My Questions:
My Parents-Unfit to be Parents? Never seemed to show the value of Honesty!
I suffer from Childhood Influence.Women tried to give me a chance but I lose every one of them or I left them in fear of what I owe for their clemency and patience. Am I considered Selfish and uncompromising?
I want to know if My Parents were unfit to be parents in the first place?
It always seemed come out from my mother who manipulated scheme behind and destroyed my grandmother's life
My uncle I and my cousin are still suffering
Or is it me who has failed to learn life lessons before too late and handled the life all wrong?
I was born between parents who perceived that the love was like militaristic campaigns of feudal Samurai war lords and that everything had to have only bipolar ends. In another words, win or lose, nothing in between. It only helped me in maintaining high average grades in schools at the near top in most of classes, but did not help me anything else in the real world situations. I suffered with confusion and delusion all my life about anything concerns love. I was always looking for a place to hide where I can play "unheard" of what my parent trying to prove on me. I used one of my female cousin as protective shield for hiding my face between her thick long black hair until I started school at age 7. I was also placed to her house and lived with her between age 3 & 7 as a foster brother. since she was born 3 years ahead of me. At my age 4, she started school already and I sat in school playground every day waited her until she got out from her class. She was someone born very generous about love and friendship. Got up five o'clock and picked some flowers from the garden and on her way to school, visited the tomb of neighbours' daughter who fell into an abandoned old well and died few years ago. She also retained a millennium old image and style found in a typical Princess born to ancient Fujiwara clan in the Hei-An era of Kyoto, Japan as seen in old paintings. Noble yet approachable intimacy was always apparent but never arrogant in every way she carried herself out. She had six younger sisters but no brother. Just a week before death, our grand father 34th Duke of Kujo suggested that I should be adapted as a heir and marry my cousin at age 15. Her parents and We both were 100% for it, but my parents were utterly against it. I never have quite understood why. I moved near Yokohama into my sister's house where she vacated one room for me to stay whilst I was going to a college. I had a girlfriend from a US Naval Base. I told her that I was supposed to marry my cousin when I finish the college. this American lady criticised me about wanting to marry a blood-related cousin. It was considered normal for over a millennium of our family tradition. I spoke French and Swedish from early childhood since my father worked for the Ministry of Foreign Affairs of Japanese Government, I have had opportunities to visit Europe many times.
My motivation to go out with an American lady was simply to lean English language. Unfortunately the things did not just stay there. A boy child Daniel was born in next May and I was pressured to marry this American Girl and move to Oregon to find a job there. I replied that it was not possible to give up my cousin nor family heritage as old as the City of Kyoto itself. Our repeated disputation finally lead us to our separation by the end of third year. My cousin proposed us then and several times thereafter that she was willing to adapt Daniel and raise him as her son and take me back to Kyoto as if nothing had happened. What a clemency! I really did not believe that I deserved her love. My cousin has never married to the date hoping that we would be re-united together forever one day. She has spent almost all her adolescent years crying by the bosom of bronze statue of a lady Buddha Guanshi'Yin (Goddess of Clemency) resorting out the pain caused by my thoughtless behaviours. I had to painstakingly learn that the real world was not that forgiving. With a bad economy as it has been, nothing seems to catch up since 2007.
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My Parents-Unfit to be Parents? Never seemed to show the value of Honesty!
I suffer from Childhood Influence.Women tried to give me a chance but I lose every one of them or I left them in fear of what I owe for their clemency and patience. Am I considered Selfish and uncompromising?
I want to know if My Parents were unfit to be parents in the first place?
It always seemed come out from my mother who manipulated scheme behind and destroyed my grandmother's life
My uncle I and my cousin are still suffering
Or is it me who has failed to learn life lessons before too late and handled the life all wrong?
I was born between parents who perceived that the love was like militaristic campaigns of feudal Samurai war lords and that everything had to have only bipolar ends. In another words, win or lose, nothing in between. It only helped me in maintaining high average grades in schools at the near top in most of classes, but did not help me anything else in the real world situations. I suffered with confusion and delusion all my life about anything concerns love. I was always looking for a place to hide where I can play "unheard" of what my parent trying to prove on me. I used one of my female cousin as protective shield for hiding my face between her thick long black hair until I started school at age 7. I was also placed to her house and lived with her between age 3 & 7 as a foster brother. since she was born 3 years ahead of me. At my age 4, she started school already and I sat in school playground every day waited her until she got out from her class. She was someone born very generous about love and friendship. Got up five o'clock and picked some flowers from the garden and on her way to school, visited the tomb of neighbours' daughter who fell into an abandoned old well and died few years ago. She also retained a millennium old image and style found in a typical Princess born to ancient Fujiwara clan in the Hei-An era of Kyoto, Japan as seen in old paintings. Noble yet approachable intimacy was always apparent but never arrogant in every way she carried herself out. She had six younger sisters but no brother. Just a week before death, our grand father 34th Duke of Kujo suggested that I should be adapted as a heir and marry my cousin at age 15. Her parents and We both were 100% for it, but my parents were utterly against it. I never have quite understood why. I moved near Yokohama into my sister's house where she vacated one room for me to stay whilst I was going to a college. I had a girlfriend from a US Naval Base. I told her that I was supposed to marry my cousin when I finish the college. this American lady criticised me about wanting to marry a blood-related cousin. It was considered normal for over a millennium of our family tradition. I spoke French and Swedish from early childhood since my father worked for the Ministry of Foreign Affairs of Japanese Government, I have had opportunities to visit Europe many times.
My motivation to go out with an American lady was simply to lean English language. Unfortunately the things did not just stay there. A boy child Daniel was born in next May and I was pressured to marry this American Girl and move to Oregon to find a job there. I replied that it was not possible to give up my cousin nor family heritage as old as the City of Kyoto itself. Our repeated disputation finally lead us to our separation by the end of third year. My cousin proposed us then and several times thereafter that she was willing to adapt Daniel and raise him as her son and take me back to Kyoto as if nothing had happened. What a clemency! I really did not believe that I deserved her love. My cousin has never married to the date hoping that we would be re-united together forever one day. She has spent almost all her adolescent years crying by the bosom of bronze statue of a lady Buddha Guanshi'Yin (Goddess of Clemency) resorting out the pain caused by my thoughtless behaviours. I had to painstakingly learn that the real world was not that forgiving. With a bad economy as it has been, nothing seems to catch up since 2007.
[poster gave no astrological interpretation so moved to Greenhorns Lounge - Moderator]
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