Holy Trinity
Ascendant: Cancer
Sun: Sagittarius
Moon: Gemini
Ruling Planet
Moon in Gemini 11th House
Angular Planets
Jupiter, Pluto
Elements
Fire:4 Air:4 Earth :2 Water:2
Quadruplicities
Cardinal:4 Mutable:6 Fixed 2
Hemispheres
Northern Hemisphere: 8 Planets
Southern Hemisphere: 2 Planets
Eastern Hemisphere: 4 Planets
Western Hemisphere: 6 Planets
Most Planets in 2nd Quadrant
Lunar Nodes
South Node: Capricorn 7th House
North Node: Cancer 1st House
I loved this paragraph. How did you get all of that? Is that a summary that you have written for majority fire/air/mutable? I felt that this paragraph in particular sums up the way I 'work' when in a positive frame of mind (Which is mostly ). To provide you with some 'objective' assessment, I can say that I am called charming by people who know me well. The charm ain't always 'switched on'. I need to have had enough time alone and to feel comfortable. When I am content, this is how I behave.Your a warm magnetic person and you like to spark in all all different directions. A natural communicator, very lively and chatty you are brimming with ideas. You like to hover above the ground, sometimes watching what is going on static and observant but more often than not flitting from one thing to another as the wind moves you in ever changing directions. Your mind is highly inventive and you have a refreshing nature with an easy going personality.
Impractical. As in, I lose my wallet at least three times a year, manage my bank balance on the 'feeling' of whether money is accumulating, have an elastic sense of time and need a diary in order to operate on any functional level? Yes, indeed, impracticality is something that I am learning to compensate for I have a personal fear of being proven incapable.Looking at your chart and it's low water element, I wouldn't personally say you lacked emotions because Neptune is on your Sun making you highly responsive and sensitive to the world around you. You may be impractical, and have a poor sense of your material needs, it would help you to develop some grounding and a practical nature
You're a mutable too, so you're familiar with the nature of this To provide an example; mutable for me is having learned to approach life in sixth month chunks, that is as far ahead as I am comfortable laying 'solid' plans. I prepare at least 3 options (A,B and C) and jump 'on board' with the most appealing plan at the last possible moment, when circumstances necessitate a decision. Non-mutable people may find this unusual, but I actually feel 'safe' if I have several potential paths wide open. Coming from a family full of Taureans, Cancerians and Virgos, this has always freaked my family right outYour very changeable and can adapt yourself to different situations, you may find yourself being pulled in several directions at the same time. With all your enthusiasm you can be quite happy indulging in different activities. You love to explore and your always seeking adventure and excitement to spice up your life
Yep, all the mutable words appeal to me. Learn, change, move, travel, try, etc. Words like 'decide' and 'authoritative' are the ones I struggle more with...On the other hand, it makes it very easy for me to live in different settings, and with little in the way of resources. I was far less stressed by living in Korea than many of the other teachers I met (I packed lighter too).Your very changeable and can adapt yourself to different situations, you may find yourself being pulled in several directions at the same time. With all your enthusiasm you can be quite happy indulging in different activities. You love to explore and your always seeking adventure and excitement to spice up your life
Ahhh, and here comes the crunch. Hard to stand my ground. Yes, socially I find it far easier just to 'adapt'. Eventually I get tired of being with people, for this reason. I can't always just 'be'. When younger, I had an intimate best friend who would underwrite my emotions, decisions and actions. It feels comfortable going with another person's flow, if I feel that I'm being cared for. I can relax into my inner world. I have since recognised, and ended the dynamic of 'fusion' with other people. It stunts me, I start to feel personally incapable.You may lack persistence and can find it hard to stand your ground. You need to determine your convictions and stand by them. Build your own sense of values and foundation and trust them, do not let yourself or anyone else compromise them.
You've picked up on something interesting. People who know me as an acquaintance insist that I am an extrovert. I love people, and I guess that shows, but according to me, I am an introvert. My inner world is where I live, it's where I 'take' all of the interactive input from people, replay it, understand it, digest it. (Chronic, chronic incurable daydreamer ) . I need time alone every day to 'daydream' my way to sanity and personal balance.You have a very strong identification with your inner world or private arena. This is where you feel life happens for you. You desire social outlets and one-to-one communication. Work, play, and creativity are important aspects of your development, but you can be dependent on others for your personal satisfaction
At the moment I am going round the world in my reading just to try and come back to some conclusion
Well, that's very generous of you! Hope I can live up to that title. I think you've described my Sun and all its aspects very well, perhaps with more integral clarity that I've ever been able to do. (An outsider's opinion certainly helps!).P.S Your chart I am calling the "philosophical visionary dreamer"
Gut reaction is this: how can you discuss them without experiencing them?? How does one avoid having, or experiencing feelings? Maybe my confusion at this statement indicates that I do avoid "feeling", but how on earth would I know?? Surely thinking, writing and speaking can be an outlet for emotions, rather than a substitute?You prefer discussing feelings to actually experiencing them
Mmm. This soul with the Gemini moon has learned to pay much attention to emotions, but more due to having been "blindsided" by them before, and being fascinated, than distrust. I've certainly been "surprised" by my own emotions before (like, where the hell did that come from?) I am actually learning to trust emotions more, but that's probably related to my north node Cancer.the soul with the Moon in Gemini has learned not to trust emotions
See, this is the part I hate to read. I hate the idea that I might be, basically, a shallow person, incapable of sensing and responding to others' feelings. Yuk. The reason I hate it so much is because I can think of instances where it has been true. I can remember the overwhelming urge to run free when I broke up with by boyfriend, I can remember not wanting to pause to be kind, and finding his emotional need for me exceptionally uncomfortable. We've been through a lot since then, (this is the one who I am very close to), and in many ways I have had to pay big penance. The other reason I hate reading that is because I feel afraid that I really won't, or don't, commit to people. What if I end my future relationships in the same wild bid for freedom? I don't want to end up shallow and alone!! I know I don't have to, but it is clearly a fear. I know that I'm gemini-ish in nature, changeable, cerebral and love to talk. But, "substitute talking for emotional satisfaction?". I would absolutely hate to believe that I am incapable of real intimacy. Ugh, what an ugly, frightening thought.commitment is difficult and the intimacy of truly sharing deep feelings is rare (and) This sign seeks mental stimulation and can believe that holding a conversation is being intimate. But confront the Gemini Moon with real feelings, and the tendency is to slip away. If Gemini can't run, then he or she resorts to verbalizing their feelings out of existence.
Now, about the moon. I've had a strong reaction to what you wrote. This is good - it means you've 'touched' a sensitive area. If your reading for the moon didn't hold truth, I would recognise this, and say so. Instead, it felt somewhat harsh, and I wanted to prove it wrong . Please note - this doesn't mean that it IS "wrong". My reaction means that your interpretation is saying something valid. I'm trying to figure out exactly how it is valid, and having trouble.
Ok, in overview: yes I do think about my feelings. I assumed that everybody did, to a degree. It appears that I do it more than most. Take the above paragraph as an example. I had a feeling response to what you wrote, and I immediately dissected and summarised what that feeling response meant, and put it into words for you. It wasn't difficult, I do that for myself all the time. Once I can 'describe' an emotion, a sensation, a feeling, I feel that I can understand it, grasp it's implications, and do something about it, if need be. It seems to me that feelings, sensations and responses are best 'brought' from the unconscious, and scribed onto paper or spoken, if I can do so. It frustrates me to leave them as pure sensation, because then they are unconscious "drivers", like dream fragments. I don't understand what the hell I am doing if I can't "grasp" what is unconsciously driving me . Does that make sense, or have I just perfectly displayed my own Gemini-moon-ness? Dammit, I didn't think I was so different from anyone else!!
I guess gemini moon is a large part of why I have a suitcase full of journals, which I have been consistently accumulating since the age of ten. I can't stop writing. I write more when my life is painful and I don't understand why (typical tortured artist! I can't produce if I am happy). If I am very comfortable and content, I write less. The upflow of sensations to understand reduces. I'm not so concerned with "grasping" the happy feelings, much more content just to go with them.
What I reacted to in your interpretation of the gemini moon was this:
Gut reaction is this: how can you discuss them without experiencing them?? How does one avoid having, or experiencing feelings? Maybe my confusion at this statement indicates that I do avoid "feeling", but how on earth would I know?? Surely thinking, writing and speaking can be an outlet for emotions, rather than a substitute?
Mmm. This soul with the Gemini moon has learned to pay much attention to emotions, but more due to having been "blindsided" by them before, and being fascinated, than distrust. I've certainly been "surprised" by my own emotions before (like, where the hell did that come from?) I am actually learning to trust emotions more, but that's probably related to my north node Cancer.
See, this is the part I hate to read. I hate the idea that I might be, basically, a shallow person, incapable of sensing and responding to others' feelings. Yuk. The reason I hate it so much is because I can think of instances where it has been true. I can remember the overwhelming urge to run free when I broke up with by boyfriend, I can remember not wanting to pause to be kind, and finding his emotional need for me exceptionally uncomfortable. We've been through a lot since then, (this is the one who I am very close to), and in many ways I have had to pay big penance.
The other reason I hate reading that is because I feel afraid that I really won't, or don't, commit to people. What if I end my future relationships in the same wild bid for freedom? I don't want to end up shallow and alone!! I know I don't have to, but it is clearly a fear. I know that I'm gemini-ish in nature, changeable, cerebral and love to talk. But, "substitute talking for emotional satisfaction?". I would absolutely hate to believe that I am incapable of real intimacy. Ugh, what an ugly, frightening thought.
As for the idea of being afraid of being 'overwhelmed' by emotions....This reflects all the huge, wild water dreams that I have , the tsunamis, the fish, the ocean. It is true. To some degree I am awed and amazed by the unlimited capacity for emotion. Emotions have quite seriously knocked me on my ass a few times, complete melt-down, loss of self. and at the time, I wished for a "mute" switch, or at least a "dimmer" switch. I wished I could put feelings to one side, or ration them out evenly into manageable portions, some for this week, some for next week. What confuses me is, if I were so able to "rationalise" my feelings out of existence, why have I been so hopelessly cast adrift these few times?
I am having an intimacy crisis. Am I really a surface level kind of person? Are the things I call intimacy really not intimate according to the people that I share them with? That is an awful question to have to face. How would I ever know?
Your life force, your ego is about to disappear from view for the night. This symbolizes a situation in which it will take some time before you are recognized for what you are - by yourself, as well as others. As you also possess a strong sense of how other's tick, and can identify with them quite easily, when you do eventually re-emerge, it might well be in a field that uses this talent - such as counselling or public relations. In the meantime, and off and on thereafter, you tend to imagine that everyone thinks like you do.
I can't believe you just nailed me with my own **** message!! (private joke)I can see how protective you are of your chart