally Posted by queenfluff

Hi Oren,

You have Neptune in the First House. I have this too. This can indicate some indecisiveness and some identity problems. This could be one of the factors in why you are having trouble deciding what to do.

I have changed careers numerous times (and surprise I want to do it again). But is not because I was bored or didn't like my past careers but that I have so many things I am interested in. Sounds like you are like this too. I don't regret my past choices (and I did eenie meenie and had to make out a pros and cons to to decide at times! LOL) and I would go back to doing one of my old careers if I needed too or wanted too. It just seems like for certain people different things work out for them at certain times in the their lives than for others. Like being in one field might work out for you right now (or hold the most interest, make more practical sense) than somewhere else down the line.

There are as also other factors that can influence this. People who have alot of mutable (changable) signs in their charts may change careers more than once in their life. I have this with my Virgo in the 10th house (house of career) - which goes against the fixed Taurus in my 6th house of work/service. I like stable work to have steady paycheck etc. but my mutableness in my chart with the Virgo in 10th. Sagitarrius is also a mutable sign - I have Mars and Moon in Sag. My moods are very changable sometimes and I will often make decisions based on them (which I wish I wouldn't do sometimes!).

Someone on here told me once that "People who have Mutable Signs (Gemini, Sagittarius, Virgo or Pisces) or Bicorporeal Signs (Gemini, Sagittarius and Pisces) on the 2nd, 6th or 10th House often switch careers, sometimes more than once."

Me I have Virgo in the 10th and Sagittarius in the 2nd. Ugh.

Thanks again for your post in my other thread - I'm going to pose my last question from that here too

Neptune Transits Square Midheaven
*Changing attitudes and doubts about your career and overall situation in life can eat away at you now. This problem is particularly strong if you have not been honest with yourself, kidding yourself about where your current life is leading you, or ignoring your dreams and ideals because you feel they are unrealistic.

In another thread, somebody mentioned too that my Neptune squares moon making me unrealistic in how I think - after which I got at the same you mentioned:
Neptune transits square Moon
You could get the wrong idea, develop false ideals, and let your imagination carry you away to the point that those who support and care for you are neglected or hurt. Walk a careful line when it comes to dreams versus realities. The dreams can be bad.

Your sensitivity and imagination increase tremendously at this time, and you are much more easily influenced by images, the psychic and emotional energy of other people, and the psychic atmosphere around you.

You may find yourself wanting to retreat from the abrasiveness, ugliness, or harsher realities of life, and to seek solace and comfort in nature, spiritual company, meditation, or your own inner world.

Strange moods and feelings that you may never have experienced before come and go during this time period. Part of this is that you are absorbing others' emotions and/or subtle psychic energy. Your sensitivity, receptivity, and empathy is so great right now that you may need to avoid negative, intensely emotional people, or even films or music depicting negative and unhappy imagery.

You are opening psychically at this time and it's very important to do it in a balanced way, and in a positive, supportive, or at least non-threatening atmosphere.

Positive Potentials:

Increased compassion and sympathetic awareness of others. Opening to the mystical, subtle, intangible realms and finding great love and beauty there. Mystical oneness. Connecting with the divine feminine.

Negative Potentials:

It is very easy to lose a sense of proportion and of what is real at this time. A confusion between archetypal or inner reality and physical reality. Over-identifying with spiritual or psychic experiences. A tendency to avoid or evade life through television, fantasy, intoxicants, or even spirituality. Living in a dream world. Tendencies toward addictions and dependencies increase. Self delusion.

Remedies and Suggestions:

Use well-grounded and trusted friends or advisors to get a perspective on your thoughts and experiences now. Live a well-balanced life that includes regular contact with nature, physical exercise, adequate diet and rest, and some kind of regular routine that grounds you in everyday life. Keep a journal of your fantasies, dreams, visions.

Simple psychic protection techniques, such as imagining yourself surrounded by an egg of white or golden light, and filling that space with positive energy, or praying and affirming that you are surrounded by the love and protection of a god, or similar visualizations and prayers could be done daily. -- From our Time Line Forecast Report.

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...it's like, what do I trust then when my neptune square MC is telling me I have to stop thinking that my dreams are unrealistic, but my Neptune square moon is telling me I'm being too unrealistic? lol

actually, is one stronger than the other? in terms of what I should be listening to or that has a larger influence?

[R4VEN]

Nexus, you have created a very comprehensive summary of Oren's chart, and how it may manifest in the present.

I had ignored the Sagi-factor - and I was married to a Sagi who talked of his hopes and dreams, but never did a single thing about them!! In reality he talked to me about them because he wanted me to make them happen for him.

Oren, I think you are right about the Neptune-factor. Combine that with the Sagi ASC-factor, and you may find yourself forever planning for something which doesn't ever coalesce.

Also, I am drawn to the title of this thread.... you use the word `afraid', and yet you may have to do the very thing which you most fear. The Uranus-Sagi ASC conjunction describes one who not only forges a path which only they can follow and understand, but will tend to rebel against any kind of straight and conventional path. The Uranus influence will also ensure that you change yourself regularly throughout your life, so choosing one secure path at this time in your life just isn't the way it needs to be for you. That would drive you crazy in the end.

Also, were you to settle on a conventional path in life, the Uranus opposition would ensure that your life direction will change quite dramatically.

[astrologer50]

You have calculated your chart using the default on astro.com of placidus and I use Equal House system and am a modern astrologer. Lots of people that come into Astrology get their free charts calculated at www.astro.com and the default ‘house system’ used is Placidus and think that’s just the norm and all that there is……..BUT that is just the tip of the iceberg. You can change the default on astro.com in Extended Chart selection to Equal house and a few more.

Throughout the forums but mainly in natal astrology there are two main branches Placidus (unequal size houses) v Equal House (whereby each house is same size) but lots more……. For more information on these go here.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/House_(astrology)#Description
http://www.astrolozy.com/article19.asp
http://www.skyviewzone.com/birthinfoforms2/housesexplained.htm

It's only with study and research will you be able to assess where your planets are deposited and in which houses... thus see which 'glove fits'

Money & you
http://www.astrotheme.com/files/money_and_you.php
http://www.cafeastrology.com/astrologytopics/astrology_of_money_wealth.html
career significators
http://www.librarising.com/astrology/misc/significators.html
Professional & Destiny
http://www.astrotheme.com/files/astrology_professional_destiny.php
http://www.librarising.com/astrology/misc/significators.html

Career options are assessed by MC any planets conjunct, where the ruler of MC is placed, it’s aspects, then 2nd house ‘how you earn your money’ and planets there, ruler of cusp and where it’s placed, then 6th house of ‘type of work you do’ any planets there and how they are aspected.

Researching rulers of houses will help you understand more where I joining the dots so to speak
http://www.cafeastrology.com/natal/rulersofhousesinhouses.html
http://www.trans4mind.com/personal_development/astrology/LearningAstrology/housesDerived.htm
http://www.skyviewzone.com/astrology/houserulerships.htm

North node
http://northnodeastrology.blogspot.com/search/label/North%20Node%20and%20the%20Quest%20for%20the%20Aut hentic%20Self
http://northnodeastrology.blogspot.com/search/label/North%20Node%20in%20Taurus
http://northnodeastrology.blogspot.com/search/label/South%20Node%20Seventh%20House

Karma, reincarnation and past lives.
http://www.johnadams.net/cases/samples/Semkiw-Adams/index.html
http://karma.astrology.com/pastlife.html

http://classiclegendbooks.com/
Martin Schulman books on N Node and Retrograde planets

[astrologer50]

With 6 retrograde planets and see saw chart shape you may always find yourself exploring lots of different things. Your MC ruler Venus is afflicted by oppositin to saturn which suggests you may always have to work hard to gain financial stability or recognitiion

Your chart ruler Jupiter is well aspected in 2nd house (Equal house) and should give you the inner confidence of knowing you will always be able to earn your own money. Neptune square MC is also challenging provided your 'time of birth ' is correct.

Neptune in Square to Midheaven MC
Without a firm sense of who you are and where you're headed, you may be subject to more than your share of downtime career-wise. You may find yourself a target for deceptive career schemes and false promises. Some of this can be avoided by getting into some serious career counseling and making whatever effort necessary to become knowledgeable in your chosen field.
http://www.skyviewzone.com/astrology/aspectsneptune.htm

Your biggest challenge may be to avoid getting sidetracked by doubts about your choices. You don't have to compromise your search for your ideal life's work. You'll just have to make some focused efforts in order to achieve it. Consider some of the following career potentials: acting, any of the helping professions, working as a healer, undercover agent, psychologist, or in the arts (music, singing, dancing, painting), psychic channeling, anything connected to the sea, writing novels, or working in the field of chemistry and pharmaceuticals.
http://www.skyviewzone.com/astrology/aspectsneptune.htm

Moon conj MC also suggests many changes ---
Moon in Conjunction, Trine, Sextile to Midheaven
Your professional life may go through numerous ups and downs, often because you find yourself choosing careers that are very susceptible to the whims of the masses at any given time. Females could influence the career in some way. Ideally your career should be one that allows you a certain amount of emotional satisfaction. Real estate and all options that relate to the domestic scene in general, represent career potentials. Supportive, care taking roles are favored; likewise, those in which there is considerable contact with the public.
http://www.skyviewzone.com/astrology/aspectsmoon.htm