Mars Square Saturn. This aspect makes me suffer. Too often I feel it in my blood and in my bones. I've worked through other squares in my chart, but the negative impact of this one persists. I have dealt with the temper issues easily, but my problems with the aspect are more troublesome than just a bad temper, which (it seems that it would be obvious to all MarsSqSat folks, but whether it has occurred to you may depend on your chart) can be reigned in through daily physical exercise.
How have others experienced this aspect? Your war stories may help me see how to resolve it using my chart.
For my part, if for a given period I'm having great sex and making great art, I'm often in need of something to reign in my drug use and just generally straighten me out for the future. Then eventually Saturn comes into play, which I can understand, and am in fact grateful for. The problem is, after that straightening-out period, my artistic endeavors seem frustrated and my love life cooled. Mars is kicking, but he feels tied down, and when he is let loose, he behaves poorly, and I can't meet my standards of sex or artistic production. Then I am ungrateful and indeed deeply unhappy. I become a perfectionist. This imbalance makes me see my substantial successes in both areas as worthless and unstable, nothing to build on. I feel hot-blooded and caged-in at the same time. Then I have no clue how or why I slide back into sex, drugs and rock-and-roll mode, and when I do, even though I'm productive, I'm never sure if it's where I want to be, always worried that I'll burn myself out, that other artists lose their talent because of their appetite for destruction. But of course I love destruction. . . How does one balance Mars and Saturn, to get them operating together? What is it like to have soft aspects between Mars and Saturn? What is it like for those of you who are practicing artists and/or avid lovers with this aspect?
I'd rather not post my whole chart so hopefully we can talk about this on a general level. . . but if it's vital to a good suggestion, I'll post it. . .
Anyway, this is what seems relevant to me personally: I have Mars in 12th house Pisces square Saturn in 8th house Sagittarius; Mars is conjunct Jupiter in Pisces, and trine both Venus and Pluto in Scorp; Saturn is conjunct Uranus and Mercury both in Sag, Mercury also squares Mars and Jupiter, but those aspects for whatever reason have been comparatively easy to deal with. . . But I'm more interested in your experiences. . .
How have others experienced this aspect? Your war stories may help me see how to resolve it using my chart.
For my part, if for a given period I'm having great sex and making great art, I'm often in need of something to reign in my drug use and just generally straighten me out for the future. Then eventually Saturn comes into play, which I can understand, and am in fact grateful for. The problem is, after that straightening-out period, my artistic endeavors seem frustrated and my love life cooled. Mars is kicking, but he feels tied down, and when he is let loose, he behaves poorly, and I can't meet my standards of sex or artistic production. Then I am ungrateful and indeed deeply unhappy. I become a perfectionist. This imbalance makes me see my substantial successes in both areas as worthless and unstable, nothing to build on. I feel hot-blooded and caged-in at the same time. Then I have no clue how or why I slide back into sex, drugs and rock-and-roll mode, and when I do, even though I'm productive, I'm never sure if it's where I want to be, always worried that I'll burn myself out, that other artists lose their talent because of their appetite for destruction. But of course I love destruction. . . How does one balance Mars and Saturn, to get them operating together? What is it like to have soft aspects between Mars and Saturn? What is it like for those of you who are practicing artists and/or avid lovers with this aspect?
I'd rather not post my whole chart so hopefully we can talk about this on a general level. . . but if it's vital to a good suggestion, I'll post it. . .
Anyway, this is what seems relevant to me personally: I have Mars in 12th house Pisces square Saturn in 8th house Sagittarius; Mars is conjunct Jupiter in Pisces, and trine both Venus and Pluto in Scorp; Saturn is conjunct Uranus and Mercury both in Sag, Mercury also squares Mars and Jupiter, but those aspects for whatever reason have been comparatively easy to deal with. . . But I'm more interested in your experiences. . .