I have been in a serious funk since my partner and I parted ways last september. I must admit each day gets a little better accept I find myself going to this place of anger, suspicion, jealousy of everyone. It is a plutonian flash and I am afraid in one of those moments I will say something to him I will regret later in my life.
I want to be able to move on with my life and maybe meet someone new but I don't know where to start and feel afraid of being hurt again.
I have not been able to be attracted to any men yet. I can not look at a man with out suspicion, fear and insecurity.
I see that a development of a different attitude would be a weapon against my volatile emotions and fear but I don't know what attitude to develop.
What attitude would be good to cultivate to bring love in my life again?
I pulled up this chart.
Well bad news is all fixed signs on the angles. This is not a portend of change.
Mars rules the first and is visible in the 10th. It is strong in its own face and term. It is in the suns house. The sun is in mars face..I am not sure what this means.
The sun rules the 10th house. The 10th is the 4th from the 7th thus the end of the matter of partnerships and relationships. The sun is very weak and peregrine.
Mars is two degrees from the cusp of this house. Mars in a way is thinking of self and the end of relationships...would that be correct?
Now moon rules 9th house of philosophy and dreams and visions. I thought about using this as attitude is a development of an inner philosophy on a more practical level.
The moon is in the fourth house of the end of the matter.
The moon is in mutual reception and applying trine to venus and the ascendant so I think this is a good sign that 'astrology' is trying to tell me something
Moon, ruler of my 9th, is separating from a challenging aspect to the sun in the 7th and moves to trine the peregrine venus. With mutual reception there is a way out. Venus rules 7th and 12th of self-undoing.
Venus is close to the cusp of the 9th in cancer...nurturing?
Okay this is where I am kind of getting lost.
I can not seem to pull this together after this.
Any one with two cents to throw in?
I am not even sure I can ask this kind of horary but Dr. Farr gave me notion that I can by some of the things I read. Can I Dr. Farr?
I do feel like I need some way out of my emotional issue.