the news is NOT something he should watch.He may be highly susceptable to negative happenings in the world and internalize them.
He loves listening to the news and the political "cartoons" (as he calls them) on Sunday mornings. He lives in a large city with a lot of crime all around him and he talks of wanting to get out of there, but his depression seems to keep him "locked" in a place he doesn't want to be. Both literally and figuratively.
Overcoming this is almost like a life or death situation. Does he ever speak of suicide? There is the potential for it but also the potential for great transformation which must take place for him and there is help(chiron) , it can definitely be achieved.I believe, being Capricorn myself , that he may feel too much responsibility to be able to commit suicide however owing himself the path of healing however painful it may be.
The fact that he is so depressed does scare me and I've talked to him about suicide. He swears that he is not suicidal... that it's something he would never do, because it goes against something that he is (normally) so strongly for... His profession (when he is working) is an RN. He tells me that it's his job to heal and he's seen too many botched suicide attempts to attempt it himself. (I suppose that's a good thing.) He takes on an almost animated quality when he speaks about his profession and when he's doing what he's good at.
Venus in the second, creative and possibly values tied in with how much money he makes. I for one feel worthless if I am not making any money, I know its not right but its ingrained in me.(All that Cap +Moon Nep in 2nd in Scorp) venus in the second can be money coming through creativity, beauty, music or art or love of these things.
He's been off of work since October last year. Nurses are a high demand profession and living very near several large hospitals, and him having good work ethics and having a high GPA when he was in class, would make it easy for him to obtain a job. However, I feel like he's just "afraid" to go out there and get a job. So, this latest spiral downward has happened at a time when he is jobless, and feels no great sense of "belonging" or any self-worth.
His hobby is to play his guitar. Music is soothing to him. He wants to some day work on guitars, build them, fix them, etc. He could sit and play the guitar for hours upon hours. He likes to take them apart and find out what makes them work, and put them back together again.
might indicate that his path is to express himself in a witty yet unattached manner, possibly creative writing where the characters act out aspects of him coming to some sort of resolve, indirectly confronting his 12th house merc
How interesting!!! I met him while we were all playing an online game called EverQuest. A group of us met nightly online and took on the persona of our characters. He was able to express himself through his character. Making us all laugh, and being so fun to be around. Everyone just loves him in game. He's said more than once that his character is an extension of him. So, his character does help him act out aspects of himself. Lately, we've grown bored with the game and have not played as much as we were.
hes best in one on one situations, although he might find an individual through the group scene that can be a great source of inspiration and help (nep trine Chiron)but he must be careful not to idealise this and thus be again dissappointed. A sense of dettachement needs to be learned. Moon in the 7th his partnerships go through contiuous changes/ phases
We met in a group scene, through the game. We started just spending time together in game. Then he got my phone number and started calling me. Slowly at first.
He's really opened up to me over the last year. He's told me that I know more about him than almost anyone else does. He knows how I feel about him and has repeatedly told me he has no idea what I see in him. He describes himself as being "broken." (Because of his depression.) He has been married one time. She left him for another man. She shattered his world and he has remained alone for 16 years. I know that the "well" side of him would come be with me in a heartbeat. It's the "not-well" side that keeps him in his apartment somewhere in the middle of St. Louis. 4 and a half hours south of me.
Of course, the Pisces in me wants to help him. Not so much to fix him but to be there for him. When he disappears, it's very hard for me to not take it personally. He's asked me to please not take it personally. That I'm what has kept him going this last year. Even his friends that live near him have commented that over the last year, he'd been getting so much better. That before, it was nothing for him to not only "disappear" for days, but months.
Ok, this is a lot longer than I intended... but thank you Robyn for your insightful and quite accurate picture of Andy.
And Frisiangel thank you also for your post. You are both so good at this.
Lori