HELP tPL conj nSun O tMars conj nUranius 0* or

[benno]

Hello all,
I just came upon this forum the other day while trying to find some info about the current aspects affecting my natal chart. tPL conj nSun in opposition to tMars conj nUranius 0* orb, I believe. This aspect has been making my head spin for what seems to be years now and it does not look like it will be easing up any time soon, it only seems to be getting more intense. My personal life could not be more loving and harmonious. It is the reality of daily life and the interactions with the people and situations that seems to suffer from not being able to determine what is fact and what is fantasy. When I awake I continue to feel as though I am in a dream state for the rest of the day. I am always on guard that I do not attract harm or aggression by either a glance or a misinterpreted word or statement (I have encountered anger, aggression and even violence a number of times in the past seversl years for no apparent reason even in the company of friends and they are as baffled as I). Also, when speaking with almost anyone I not only hear their words I feel the emotion behind them for the good and the bad. I don't really want to feel or see these things in others. it feels as though I am intruding on what should be the privacy of the soul and would like to have just normal dialogue with people.
Can anyone tell me or give me some idea as to when this might begin to even out in my chart or what I might do to make this more positive for me and everyone concerned. I feel as though I am falling down a well and cant see the bottom yet . benno

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[Frisiangal]

Hi,
I'm of the same Uranus in Gemini generation as yourself and I have noticed that it's this age group that first seriously explored independent thought, and got into the alternative thinking sectors and, literally, saw things in different ways. We are not argumentative but have out-of-the-ordinary ideas that are considered 'way out' by our peers or 'cranky' by our children. You have Uranus in the Aquarius decanate of Gemini, which could make you especially highly strung or rather nervy, yet very intuitive regarding what is going on directly around you. Add a Sag. Sun with its thirst for knowledge, knowing what's going on, and passing on what it believes to be true, and you may come across as a sort of oracle to the less initiated who are not interested in hearing/listening to your specialised brand of wisdom because it is not their own.
With tr. Mars in Gemini, disagreements of opinions and ideas are generally more highlighted than at other times, and with a conjunction to Uranus and opposition to Sun, things could become extremely intensified whilst the aspect is in orb. You could literally blow a socket or be the receiver from one who blows theirs!
I was unable to get your chart image but, from what you wrote, it sounds as if you may also have a strong water and/or Neptune element that makes you very sensitive to your environment. A problem with water is that it gets into and envelops every nook and cranny ....also of people. It takes up all the free space, leaving it difficult for the people concerned to find and inhabit theirs independently. Sometimes the water must recede to allow people a breathing space to do their own thing.

Transiting Pluto to Sun means a complete change from an old way of life that has outlived its purpose, to a totally new experience of life that is the next step. The transition needs time to get used to, so the change is gradual and spread over a number of years so that, by the time it has happened, it isn't as scarey as one might have anticipated it to be. The house in which the natal Sun is placed is the realm that undergoes the transition and one evolves as a completely different person within it.
Maybe you are in the process of changing, not to convince or be like other people, but to be true to yourself?

F.