beatnikgirl
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I have a small 5th house which means transits never stay very long in there, I also have only hard separating aspects from Pluto to Pallas and Mercury/Chiron Sesquiquadrate applying to Pallas which is the only thing I have in my 5th house. Is this the reason I have had problems finding partners willing to have children with me and then later health problems that have delayed me having children. I was born with a heart condition I had surgery as a child but this did mean I had to delay pregnancy.
I am desperate to become a mother, anyone who knows me knows how great i am with kids and doesn't understand why I'm still childless. My most recent work involves working with families and teachers as a Childrens/Educational Books Buyer and retail administrator.
I know using other house systems other than Placidus make things look healthier, but prediction wise I haven't found any other charts to be as accurate taking into consideration major events that have occurred in my life which fit better.
So is there any hope, I try to stay positive but the more charts I run the least likely this seems ever happening, it breaks my heart, I keep asking the universe to show me why an earth it would give me such a mothering instinct and deny opportunity to benefit in anyway myself is this some horrible karma thing.
Does anyone know any way of working through hard aspects so I might at least have the privilege of being an adoptive parent.
I'm an only child I only have my mother and granny as my existing biological relatives, my partner is also an only child so this adds even more to the misery of been a childless couple.
I see some difficult transits occurring ahead and I'm at my wits end to know how to keep going, we are hoping to proceed with an application for adoption but am I just in denial. Sometimes I hate astrology it used to offer me comfort and deeper understanding now all it seems me to do is add to my disappointment confirm the horrible fatalistic nature life.
I know the stars impel and do not compel but it seems some things are harder than others to ever overcome.