Originally Posted by Arian Maverick
Yet lately I have felt troubled with my natal chart and have been casting alternative charts for several different time slots in attempt to discover why I chose to enter the planet with my specific energies.
I have gone through this experience. On my chart, Uranus -- which of course, I feel is a perfect planet -- touches almost every other planet on my chart by sextile, square, trine or opposition -- all, but for my Sun.
Why not my Sun? Wouldn't I have been more wonderful, if only Uranus had touched my Sun?
But, in the end, I decided that if I had had this much Uranus energy, I probably would have just been too much of myself (as if I were not, sometimes, already!). Perhaps I would have been mentally retarded, or maybe I would have only lived a short time -- been suicidal or physically handicapped in some way.
I think we don't "get" the charts we get in order to give us "perfectness," we get them for reasons possibly beyond our comprehension. We will learn from them what we are able to learn, and, if we work hard, perhaps just a little more than this. And, if we're lucky, we are able to have a little fun, besides!
And, it's probably lucky for the people around us that we are not more "us" than we already are...