Ok... House 1 and House 12 are too confusing for me to interpret...
Really, it's that North/True Node thing that I don't understand.
Anyway, I'm constantly in a state of spiritual confusion. Could this be because I have Neptune in House 12? But... wouldn't Saturn also in House 12 kinda... nullify the effect of Neptune?
Just a sidenote... my religius beliefs change like every few weeks... And every now and then, I'm an absolute atheist. Could this be because my Aquarius rising is conflicting with Sun in Pisces? Some days I'm Catholic, some I'm just "spiritual," sometimes I'm just Christian, sometimes I'm atheist, and sometimes, I tend to place my entire fate in the stars (and to make it even worse, I sometimes think that the stars are a giant clock that God set up for us, so I place my fate in God's hands, but seen through the stars...) Yea... one giant spiritual mess.
And Mercury is exaclty conjuncting my Ascendant... what does this mean? Could it have any spiritual meaning? Is this House 1 or 12?
But what I really don't understand... is my North Node. I hear this means your future? Or, a quest or something that you need to overcome in your life?
I'm always searching for "myself." I really have no way to define who I am... after highschool, I'd like to save up money and travel the world on a spiritual journey and discover who I am... you know, visit Jerusalem, Rome, Paris... the southwestern US.... I'm just really confused with myself and what I believe...
Is this the effect of the North Node in my first House? Or... are my House 1's Venus and Sun getting the best of me?
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I really was just confused with all this... and currently, I'm at another spritual crossroad... but I thought I'd see what astrology had to say, becauseI really have NO idea what I believe anymore :shock: