Juloa your words are fantastic.
I don't have the material conditions to create arts the way my potential could allow, but just with the most basic 'paint' software, i did a small piece today, and i am dedicating it to you.
If you look at the positive and negative traits of your Venus, you may have a clue as to how she is creating tension on your nodal axis.
Frankly, I don't know much about my Venus.
I had a BIG wake up call about her existence when Pluto first transited on her 2 years ago (Pluto is right back on her now again, but then Uranus was also squaring her), but it was then more about discovering the need for self-love, ---and also about sexual desire obsession, because of a f!!^*#!!g astrologer who took advantage of the situation with full awareness of the transit and of our powerful Mars/Venus synastry while i did not know. This however led me to intense study of astrology, and the crucial self-love adventure, with a lot to do still 2 years later (but I am on the right track and keep working)
it's very diffictul to understand her.
She is not the usual romantic Venus, nor indulging in material comfort, she is more ascetic. Possibly very repressed. I am not interested in investing in love affairs but most astrological hints one gets about Venus are about that only. Now I think, when it comes to being creative, ascetism in not really the virtue that makes the more sense... So she remains a puzzle. I have been digging a lot but found out nothing that helps me understand her. The only valuable thing is this issue of self-esteem, self-love, self-acceptance. it is a wonderful gift and there is no way for me to go ahead without paying close attention to this, but as a wider project related to arts, creativity or vocation, I am clueless.
By the way I just guided a group meditation, and because the students were subtly beating themselves for not being as great as they wish to be, i took time to discuss about this self-acceptance issue, from a very experiencial perspective on top of sharing all the data than I have lately gathered on how this is related to meditation. They said it was very important and were grateful. (Did you you know that traditional Buddhism knows nothing about lowself esteem?)
Back to artistic Venus, the only hint I gathered if that the art best skill could be about structure (becaus of Saturn). And it's true that when it comes to photography or plastic arts, I am very good and sharp on structure, proportions, order. So at least now I am aware that this is something I could explore more. But when it comes to actual artistic creation, there is a whole path of practice ahead, it's not the immediate bingo.
(ho ho ho, Saturn again interfering?)
If you look at the positive and negative traits of your Venus, you may have a clue as to how she is creating tension on your nodal axis.
I dont feel the tension, I feel she is just pulling me towards the Libra 11 house. I have been a secret people pleaser somehow. I love to make people happy, to find the way to get everybody on the same page. It was one of my job once.
Now back to art and this issue. I remember nearly 20 years ago, I was practicing contemproray danse quite intensively but as a hobby (whic i loved bit dropped in the name of...Saturn). One day at a workshop, my danse partner, who was a professional danser and teacher and one of my teacher in another danse class, had to observe me during a group impro and offer feed-back. She said I had great moment when i was really giving the whoel group impro an intensitity and could lead, but would never sustain what i was doing and would drop to adjust instead to others.
Too bad I gave up danse. I could have explored more of that. But uranus was then transiting my Aq Sun and I made a huge turn and went into something more spritual and... ascetic.
Saturn is a gift in that he is the way shower, and our Master Teacher. He points out the path of duty and destiny. The planets are gifts to us, to help us on our journey. They are not sent to punish us, but to teach us.
I trust you. I just don't see how he can help me release the intuition, the sensitivity, the spontaneity that I associate with artistic creation.
Is there another way?
Mm maybe. The hard work repeating again and again the same thing. That's not appealing to my Uranus leaning, but I now sense soemthing. Thinking about taichi, where repeating again and again, with full awareness of the body, is a great discipline I love, that might related to Capricorn Venus.
But that is not creative...
self-creative though?
Do not be afraid of Saturn.
by nature I am not afraid of saturn. I am a true Aquarian
. My Aq Sun makes no major aspect to anything and I suspect that explains my big respect for many Saturnian values, like seeking long lasting value and my profound dislike of selfishness and unablity to harm others deliberately (strong Pisces may help there too). But my late studies of astrology has shown to me that he has so far been repressive for Venus and Aries NN.
Also, I don;t know what that may inicate, but if i look at fixed stars, there are a bunch of nice stars towards the SN, and a few stars towards the NN and those latter are harsh!!!
Integrating the NN seems from that perspective to call for even more renunciation.
A 5h Saturn in Aries is indicating a karmic responsibility, and this becomes more apparent in later life.
What sort of karic responsaibility? I am lost.
Blocks center around self assertion and loss of self confidence. There may be feelings of inadequacy. There is a block on creativity, which will be released when you can value yourself and what you create. And when you can create in a confident and competent way.
This seem to make perfect sense as a reflction of my life, where I am now.
All of this echoes the themes of your nodal axis. When the natal chart repeats the same message over and over, it is important to pay attention.
I am trying to pay attention!!!
I am not too bad now at understanding the situation (save my Venus faces) and for this I can thank my Mercury nd mutable planets and points that are all over the place.
Taking action is far far more difficult... I guess I should take it all less seriously...
Saturn is a gift in that he is the way shower, and our Master Teacher. He points out the path of duty and destiny.
I have taken many spiritual committments....
by the way I also have a wonderful great spiritual teacher who happens to have his Saturn right on my Sun (and an impressive number of exact conjunctions with my chart. Definitely very karmic)
Rigid, dogmatic, man made religions are being shown for what they really are, and people are embracing spirituality, not religion.
My spiritual teacher is always calling us to more awareness of that fact, and yet... I have still been falling into the trap.
I believe and would say religions without spirituality are very toxic poison, but sprituality without form, and possiby even formalities, is empty air. Cosy and spacious, but you can't climb on anything solid and grow...
This is all very tricky. These times on earth are very tricky.
Oh may I find a Saturnian way of injecting fun into it!
with gratitude.
(It seems I cannot insert an image of the visual I created today!)
