That Neptune in the 10th could be a blessing.
You probably get bored with routine, 9-5 jobs,
or ones that don't seem to really have a higher purpose
in your opinion.
What jumps out is the Moon in Pisces, all those 8th house planets,
Mercury in 12th, and Capricorn ASC/Sun.
10th house ruler is traditionally Mars, and he happens to
be in his Fall sign, weakened to act.
Also Mars is opposite Saturn(chart ruler)...I think
you are your own worst enemy here, no offense!
Saturn hard aspect to Mercury(your mind), so
worry/sad thoughts come easier to you.
I too have lots of Neptune influence so I understand.
I bet you have alot of creative talents you keep hidden,
somethings you love but don't think is "good enough,nobody will like, or won't
Wilson is right too.....Go to the 2nd House stuff, creating/giving
tangible gifts/talents with a unique flair.