Lol, we can give a new name to this forum - the Forever single club.
I am a passionate lover to ... fictional characters.
I can add to the reasons for being single Saturn in the fifth house. I have Saturn in Aquarius in the fifth hs and I personally find it the biggest challenge in my natal chart. I am trying to be nice, to be spontaneous, to have fun like people do. I like fun, I have Mars/Venus/Jupiter in Leo and I really want to unleash them but no matter what I do it's just not happening. Saturn is not actually opposing my Mars and Venus but there is no need to do so, because it already controls them.
I keep talking to myself about the things I should change in order to become more appealing person. I dig and I dig and I dig and I know a lot about what has to be done. Perhaps I shouldn't be that picky and perhaps I shouldn't search for someone who wnats to take seriousy our relationship since the beginning. Perhaps I am searching for someone who doesn't exist of even if there is such person, the chances are I won't find him. I decide change all of it but then Saturn comes to give his oppinion which is:
Saturn is conservative by nature, but when it's in fixed sign and in fixed house ... is a nightmare.
I just can't make myself like someone who doesn't have the needed qualities. Yeah, I appriciate people are different and I know they are not list of traits and that phylosophy works on friendships now (a while ago it didn't), but I just feel I don't need someone who is not the image I am seeking.
I have Moon conjcuct Neptune and at the same time they apply quincunxes to Venus and Mars - so yeah, I am caught up in a dream. In some very deep level I am a romantic soul and at some point I fall in love with someone. They can be fictional characters or they can be real people. But when they are real people they are like fictional characters - there is nothing in common between the person and the image in my head.
When I fall in love, I push really hard, pehaps I am tedious but when all that fire passion comes unleashed people better hide somewhere. In the end I am always rejected and at the present moment I am hurt so much about all I've been trough that I just hope I will never fall in love again. I don't want relationships with some people just because I am supposed to be in a relationship or because that makes you learn things you need in life. So when Neptune doesn't mess up things I really live my life very happy.