Lissa said:
Believe it or not I spent luch time crying hysterically,tore my favourite t-shirt and threw my cell phone on the ground and now here I am,feeling completely fine and doing what I normally do on Friday afternoons.
I believe it.
Big giveaway: Mars/Saturn hitting your anlunar return, or maybe I should say your anlunar on a Mars/Saturn square. I suppose either way works
The anlunar return happens each month when the Moon returns to it's exact position at the last solar return. The last was July 31st 11:40:35 AM GMT (12:40:35PM local daylight time if I'm correct that portugal uses 0:00 time and uses DST).
Simply put, it shows how our emotions and feelings progress through the year in relation to the solar return chart. With your SR Moon in Aquarius, you are going to have sudden emotional shifts, although also insight into what's causing them. This gives you a chance, coupled with Saturn's transit to the SR Moon, to vividly experience and confront your emotional nature; by the next year you'll likely have gained significant balance and insight into your Moon's nature.
Regarding Mars-Saturn, if you have a look at the anlunar chart, you'll see the Moon at 26Aqu31 where it was at your SR, Mars at 25Tau33 and Saturn at 25Leo49, quite the tight fixed t-square. As your Sun and Moon were semisextile (30 degrees) in your solar return, the Mars-Saturn square is also aspecting your natal Sun, Saturn by inconjunct, Mars by sextile. This makes August a key month in the solar return cycle.
Mars-Saturn can be such a nasty pairing, neither planet not really that bad on their own, but very, very different concepts that really don't mesh well at all under dynamic aspects. Sure, if they can settle their differences, sustained and well-directed actions and successes can be had, but this sort of energy is way over the top of what sensitive Luna wants to feel. Especially by harsh aspects. I'm sure you have a fairly good idea of the concept here... If not, more on Mars-Saturn:
http://www.astrologyweekly.com/forum/showthread.php?t=5325
In the next week, Saturn will be applying it's opposition to your SR Moon, exact Monday August 6th. In the next week you really need to pay attention to what your Moon needs, and attend to any emotional imbalances you have. Saturn very well make them painfully obvious.
Although Saturn and Moon are synergistic in a way, ruling the Capricorn/Cancer axis, Saturn dynamic transits to the Moon can be quite trying if one has neglected their own needs. Saturn's intent is to balance, to work through things slowly and intently, and to reduce vibrational frequency so the base material of anything can be formed and worked with. Obviously depression is a potential here, but so is frustration if one has been blocked from properly attending to their own emotional/psychological needs. The frustration part this month is greatly amplified by the Mars-SRMoon square on the anlunar. Try to transmute Mars's energy from impatience and frustration to willful drive and motivation to get things accomplished, to work on your emotional needs. Physical exertion (within reasonable limits, of course) might help quite a bit, as Mars works better when the body isn't teeming with stagnant (and thus blocked) physical potential. In the same respect, physical activity is a natural antidote to Saturn's "drag you down" nature. Go for a jog... take a run with Mars and see what you might realize
The other risk is a painful feeling of separation from others, as if you've been cut off or cut out of emotional bonds with others around you. This is especially possibly with the SR Moon in self-individualistic yet socially-outreaching Aquarius. With Moon in Aquarius, one has the need to be an individual
of the collective; distinct yet integrated. This is opposite of Pisces nature to merge
with the collective. The semisextile between the Aquarian SR Moon and Piscean Sun might create some additional friction along this concept. Saturn's goal with this sort of disconnect is to push you to build up your own emotional structures, prodding you to build up a foundation from which you can more solidly interface emotionally with others. As usual for Saturn, he has good intentions but often uses difficult and painful means to the end.
Saturn also deals with the need for professional/career success, at your stage, mainly related to a commitment to school and education to such an end. Rob hand put it best, so I'll go ahead and quote him from his text on Saturn-opposition-Moon
You think of the Saturnine and Lunar aspects of your life as being in conflict. Consequently you neglect the one that you consider less important. Then, when unexpected new demands come from the other element, your whole sense of order is upset and disoriented
You have to learn that these two aspects of your life are neccessary to each other. You must make your personal life and your professional or other central purpose work together. That will require changing your lifestyle so that you can pay equal attention to both
Your anlunar shows Mercury bang on the MC in the Moon's sign Cancer with Libra rising; Ascendant Lord Venus is ill-placed Retrograde in Virgo, forming no aspects except an overly wide out-of-sign conjunction to Saturn and wide, out-of-sign opposition to the anlunar Moon, neither which I consider valid aspects for this sort of chart, and at best troublesome regardless. The at-home Leo Sun in the 10th house (career-ambition) is quintile Mars and Ascendant (thus MA/ASC=Sun). In short, your mind and career ambitions are strong-arming your emotions (Mercury "angle-powered" in Cancer, powerful Sun in career's house) throwing you out of balance (Libra the scales rising, ruler Venus RX and peregrine). Maybe you're spending too much time thinking or doing various Mercurial pursuits (too much studying?) to actually pay attention to your emotions and their needs? Pluto (excesses, fixations) in your 3rd anlunar house reinforces the concept, as does MA/UR=ME, showing the mind is running wild and directly affecting your emotions through it's Cancer placement, as well as Mercury's square to your natal Venus in your lunar return to the natal chart today August 3rd. The quintile/decile situation between Sun, Mars, and ASC/DSC axis show creative artistic pursuits (quintiles) is possibly way of energy redirection, supported by anlunar Moon in the 5th with Neptune on the anlunar 5th cusp if you use Koch houses as I do... Creative expression will evoke these energies in a positive manner and also put you in better touch with feeling rather than thinking. Whatever you do, some time to get into your emotional nature and feelings while taking a little break from grueling mental exertion is totally in order. You might run into Mars and Saturn along the way to your Moon, but dealing with these guys head-on and honestly is far better than forcing them to release their energies the hard way (blocked -> explodes)
Let me know if I've confused you or failed to make sense, I'm a bit pressed on time tonight so I've not gone over this text as much as I usually would, but wanted to make you aware of these considerations.
Hope your weekend goes better than your lunch!
