i thank each of you for your interpretations, as they are perspectives i do not have myself, eg. i don't think much about gemini as i tend to focus more on venus hehe
my practice of astrology is of course very simplified, not only by paucity of practice but because i tend to "miniaturise.." (the way teilhard de chardin says "simplify").
stomach problems, not noticeably. i can see "nerves" but there are other issues that have perhaps detoured such manifestations.
i'll do that "synopsis" now, for feedback, i think you'll see how your interpretations fit, though, of course, you probably have other insight into my character by now -
i suppose my wide houses are due to birth in tasmania. lived there for two months.. next around the world twice. american father welsh mother, 5 years in wales..
..good family. my childhood was absolutely the most fortunate possible, no trappings of wealth, my mother's parents were reasonably well, though my grandfather's father was a relatively wealthy, landed (but not titled) man, so diminishing fortunes from there. i like to note that the intellectual tradition i received in childhood was to be treated gently and respectfully, never subjugated, and never *informed* so that thinking for myself has always been absolutely innate.. i've never had to conflict my internal reasonings with an external imposition. that's why i say, good family.
the polycultural nature of my parentage is reflected in my outlook and in experiential conflict - we moved to the u.s. in 1980 (age 10) shortly after being bombed in london by the ira. a year or so before this, i was haplessly involved in a violent accident resulting in the death of a young girl, which cast a strong and dark shadow. both of these events, and moving to the united states, brought out my aquarian problem solving sensibilities. that disconnected, "objectivity-seeking" "cold" intellectual utter application to prevent needless deaths.
in the u.s. i was placed in "gifted" education which placed me with the cultural elites in tucson.. i used to sit one over from gabby giffords in a.p. history. and.. "gifted" education, being a supportive, cooperative environment, much like socialist 1970's u.k., left me unprepared for the competitive nature of american society.
i dropped out of university (architecture, because: clueless.. the downside to being left to my own discretisations, but a relatively short period.. trying to integrate with a culture which really, has significant intellectual deficit
) to live at arcosanti, and soleri's hypothetical 3d community became my "alma mater", ..heightening my futurist, aquarian, uranian idealism to rare extreme, because "i've lived in the future and i'm here to tell you all about it". eventually shedding the conventional, teenage personality, i devoted myself to cultural advocacy via memetic synergism.. a "memetic engineer".
in my 20's i spent a lot of time alone, after a brief, "social, performance art" phase, on the foundations of later achievements. here i got blindsided - i had a long running "covert" relationship with the daughter of a mexican mafia boss. i didn't know what i was doing, because i still thought i was in my high school for gifted kids where everyone in society works together.. she had a critical car accident and the second dark shadow was cast on my life. eg., ten years to the day after her car crash, i came home to find the doors ripped off of my house, my studio being used in the house across the street, an unresponsive police force.. this followed months of intense psychological harassment which has continued since, and followed me, even during an attempt to evade it by living in a tent in australia for ten months. covert harassment, social maginalisation eg. "libel" "mobbing" "organised stalking" plus witchcraft, none of which is intended to kill me, but to prolong the torture and make me experience year after year of inexplicable suffering. this has of course impacted all of my contributions ot society, because any "success" for these would translate to personal success, and i am not allowed to experience enjoyment.
anyway, enough of that -
before everyone had a computer, my analysis was that music was more or less the "memetic headwaters" with the most influence on how society acts and behaves. once upon a time to make music required musical skill
or thousands of dollars worth of equipment. i tried to democratise the process. music software was my great opportunity.. initially it cost almost as much as a hardware synthesizer for software, until a bunch of good guys (eg. me
) made tons and tons of music freeware, which made the commercial companies bring their prices down..
..suddenly, anyone could make music whether they wer rich or not, as long as they had a computer.. so that the music people heard didn't only come from rich people.. people enabled by financial control..
..this also cast a shadow, as it p*ssed people off to find someone giving away a product for free when they had been making a lot of money off of it.. and.. the "public" at the time were listening to what punks like me had to say.. we had a *soapbox*
of course, the inevitable story is that, nowadays, music is cheaper than chips and culturally valueless, the plutocrats control enough social venues that ideologically diverse music no longer has any cultural relevancy or impact.. and i would spend the next decade getting the **** beat out of me by the cryptocracy, which isn't as pleasant as it sounds.
the "12th house" side of this is that, when the hidden forces in society reveal themselves to you, many considerations about society, and then life, become more apparent, transparent.. which is where that north node in pisces shows up... cue joni mitchell, "both sides now".
most of my chart placements make a lot of sense with this basic synopsis.. aquarian cultural advocate.. mars at the inception of aries.. it takes a lot of strength to go against all of society.. of course, when you know why, there is no choice and one's energy is limitless.
mercury.. i never think about mercury much because intelligence is de facto.. everything is intelligent, all course of action are implicit given context, any contrast in "intelligence" is simply due to debility of imposition, which i've been free from, relatively. i'm not australian or welsh or english or american, i'm not anyone's anyone. no one relates to a person who says they are being covertly harassed by secret groups, so for years i have been wholly autonomous.
these struggles evinced my jupiter-saturn opposition. and my first house pluto the starkness of my vital course. neptune and uranus, clear..
i only recently understood that my ascendant moon is my *changing* face, that others only see me "in the context the encounter" and not as the whole being..
venus cazimi because it takes some affinity to produce things that people like (software tools). my software is all a bunch of crud, becuase artifice is all crud really.. so little of it these days holds any sentiment, it's all glitter.. i distinguished myself by availing some of the more obscure dsp processes. i went overboard on exploration, i am to date the only person who has made software that makes songs and sings words to them at the push of a button (it *****, but i've developed the various components in several improved forms).
at one time, i held an ambition to subvert memetic control in culture by releasing an engine that would make *decent* songs, so people would listen to that instead of the radio.. but then i got hit by 10 years of cryptocracy and it became difficult to do much. by 2009, when i fled to australia, my "conventional life" was consumed. when i returned to the u.s. in 2010 it was because i knew the game was up, that any attempt to influence culture would be "managed" and a pointless exercise, so i've been making peace with the world for a long time. i went back to live iwht my mother and appreciate the one unbreakable relation in my life. because they couldn't break that, last year they broke my mother. i've confronted the end of my life starkly since then. i've dragged my possessions out into the desert to live in a canyon. i've been hunted and shot at.
*wrapping this up* "the world could end at any moment" (they say) (it won't.. they just want to weaken people with fear..) as discussed elsewhere, eg. i had some overtly tangible demonic manifestation in dsp. spent more time with demons than with humans for a while. who can relate to that? it's not really worth saying, but this all began back in 2005 when they began to lean on me heavily, i've experienced so many "incredible things" that no one will believe that i have to be reminded of them, pick a category. it's like that scene in "life of brian" where he's catapulted into the air and lands in the ufo, except that part of the movie goes on for ten, eleven years.
i see i have some jupiter transits coming up this fall, and some other "outer planets" for the next year or so, so i'm sure life will continue to be "engaging", and i'm never sure what turns it will take next. it was over ten years ago i put my face in my hands and said "after all this, no one will believe anything.." then i looked up and saw something even more unbelievable.. ..and since then, i've gone on to record not one but two hardcore rap albums with demons. no one does that.. gilgamesh didn't do that. flash gordon didn't do that. so, every day in my life, is unprecedented, and that has been my experience for a long time. it would be much simpler if i could say, it is due to drugs, but i'm a polite, educated, sensible and civilly minded person who only had to learn some martial arts because of these crazy people in tucson. the things i found out other people do, we didn't do when i was in school. and i'm glad part of my fancy cultured upbringing involved the use of a sword. never separate such things from academia.
like candide says in "voltaire," i prefer just to stay home and do the garden.
